Thursday, June 12, 2008

Thank You Father


Thank You Father for carrying me through the last several days. Yesterday really took a toll on me, I could not have made it through the visitation without You. My heart was so full with grief over losing my big brother, then I also had to deal with more rejection from my earthly father. I do not understand how people, especially your own father can be so cruel. My sister and I were standing together talking, some people came in that work with my father, he said to them, my daughter is here somewhere, I want to introduce you. He then, looked at my sister and I, and pulled her over by his side and introduced her to them. He did not even acknowledge my presence. Today, at the funeral, same situation. I came home last night, and today, so very weary from this journey. I am at peace for my brother, I know he is much better off than we are. He is with my dear momma, I miss them both so very much, but I praise You Father for taking care of them. I am crying for myself, not my brother. He is riding his motorcycle in heaven, momma is telling him to slow down!! I would be so lost without You Father, a true orphan. So many of my relatives at the visitation, said that they were in shock over hearing the news about my brother. They said they would have believed it would have been me, or my sister, but not Charles. Then, I had a few people, that told me I really look bad, not well at all. Father, my life is in Your hands. You are the only one that knows the number of my days. I continue to fully trust You with every area of my life, You are the one I will always run to. Thank You Father for loving me, just as I am. Watch out for my brother, he can be a real rascal!!

25 comments:

Talk..to..Grams said...

Denise, I am so sorry that your Dad was unkind to you! But Praise God HE never leaves us or forsakes us or rejects us!! Whew! That is such a relief that HE will never do that!

I have only been married one time and my ex (Gramps) didn't want me and he married someone else. I was so heart broken. BUT God has seen me through the last 30 years each and every day!

When earthly folks reject us HE never does!! I am praying for you and for your health! Please know that you are SO loved by all of us! You are very precious! Love and hugs Grams

Tiffany said...

Oh Denise! I'm here sending hugs, lots of them. I am so sorry, so very sorry for your loss. I know your heart hurts, right now. And I am sad and angry that someone would wound you so visciously in the midst of this loss. You are so precious and kind hearted. I will pray for healing. Don't let this rob you of your joy (in the Lord.) I know it's hard right now and will be for a long time, but you are so encouraging and uplifting, such a blessing to me and others all around you. God Bless You!

Lady of Value said...

Bless your heart! What a time you have had. Please know you (and your dad) are in my prayers. People hurt us and make us so mad sometimes, but the best we can do is to pray for them even though we may not want to. Jesus speaks to the Father on our behalf when we don't know what words to say. Take comfort in the arms of Jesus.

Marsha said...

I'm so thankful the Lord has seen you through the loss of your brother. What ever would we do without Him!

Dear One, I'm so sad that your earthly dad treated you so shamefully. You have done nothing wrong. This will all be on his shoulders and he will be held accountable for his actions.

Praise the Lord you have Eddie who absolutely adores you! And even more than that, you have a heavenly Father who adores you even more. Your DNA from your earthly father has NO EFFECT on you! YOU, my dear friend are made in the image of God! You carry His spiritual DNA.

I'm so very blest to call you my sister in Christ. You, Denise, carry the DNA of our Father, a DNA that is exemplified by love. And honey, YOU are full of His love! It pours forth from you and we, your sisters, are the blest recipients of it.

I love you and I continue to pray for you.

texastanya said...

I am so sorry for your loss, Denise. I'm sending you hugs and prayers. May the love of our heavenly Father fill you with the peace that passes understanding. May he give you strength and healing in the coming days.
Hugs to you,
Tanya

Allison said...

*Sigh* I can't imagine what you are going through. All I know is that in my darker hours, when I thought no one loved or cared for me the way I felt I needed it, I was reminded of the Word that tells us that even when our own parents desert us, our Heavenly Father adopts us and makes us as joint heirs to all that is His - woo! I wish I was there to hug you and tell you that you DO look beautiful - inside and out :-D Can't wait to see new pics of you in your stylin' hats and scarves - woohoo!! LOVE YOU!!!!!

Juliet said...

Hi Denise, I'm praying for you too: praying that you will really experience peace and strength from our beautiful God, and that your inner pain and your physical body will be healed in Jesus Name! I can't say I've been in your position, but I can say that I know God is enough for all our need! He's holding you right now. And He won't let you fall... you are so absolutely precious to Him!
I hope this scripture will provide comfort in your time of need: Psalm 91:4- "He will cover you with his feathers, and under His wings you will find refuge; His faithfulness will be your shield and rampart."

Love you, sweet sister. Stay still in God's love.
Juliet.

Donetta said...

Hi, I love you.
Your real Pappa, Abba loves you.
Hurt people , hurt people. I too will be praying for him to com to repentance. It would be a terrible thing if he got what he deserved.
You did not get what you deserved from him. words are so powerful. Wash your soul with our words. Refresh your mind in the remembrance of them.
Rest.

Beth (A Mom's Life) said...

Oh, Denise. Please know that we are all still praying for you and that God will strengthen you and provide you with peace and comfort.

Love,
Beth

luvmy4sons said...

