Tuesday, June 10, 2008

Hello My Friends


Hello my sweet friends, praying that everyone is doing well. I am still in shock, not wanting to believe that my big brother is gone. Tomorrow(Wednesday) is the visitation from 4-8, and his funeral will be on Thursday at 11. I have not really been sleeping, my mind will not rest from all the memories. I cry so much, then I just want to sit, and be very still and quiet. My Doctor called me today with my most recent blood work results, no good news to report. My cholesterol levels are all very high, my thyroid levels are way too high, my hbc1 diabetes test came back high. They are still waiting on the results of my kidney function tests. She increased my medications, including my nitroglycerin patch. I have been really hurting in my chest, but I know it is just stress. God is carrying me, because right now, I am too weary to walk on my own. But, this happened for a reason, and only God knows that reason. My brother is in a much better place, no more diabetes, praise God!! I love You Father, and I will cling tightly to You through this storm.

38 comments:

Laurel Wreath said...

Denise I am sorry you did not get good news from the Doctor. I will be praying you through this week, I know the viewing and funeral are going to be hard. Just know many of us out here in Blog world are standing in the gap for you and lifting you up in prayer!

Hi I'm Sheila! said...

Love your new background so cheery and sweet. :)

Beth (A Mom's Life) said...

Still praying for you...

Angie said...

You know I am praying. I am sorry that you didn't get better news from the Dr. but the LORD knows all of this Denise. He is loving and holding you close.
Try and rest as much as you can. For your heart/health/mind/spirit.
I wish I could be there to help you through this, but I know that Eddie is a big help to you. YOu are loved and prayed for.

Denise said...

hey girl friend....... I so love you and so care what you are going through..... Rest in the Lord and believe on all his promises... He is a faithful God and His ways are so far beyond our understanding... I have no words for you but I know the Man that does...... Rest in Him and He will hold you close....

I will pray for your health... I will pray for your heart.....
I will pray that the Father touch and heal your body and comfort your grief.....

Monkey Giggles said...

Will be praying for you.

Our Home Schooler and Jen said...

praying for you
HUGS
Jen

Honest to Ya~Ya said...

I was just reading about your loss through Darlene's post today. So sorry to hear about it! My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family during this time!
(((hugs)))

luvmy4sons said...

Oh Denise. My heart breaks for you. I am so sorry you had to get bad news from the doctor in the middle of your grief. I pray that your spirit fels the arms of Jeuss supporting you and holding you thrugh today's service. I ask for healing in your soul spirit and in your body too! I know that Jesus is there in your midst.

Marsha said...

What a storm you are in right now, dear friend! Your brother, your health, your safety where you live. Thankfully, He is with you in the midst of the storm. Just like center of a hurricane has an eye that has calm weather, that's what Jesus provides for us as we seek shelter in His arms - peace in the midst of the storm. Even though it's all around us, we are safe.
I have another full day with the mission team that is here to help us this week, but I will stop and pray for you as the Lord brings you to mind (which is often lately.).

Love you my friend.

Miss*Suzanne said...

Dear Sweet Denise,

I'm so sorry about your brother. May God overwhelm you today with his grace, comfort and peace. You and your family are in my prayers.

Suzie

the160acrewoods said...

hugs and prayers.

Jessie said...

Denise, you are in my prayers. I am sending you many ((hugs)).

Vicki said...

Oh my dear Denise! So sorry to hear about your brother. {{hugs}} Please know that I am praying for you intently and for such a time as this, that Jesus will wrap you in His love and be your joy in the midst of sorrow. I love you. Praying for your health, too.

IRENE said...

Thinking of you dearly and praying for you, your family and your brother.

ValleyGirl said...

Oh Denise, I ache for you. I'm so sorry for your loss. You will be in my prayers.

Sandi said...

So sorry to hear of your lost. I know the greif and God will carry you. God is weeping with you for your lost. I will be praying for you and the family.

Allison said...

We are all here for you and praying for you without ceasing...You have touched all of our lives that I don't think you realize ;) I know that my life wouldn't be the same without you!! (((HUGS FROM PA TO TN!!!)))

