Lonesome, But Not Alone

We are able to hide our hurts in Him. We can go to God for consolation, and comfort at anytime. No matter what has happened, we can take our deepest disappointments to Him. He understands, and He cares. He feels the same sorrow. We are His children, and the thing that has hurt us, has hurt Him as well.

Even in our togetherness with the Father, the pain may not disappear completely. The sadness we feel is real. It is not something we imagine, or fabricate. If we did not care so deeply in the first place – whether we failed to get a job we wanted, or we learned that a loved one is in distress – we would not experience such intense torment. That is the very reason God weeps for us, when we are in distress: He does not like to see us this way, because He loves, and cares for us.

He grieves with us, and for us, during times of trouble. The pain that we experience, and the pain that He feels, are one in the same. We mourn together, because we are alike. What bothers us, also bothers Him. He created us in His image; He made us like Himself, with His emotions, and feelings.

Whenever you are hurting, go to the One who understands. The God, who gave birth to you. He knows you better than anyone on earth. Not only will He share your grief, but He will reassure you that everything will be okay. He is your Father, and He is in control of each situation. Even when you feel lost, and lonesome, you are never alone.

Fearless Friday

Thankful Thursday

I am so thankful for God's beauty that He so willingly shares with me daily, in so many different ways. Such as the beauty of Lisa, a dear bloggy friend, who has now become a real in life friend. Her, and her sweet family, bless me with their beauty for the Lord. Her beautiful daughter Emily, wanted to give me her Disney shirt, just because pink is my favorite color. Thanks for accepting me as I am Emily, I appreciate this family for seeing past the outward package, and seeing my heart. I am thankful for lovebug loving me, as I am. He thinks my weight is fine just as it is, he actually thinks I am loosing too much. Bless his heart. I thank God for making us all unique, and different. The world would be boring if we all looked the same, so celebrate your uniqueness my friends. In God's eyes, you are all so very beautiful, and also in my eyes. I love you all.

What Does Love Look Like In Your Home?

This week at my home, it looks incredible. Friendship love is the theme here at my home this week. Getting to meet Lisa, and her treasured family on Saturday, made me greatly rejoice. I am so grateful to have been blessed with that opportunity. Then, Tuesday night, lovebug and I were at Walmart, one of the teenage girls from the old Church we use to attend, beautiful Hayley, came running down the aisle, nearly knocking me down with huge hugs. I was so happy to see her, such a pleasant surprise. She was, and is a true heart blessing to me. She made me feel so loved, she kept on saying how much she loved me, and how happy she was to see me. She told me where she is working, and to please come see her at work. Of course, we exchanged phone numbers, and many more hugs. So, at my home this week, God has blessed me with much friendship love. Thank You Father, keep it coming.

Word Filled Wednesday

My friends, God is the ultimate definition of love. Love has no color, no nationality, no gender, and does not play favorites. Love does one thing, and does it perfectly, loves. God loves us beyond measure, and He shows us daily how to love others. His heart's desire, is for us to allow Him to be used to be a vessel, that He can freely pour out His love upon each day, and then pour that love into empty, needy vessels.
Are you a willingly vessel, or a needy vessel my friend? God's wellspring of love, never runs dries.

A Little Bit Of This, A Little Bit Of That

Happy Monday everyone, pray your weekend was blessed. Lovebug worked ten hours four days last week, then he actually had to work on Saturday. So, he was blessed with 56 hours last week. But, he was so wiped out, and hot. We praise God for watching over us financially. I am still rejoicing over getting to meet my dear blogging sis Lisa, and her precious family on Saturday. Cherished memories that will last forever. I was pleasantly surprised this morning, I stepped on my scale, and to my amazement, I had lost 3 pounds. I am now weighing 149, the smallest I have ever weighed was somewhere between 146-148. That was 25 years ago, when lovebug and I got married. I was 21 years old, wow!! So, to celebrate, I think I will do the shortybear dance, lol I should have shared that dance with Lisa, and her family Saturday, but they probably would have thought I was crazy for sure, lol Take care everyone, and have a wonderful day. I love you all.

