Saturday, September 19, 2015
Stress Less Blog Hop
Our hearts are sick, when they are burdened with stress. and Jesus is the eternal healer of hearts. I found this to be very true back in March of this year. As I laid in bed, in the early morning hours, unable to sleep, as usual. The evil one entered my mind, and began to take over. The words he whispered in my ears, of course, were all filled with negativity. Examples: Denise, you are worthless, no one would miss you. You are nothing but a financial burden to your husband, you constantly cause him medial bills. Look at you, you are so ugly, not much of a woman. You have no hair, no eyebrows, and look at your huge body. You are pathetic. The world would be a better place without you in it. Go ahead, kill yourself. Take those pills in the bathroom, overdose. As I listened to those words, I started to cry, and pray. I told God, how very sorry I was for disappointing Him, and not being a better daughter to Him. I asked Him, to forgive me for what I was about to do, and to please just let me go to sleep, and then come and meet me. I took those pills, my husband went to work, not knowing what I had done. I got very sick, and started throwing up. I could seriously feel the life going out of me. Suddenly, I heard another voice, calling my name. It was my precious Lord Jesus, and He was telling me how much He loved me. He said He forgave me, and that it was not my time to go. He helped me to make a call to 911. The ambulance came, and took me to the hospital, from there, I went to rehab for a week. I now see a counselor every two weeks. Physically, my heart was definitely sick. November 2014, I had a heart attack, and triple bypass. Now, I have coronary artery disease. Emotionally, my heart was totally broken. But, you know what my friends? Jesus is my true physician, and eternal healer. He took all the broken pieces, mended them, and put me back together, better than ever. Thank You Lord Jesus!!