Hello my sweet friends, praying that everyone is doing well. I am still in shock, not wanting to believe that my big brother is gone. Tomorrow(Wednesday) is the visitation from 4-8, and his funeral will be on Thursday at 11. I have not really been sleeping, my mind will not rest from all the memories. I cry so much, then I just want to sit, and be very still and quiet. My Doctor called me today with my most recent blood work results, no good news to report. My cholesterol levels are all very high, my thyroid levels are way too high, my hbc1 diabetes test came back high. They are still waiting on the results of my kidney function tests. She increased my medications, including my nitroglycerin patch. I have been really hurting in my chest, but I know it is just stress. God is carrying me, because right now, I am too weary to walk on my own. But, this happened for a reason, and only God knows that reason. My brother is in a much better place, no more diabetes, praise God!! I love You Father, and I will cling tightly to You through this storm.