Lifetime Friends

I promised pictures, here are a couple. Me and dear Lisa, and me, Lisa, and her precious children. I love you Lisa, Adrienne, Emily, AJ, and Joel.

Way Of Worship

Father God, I fall to my knees in silence. I want to dwell in Your presence, totally shut out the world, and all of its noise. I want to breathe in Your sweet fragrance, I want to hear Your heart beat close to mine. You are my beloved, now, and forever. I love You Father, may my praise be a sweet gift to You. I thank You for being my daily gift.

Meeting A Precious Family

Today, God truly blessed me once again. My sweet friend Lisa , and her precious family, had been to Florida on vacation this week. Well, on their way there last weekend, she sent me a message asking me if I would like to meet each other on their way back through this weekend. Of course, I could not, and would not pass up that opportunity. So, today, on their way back through Tennessee, on their way home, they came by to meet me. It was beyond awesome. I felt like I had known them forever. This family is so beautifully blessed, the children are all so talented in various ways, and so amazing. I loved their hugs, and smiles. Tito, Lisa's husband, was not very talkative, (not that Lisa and I gave him much of an opportunity to talk, lol) but, he is very sweet. It was a pleasure meeting him. Unfortunately, lovebug did not get to meet them, he had to work today. He worked 56 hours this week, he is passed out on our couch right now, poor baby. Lastly, but certainly not least, was Lisa. She was everything I knew she would be, blessed my heart abundantly. She is such a beautiful ray of Sonshine. I see Jesus all over her. Her children, husband, parents, and sister, are all so blessed beyond measure to have her in their life's. I love you sis of my heart, and miss you already. There will be pictures soon, my camera was not working, but Tito came to the rescue with their camera. Thanks Tito. I praise God for this day.

Fearless Friday

Thankful Thursday

Father, thank You for loving me through an emotional anniversary week. When I was down, You lifted me back up. You dried my tears, and replaced them with laughter. You reminded me, that I may not be a mom, but I do have a mom's heart. I love to nurture people, it makes my heart smile. So, watch out my friends, the nurturing will continue, it will never stop. Until, I take my last breathe, and then I plan on being your guardian angel, lol Seriously, I love you all very much. Thanks for your love, and prayers. You truly touch my heart. Be blessed, as you bless my life.

What Does Love Look Like In Your Home?

Hello my friends, what does love look like in your home this week? Well, once again, lovebug has shown his true colors this week. I was quite emotional on Monday, and Tuesday of this week. Lovebug came to my rescue, as always my hero. He let me have a meltdown in his arms, held me until I was finished, then wiped my final tears away, and spoke gentle, loving, comforting, words into my ears, as well as my heart. Then, went into the kitchen, and totally surprised me, by making me a lemon slush, my favorite. It was better than sonic. I love you dear lovebug.

Word Filled Wednesday

Thank You Jesus for always being the same, You never change. I am so grateful for that. So many people, and things in my life, change quickly, and often. But, You my precious Saviour, remain the same. Faithful, and true, always You. I praise You for that, and for so much more.

Ten Years Ago

Exactly ten years ago today, I said goodbye to a dream. The dream of ever being a mother. It was on this day, that after trying for almost 16 years to have a baby, I had to have a complete hysterectomy. I have accepted God's will for my life, I am not angry at my Father. But, I am a woman, and I am only human. I hurt sometimes over the empty arms through the years. This week, I am hurting. Memories of what could have been, are surrounding my heart. I am aching with a deep longing to hold a precious baby that I created with my dear lovebug. I have a bad case of baby blues. But, my Father is near, and His comfort. Lovebug hugged me close last night, as tears for my dream baby rolled down my face. For those of you who were blessed to have children, do me a favor, hold them extra close, and love them extra gently this week. They are forever treasures. For those of you, who are like me, my heart hurts for you. Please know, I understand, and I pray for you. The songs playing on my blog today, were requested by lovebug, he dedicated them to me, with all of his love. He told me last night, as he was comforting me, that I have always been more than enough for him, and always would be. Thank You Father for my precious lovebug. Now, my letter to my dream baby. : Dear Christina Leanna, or Christopher Lee, Even though, you are only my dream baby, I love you. I know you would have been such a beautiful blessing to your dad and me. We would have given you our hearts, and did whatever it took to make your heart smile daily. We would have told you all about Jesus, and shined the light of His love in your life. We would have been such a happy family, not perfect, but perfectly blessed with much love and happiness. Please know, that I miss not being able to be your mom, and I long for you. But, God had other plans, so I had to follow His path for my life. But, I will forever see you in my dreams. I love you sweet dream baby.

