Friday, September 14, 2012

Five Minute Friday/Focus

Wake up, focus Denise!! Come out of this brain fog that you seem to keep falling back into. That was me, talking to myself last night. Then, my husband began saying to me: Focus on me honey, stay focused on me. You see, I am a type 1 diabetic, and if my blood sugar level drops low, I bottom out, and can actually start to go into a coma. Also, I have had several mini strokes, and then, had a big stroke last September. Yesterday evening, I got very sick with severe pain in the back of my head. Not a headache, pain!! When I had my stroke, it was located in the back of my head, and I still have a 100% blocked artery in the back of my head. The pain would not stop, kept getting worse. It was so bad, that it made me cry. I also got very cold, my right hand started shaking, and would not stop. I totally lost all focus. I did not know where I was, felt like I was going deeper and deeper into a tunnel. Scary stuff!! My husband said he held me in his arms, trying to get me warm. He was talking to me, and praying non-stop. Finally, one hour later, I got warm, and my head, slowly stopped hurting. All day today, the back of my head has been extremely sore. Once again, I am focused. Did I have another stroke? Only God knows. But, I refuse to focus on the negative, and the what ifs. I am choosing to focus on the positives in my life, and the fact that I am alive. I know the strokes have taken years off of my life, but, that is ok. The time I have left is not what I am going to focus on, I would whether focus on how I am going to spend the time I have left.

27 comments:

Leigh Hudson said...

Wow. What a miracle you are! Great to visit your blog via five-minute-friday link up! I like your attitude about choosing to focus on the days you have not the days lost.
Blessings!
Leigh

Joyful said...

Sweet Denise, so sorry you had a scary time. I thank God that your lovebug was there to hold you and pray for you. I love you and you know God loves you too. Prayers and virtual hugs sent. xx

Lori said...

Wow! What a scary night! So glad you are better. Praying for you!

Dee said...

Your focus is a big inspiration...not to look at the circumstance and what if's. I hope you are feeling better. I do not know if I could be as brave as you if I was in your circumstance...I can only hope so. Blessings.Dee

Kelly Scott said...

Wow. You have a lot to focus on. Praise God you know Who to focus on. Every blessing, Kelly

Ginger Wade said...

Every time I visit your site, you greet me with a fresh look and fresh perspective. You never seem to stop trusting and praising Him, no matter what storm you are facing.

You have blessed me, Denise, as you will continue to bless others. Thank you for your heart, your obedience, and for you perseverance.

This to you and your husband.

Ginger

erin said...

How scary! You have a great attitude about everything.

Terra said...

Your focus on the present and the future is upbeat, and depending on prayer and your lovebug is a super focus. Did you talk to your doctor about that most recent scarey episode? I am praying this week will be a great and healthy one for you.

afridaysgirl said...

Thanks for visiting today Denise and for your kind comment. Stay well. It is obvious you are loved.

Jamie said...

I'm so thankful your husband was with you and taking such good care of you.

devotedtoquilting said...

Thanks for stopping by my blog and introducing me to you. How could I not love a blog with "bear" in the title? So glad you're feeling better. I love it when doctors say "X has (or will) take years off a life." How do they know? Do they have a magic ball that tells them how long someone will live is X didn't happen? Love your upbeat attitude. Thanks for sharing.

Cathy said...

Oh, Dear, I'm so sorry you were so sick. Praying for healing ~ Love you

Farida said...

Get well soon Ms Denise. I will include you in my prayers :)

Hugs!

Allison C. Lee said...

What a fantastic testimony!!!! LOVE IT. You are a gift from the Lord...

joy said...

I admires you for your strength and faith inspite of your circumstances. You are in my prayer Denise. You are an inspiration.

my diary said...

amen friend...enjoy what you have now you have many people loves you i do...we pray for you..and jesus is with you...blessings

Marie Louise said...

Pfff Denise...scary night you had!!
lad you're husband was there and hold you, praying..
Wish you all the best, hope it not comes back again that pain..
Praying for you..

Hugs,Marga

Gilligan Maryanne said...

Denise, I am so sorry for your scary times, my friend is a Diabetic along with the stroke(s)
we had a scare just this week.
Praying for you!!! love you

Unknown said...

Whoa. How incredibly frightening! I'm so glad you're doing better. Your attitude is inspiring and incredible!

Saleslady371 said...

I pray this is the last time you have to experience that scary pain. Wishing you a healthy and very happy weekend! Big hugs.

Nikki @ Simplystriving said...

Oh my goodness. So thankful you weren't alone!
Prays and hugs being sent your way!

Karen said...

I pray for God's presence to bring you peace and comfort and healing today.

Karen said...

I pray that your weekend is a great one with renewed strength from the joy of the Lord...and that He gives you many, many more days to shine your light...can't imagine a day without Shortybear....

girlathome said...

Scary! Way to focus on the positive!

dinoheromommy.com said...

I am in awe of your beautiful attitude. I am saying a prayer for you babe.

Cathy said...

I'm so sorry, dear, sweet Denise. I made a comment earlier, but guess it did not take. I pray that blockage is gone, in the name of Jesus. Love you very much, Dear. Hugs ~

Pamela said...

How frightening, my friend. Your attitude blesses me. Choosing to focus on the good brings a special peace to our heart. So thankful you're feeling better.