Five Minute Friday/Focus

Wake up, focus Denise!! Come out of this brain fog that you seem to keep falling back into. That was me, talking to myself last night. Then, my husband began saying to me: Focus on me honey, stay focused on me. You see, I am a type 1 diabetic, and if my blood sugar level drops low, I bottom out, and can actually start to go into a coma. Also, I have had several mini strokes, and then, had a big stroke last September. Yesterday evening, I got very sick with severe pain in the back of my head. Not a headache, pain!! When I had my stroke, it was located in the back of my head, and I still have a 100% blocked artery in the back of my head. The pain would not stop, kept getting worse. It was so bad, that it made me cry. I also got very cold, my right hand started shaking, and would not stop. I totally lost all focus. I did not know where I was, felt like I was going deeper and deeper into a tunnel. Scary stuff!! My husband said he held me in his arms, trying to get me warm. He was talking to me, and praying non-stop. Finally, one hour later, I got warm, and my head, slowly stopped hurting. All day today, the back of my head has been extremely sore. Once again, I am focused. Did I have another stroke? Only God knows. But, I refuse to focus on the negative, and the what ifs. I am choosing to focus on the positives in my life, and the fact that I am alive. I know the strokes have taken years off of my life, but, that is ok. The time I have left is not what I am going to focus on, I would whether focus on how I am going to spend the time I have left.