Prayers Needed

Hello my friends, pray your Monday has been a blessed filled day for you. My heart is so full today, of sadness. I live in an apartment complex as many of you know. It has become very dangerous, alot of drugs are being made, and sold around here on a daily, and nightly basis. It breaks my heart, that people choose to fill their lives up with drugs, instead of Jesus. Jesus is all they need. I do not want to be a drug pusher, I want to be a Jesus pusher. I do not need drugs to get high, I stay high on life because of Jesus. I want so badly to approach these people, and talk to them about Jesus. But, lovebug will not allow me to do that, says it is much too dangerous. There has been a murder here over a bad drug deal, there has also been a drive by shooting here. We have seen people walking by openly carrying knives, and a machette. So, I will continue to pray, pray, pray. Will you please pray for rustic village apartments? I would very much appreciate your prayers.

The Cross On The Parking Lot

There are so many churches here in Tennessee, they say you can actually find one on nearly every street corner. Now, I do not know about that, but I do know there are quite a few here. One that is just up the road from where I live, made headlines a few years ago, when they put a huge cross on the parking lot of their church. There was alot of time, and money spent on this endeavor. Well, after the cross went up, they started sending letters out to try to get new members for their church. Lovebug, and I received one of the letters. It truly saddened my heart to read the letter, all it mainly was, was an attempt to raise funds for the payment of the cross. It stated clearly in very detailed words, that they were in debt to their bank, and needed believers to come together to pay this debt. I, in no way wish to be disrespectful to the people of this church, but people wake up. My God is no longer on the cross, my God is very much alive. Instead of spending excessive amounts of money, and putting yourselves in debt, to erect a cross upon a parking lot, you should have taken the time to go out on visitation to the neighborhoods surrounding your church, knocking upon doors, asking people to come to church. Which, prayerfully, would have lead to people hearing Jesus knocking upon the door of their hearts, and with your help, they would have answered His knock, and been saved. Jesus paid our debt already upon the cross, now we are to share Him with others. We should be pointing the way to Jesus, not to the bank to make a payment. Thank You Jesus for forgiving us when we mess up. Help us to get our act together, before it is too late.

Way Of Worship

My heart's garden is filled with the precious, intoxicating scent of my Saviour. Oh, how I adore You, now, and forever more. You have the cure for all that ails me, Your love never fails me. You took the nails, to save my soul from hell. Praising You, is what I gladly choose to do, and is the very least, what is due to You. I love You, I love You. O, Lord my God, I love You.

Fearless Friday

Thankful Thursday-Promises

Hello friends, welcome to another Thankful Thursday. Praise God from whom all blessings flow, praise God, my faithful promise keeper. Praise Him my friends, He is totally worthy. My niece Kelli, who just turned 28 in June, and has a beautiful baby boy who will be 1 in September, and is the daughter of my big brother Charles, who passed away in 2008 from his diabetes, is in the middle of a health crisis. Prayers for her are very much coveted. She is numb on the right side of her body, they have ruled out a blood clot, and a stroke, praise God. They are going to be doing some blood work, and a nerve conduction test, trying to find out what the problem is. This is bringing some memories back for me, and my lovebug, it was seven months ago, when lovebug went numb from his waist down, and the tests began. He continues to have numbness in his feet and legs, but God has truly worked miracles in his life. We know what God will do, can do, and has done. He is so faithful to us. When He makes a promise, He keeps it. His Word, is forever true. I know, He will see my niece through this, and use this for His good. We will soon be singing His praises, as always. Healing is on the way, I believe, so, we will receive. Thanking You ahead of time Father. I love You beyond all measure.