Oh Denise...to add insult to injury. I am so very very sorry for unkind comments and unkind ways. Thankfully our Father is a great father to the fatherless...Hugs to you dear sister. I know your brother is a happy camper with Jesus.

Amanda B. said...

Denise,

I posted a rather long comment last night, but I don't see it here...I'm sorry if you didn't get it. I wanted you to know that I am praying heavily for you and the Lord has placed you in my heart. God gave me the following verses yesterday morning and had me pray specifically for you in your current afflictions. I pray He will wrap His arms around you.

Many are the afflictions of the righteous,
But the LORD delivers him out of them all.
He guards all his bones;
Not one of them is broken
Ps 34:19-20

becky voyles said...

Your last sentence really made me smile thru my tears of reading how your "dad" and I use the term loosely treated you. I am so sorry to hear this. My thoughts will be with you during this difficult time in your life. Thanks for your kind comments on my blog yesterday. You really made me feel better and you are so right... I must be true to myself. Thanks again for that. Hope you have a great weekend.

Heather said...

Sending you hugs and lifting you up in prayer. You are such an encourager and I wanted to send some of that encouragement back to you. Rest in His arms.

Flip Flop Floozie said...

That was so unkind of your father to do that to you!! What did you sister have to say about it? I think that is terrible and I am so sorry that had to happen.
I know that you must be relieved that the services are all over with.
I hate to hear that people said you do not look good!! They love you I am sure but hate to see you not look well.
Please take care. Sandy

Bernadine said...

So sorry that you had to deal with rejection while trying to come to terms with the loss of your brother. I'll continue to keep you in my prayers.
love and hugs

Melanie said...

I am so sorry for the loss of your brother. And I am so sorry for the rejection from your father. I can't understand how a parent could do that. But with God as your Heavenly Father you know you will come through this. And your last sentence made me chuckle. Even through your grief you still brought a smile to my face.

Hugs and prayers sweet friend!

Denise said...

Bless your heart!!!!! Bless your heart!!!!!!!!!! Know that your heavenly Father will never leave or forsake you......Never.... We must not let our hearts be hardened by the actions of other.... You hold fast to the love of God and just cry...... He will catch your tears......

Love you

Colleen Couvillon Gough said...

Oh Denise, I am so sorry you are going though all this. I know it hurts but do not let the bitterness your father showed get you down. You are the bigger person, forgive him for he knows not what he is doing.
God Bless you... you are loved.

Promise from GOD: Psalm 147:3 He heals the brokenhearted, binding up their wounds.

much love,
colleen
ccgough@cox.net
http://dailywalkswithmyfriends.blogspot.com

luvmy4sons said...

Still praying for you sister...I think you might be ministered to by my music video today...this song by Mercy Me...Home Sick...I heard it on the way home from camping where I had recevied news that my dear friend and Pastor's wife who was 47 had passed away from stage four breast cancer that she had fought for over five years...leaving behind 7 children and a wonderful husband...I bawled and bawled as I drove- scaring my son who was thinking I shouldn't be driving. The pain was so raw...so very raw...and well, I love you. I am praying for you and I sure wish I could come through this screen and give you a hug!

elizabeth embracing life said...

Denise, the arms of our heavenly Father are always reaching down to hug and hold you. Sorry to hear of your loss, and I love how you see your brother driving his bike in heaven. Made me smile. Blessings as you embrace every single day and moment with our Lord right beside you and proud to call you HIS daughter.

Hi I'm Sheila! said...

shortybear I am so sorry to read you blog about your brother and all the heartache you are going through.
I am sorry how your dad treated you and that people would say how bad you look, that sure isn't very nice.
I will keep you in my prayers and that peace comes to you today.

Big Hug,
Sheila

Love Bears All Things said...

I am so sorry you had these experiences in the midst of your grief. People can be so cruel. Thankfully, we have a heavenly Father who loves us like no one else ever can. I pray that you find comfort in this knowlege in the days ahead.
You are welcome to keep the journal and write in it in the coming weeks if you want but I understand if you just want to pass it on. Maybe when it makes the rounds again, you'll want to add to it. Love and blessings sent your way,
Mama Bear

Twinkle Mom said...

God bless you dear sister and may He lift you a thousand folds and let you know how much you are dearly loved and seen...

I'm so sorry about what your earthly father did but praise God that you have a Heavenly Father who sees you for the beautiful princess you are...

Tiffany Stuart said...

Denise,

I am so sorry your earthly dad continues to treat you this way.

I don't know what to say. It's wrong. Wrong. Very wrong.

I am so glad God is your perfect Father. Your father yesterday, today and all your tomorrows. Your future is secure in Him. He never rejects you. His arms are open for you. He loves you. Chooses you. And sings over you...

Love,
Tiffany

Julie said...

Denise, all you have to do is read all of these loving comments to know your true worth!! We all love you & you are a wonderful child of God. I will be praying for your earthly Father as he truly needs all the prayer he can get. :o)

I am sorry that I have not commented lately. Claire & Lily are both sick. I will be on a blogging break starting today. Just wanted to check in and let you know that I am still here and reading and praying! :o)

Much Love and Many Prayers,
Julie