Thank You Father for carrying me through the last several days. Yesterday really took a toll on me, I could not have made it through the visitation without You. My heart was so full with grief over losing my big brother, then I also had to deal with more rejection from my earthly father. I do not understand how people, especially your own father can be so cruel. My sister and I were standing together talking, some people came in that work with my father, he said to them, my daughter is here somewhere, I want to introduce you. He then, looked at my sister and I, and pulled her over by his side and introduced her to them. He did not even acknowledge my presence. Today, at the funeral, same situation. I came home last night, and today, so very weary from this journey. I am at peace for my brother, I know he is much better off than we are. He is with my dear momma, I miss them both so very much, but I praise You Father for taking care of them. I am crying for myself, not my brother. He is riding his motorcycle in heaven, momma is telling him to slow down!! I would be so lost without You Father, a true orphan. So many of my relatives at the visitation, said that they were in shock over hearing the news about my brother. They said they would have believed it would have been me, or my sister, but not Charles. Then, I had a few people, that told me I really look bad, not well at all. Father, my life is in Your hands. You are the only one that knows the number of my days. I continue to fully trust You with every area of my life, You are the one I will always run to. Thank You Father for loving me, just as I am. Watch out for my brother, he can be a real rascal!!