What Does Love Look Like In Your Home?

Hello my friends, today I am linking up with my friend Joanne at her blog for her new meme. It is, what does love look like in your home? I hope you will join us. Well, this week at our home, I have not been feeling very well. So, of course, my sweet hubby has been at his best. Lovebug has been extra sweet to me all week, watching over me. Each day when he comes home from work, he then becomes doctor lovebug. He gives me my medicine, makes sure I eat something, and gives me plenty of TLC. He actually washed my hair, or I should say head, there is hardly no hair there, the other night when I was so sick. The most precious thing he has done the entire week, he has prayed for me without ceasing. So, that is what love looks like in my home this week.

Word Filled Wednesday

Praise God for the waters, and the rivers, He has allowed me to safely pass through, without drowning, and barely even getting wet. I praise Him for the flames, and fires of hell, that have blazed all around me, but never burned me. Because of my Father, I never even smelled of soot, only the precious, blessed aroma of my Father.

Where I Have Been

If I just look at where I have been, and where I am now, I can clearly see the hand of God all over my life. He has always come through for me, time after time. And, I know, He will continue to. Waking up daily, still being able to see through my ever weakening eyes, proves that He is watching over me. My recent miraculous thyroid ultrasound, shows He is watching over me. This week, is not a very physically good week for me so far. The early hours of Monday morning, I woke up experiencing some major chest pains, and nausea. As most of you know, I have several heart blockages due to my diabetes. I was really sick, but due to the prayers of my precious lovebug, and the touch of my Saviour, I did not have to go to the hospital. The chest pains finally went away, but the nausea lasted all day, along with a very bad headache, and I threw up early this morning. My diabetes is also acting up. But, I rebuke it all in the powerful name of Jesus. He is here with me, watching closely over me. I refuse to let satan take my body for his purposes, he will not weaken me. I belong to Jesus, and because of that, I am strong. He is my healer.

Marriage Monday-Tips For Caring For Aging Parents

This is definitely a subject very close to my heart. As most of you know, my dear momma passed away in 2006. She lived with me and my dear husband for almost four years. She became very ill at the end of 2004, and things went down hill from there, God bless her. She was in a constant battle for her life, our life's were filled with many trips to her various doctors, and to the emergency room. She spent much of her time in the hospital, yet she never complained. She smiled through all of the pain, and believe me, there was much pain. She suffered from kidney failure, blockages in her stomach, heart problems, dementia, and grand Mal seizures. Taking care of my momma brought my husband and I even closer. He loved her as much as I did, and she considered him a son. They were also dear friends. I watched them laugh together, and cry together. I listened as he expressed his love for her, and she expressed hers for him. I watched, as my husband picked my momma up, and carried her in his arms, out of our apartment, all the way out to the parking lot, and placed her gently in our car, because she was much to weak to walk. She then looked up at him lovingly, rubbed his face, and said,"Thanks good looking, no one has ever swept me off my feet before. I will never forget you." I do not know what I would have done without my husband during the last months, weeks, and days of my mommas life. When she passed away on April 21, 2006, it left a very lonely place in our life's, and an empty spot in our hearts. I went to a very dark place for awhile, but thanks to the love of my Father, and my husband, I survived, and came back into the Light. As for tips for caring for your aging parents, the best advice I can give you, love them, love them, love them. Embrace every moment you have with them, spend time making memories, be gentle with their hearts because believe me when I say, time goes quickly. We love you, and miss you more each day momma. Thanks for the privilege of taking care of you.