Donetta said...

It's alright sis, trust the grieving process. All this is a process step by step. Remember to take care of your self. It is real important to hold onto life as we visit the pain and loss of his death. It will be alright Denise.
I love you.
Remember He is no longer there. It is a shell of life not the true live. The visitation is just to make it real in the midst of the denial. Te denial is just a part of the process.
It will be alright.

lori said...

Denise,
I just stopped by to let you know that the prayers are unceassing...I was sad to hear that the news from the dr. was not better...BUT, I believe with you that GOD is GOOD, ALL the time...We do not know HIS ways....
I know these are days full of clouds...Denise, be lifted by those who are praying!

We do care about you girl!
Hugs,
lori

Fran said...

Praying for you today and tomorrow.
You are precious and loved Denise.

Love and hugs,
Fran

Amanda B. said...

I'm still praying for you and thinking of you dear sister.

Love Bears All Things said...

Denise, Honey, I just heard. I am so sorry this had to happen. I know it brings sadness and pain but like you said God is in control and He has a reason for this. We weep for ourselves when we lose a close loved one and not for them because we know they're are rejoicing in their Savior right now. Just imagine the reunion when your Brother met your dear sweet Mother. It brings tears to my eyes just imagining it. I remember the morning I was told my Dad was gone, just 16 months after my Mother. I thought to myself, "He's with Mother now and their holding hands and have big smiles on their face."
Bless you during the next few days. I will pray for you.
Mama Bear

Sharon said...

You and your family remain in my prayers. I'm so sorry you got bad news on your test results. Lifting you up in prayers.

(((Hugs)))
Sharon

Talk..to..Grams said...

Praying and thinking of you.So sorry about your health report. I will be praying for that too. Love you so much! Grams

Marsha said...

Just checking in on you. Sending love and hugs and prayers abundant.

KPPatty said...

Just checking in on you. I am wiped out & on my way to bed. I will see you in a bit. Try to get some rest. I think I may. The drive back was loooong. I will tell you tomorrow.

Tiffany Stuart said...

So sorry to know you are weak and not feeling well. I am sorry about your brother.

I am still praying for you. You are not alone. God is near. And you are doing what matters most, clinging to Him in this storm.

Your love and faith blesses all who meet you, Denise. You are precious.

Love you, sister in the Lord,
Tiffany

Peggy said...

Came over by way of Sandy's blog. I am so sorry about your brother and will be praying for you and your family. What a blessing to have such a wonderful brother and now a very special angel smiling down on you.

Gina@Chats With An "Old Lady" said...

I'll be praying for you! I am so sorry for what you are going through!
Keep clinging!
Sometimes that is really all we can do!

Bernadine said...

Still praying for you.
love and hugs

Nise' said...

Denise, I am so sorry about your brother. Please know that I am praying for you and your family in this time of grief and for your health as well. You are loved my friend.

Cal said...

I can see the footprints. God is truly carrying you now. Let your head rest on his shoulder and cry if you need to. He ha a tear in his eye as well, I am sure.

Be blessed and strengthened by his love.

Cal

Flip Flop Floozie said...

Denise: Please take care!! You are in my prayers. Sandy

Sharon Brumfield said...

I just want you to know that I love you and I am praying for you.
Let the tears come when they will and get rest when you can.
I know today was hard and I pray that the peace of God is beginning to be felt by your heart.
Climb up into your Daddy God's lap and let Him hold you.
He loves you so dearly and He is with you now.
Praying for you girl.
I love you

Marsha said...

Just checking in and praying for you. Love you, dear one.

Julie said...

I am so sorry for your loss. Praying that Papa will hold you close and whisper comfort into your ears.

Hugs,
Julie

becky voyles said...

I have been away. I didn't see your name on the list today. I was hoping nothing was wrong. I am so sorry to hear about your brother. Having lost my uncle not long ago, I know what you are going thru.

I did not participate today because I didn't think I was deserving to have my words among all you fine Christian women. Because you have commented on my blog and I have read your's, I feell as if I know you a little; that you are a friend and would understand we are not all perfect.

Again I am so sorry for your loss.