Sunday Praise

Hello my sweet friends, praying your day has been filled with many blessings. God is so awesome, everyday, in every way. Praising Him comes very easily for me. He gives me so many reasons each day to praise Him. I love Him, more each day. My heart overflows with blessings from my Father, and I want to share my blessings with all of you. Open your hearts to Him, let Him fill you to overflowing. Let us all fill the world with praise to our Father. Shout it out, do not be silent any longer. He loves you so very much, share it with the world. Give thanks with a grateful heart. I love you my friends.

Way Of Worship

When my world is falling apart, and deep within my heart, satan's darts have left their marks, I will not stumble, nor will I fall. Instead, I will lift my weary head, and turn my blurry, tear stained eyes upon Jesus. He will, as always, lift me up, and set me upon lofty places. He is my Saviour, my Beloved, the One I adore. There is none above Him, none more worthy of my love, or praise. Together, we begin to dance. The troubles of this world, begin to fade away, as my Saviour and I sway to the heavenly music that the angels graciously provide for us. Praying, and swaying, what a beautiful way to start my day.

Prayer Request From My Friend's Blog

Prayer Request

Tonight I ask all my friends, readers and anyone that might even stumble in today to prayer for me and My Cowboy. I don't think that if your here today that it was accident.

I have to believe and trust that God sent you here.

Because I need you to lift me and my Cowboy up in prayer.

We are supposed to move on the 23rd to an apartment where we will begin apartment ministry. Today at 4:30 I got the finally approval. I was Praising God.

Today at 5:00 Cowboy found out that his job was no longer available. He has been there three weeks. Which has given us just enough money to pay the motel where we are staying, a little for food and gas.

We have barely enough money for one week and barely enough money for gas and to rent a uhaul to move. There is nothing left for deposits.

We need your prayers. Cowboy needs to find a job in a couple of days and we need to find temporary housing for two weeks. If we can find somewhere to live then we could save the money we have for what we need to move on. But, he still needs a job.

We are volunteer chaplains at a boys prison and we do Sunday services. We have other programs throughout the week. He needs a job that won't affect this work.

We know God has a plan. Maybe it is to include you in this ministry as a prayer partner. Maybe it is to include you as a regular visitor to our ministry blog so that you can lift us and 'our' kids needs up to the Father. Here is Sherry's link, http://myjourneyback-thejourneyback.blogspot.com/ please visit and leave prayers and much encouragement for her and her dear cowboy. I appreciate all of you prayer warriors.

Fearless Friday

Thankful Thursday

Well, once again it is time for Thankful Thursday. I pray that you are all feeling thankful for many things this week. I certainly am, my heart is filled to overflowing. Last week was so wonder filled, thank You Father God. I had a great vacation with my lovebug, I spent time with my sister, which is always a gift. My report on my thyroid ultrasound was amazing, big praise to my Father God. I have been so very happy. So, of course, satan has not been happy. When we are happy, he is miserable, so he has to find a way to bring us down. Wednesday, he tried to bring me down in a big way. As most of you know, my dad had never really been a part of my life, until the end of 2008, after my big brother passed away. God began a great work in my dad's life, and he became a part of my life. Today, unfortunately, I saw the old dad pop up once again. Words that always hurt me deeply, were once again said to me. My dad has become involved in what is known as a pyramid scheme, and he wants me, my sister, my brother, his two stepsons, and all of his grandchildren to become involved in it with him. Lovebug and I decided we did not want to be involved. Well, yesterday, when I told my dad that we were not interested in being a part of it, he was not happy with me at all. He said obviously, he wants more for me than I want for myself, that I had totally disappointed him. He said, oh well, this is certainly not the first time you have screwed up, and, we know it will not be the last time you screw up Denise, don't we? The way he looked at me, and the words he said, cut deeply. They brought back so many painful memories from the past. I stood there feeling like a total failure, and a major disappointment to my dad. As he drove away, my heart sank. I slowly turned, and walked back into my apartment building. Once inside our apartment, I closed the door, and began to cry, great big sobs from deep inside, as a little girl would cry. You see, that is what happens when my dad reappears(the old dad). But, you know what? My heavenly Father was there with me yesterday, as He always is, and always has been. He picked me up, dried my tears, spoke words of love to me, not words of condemnation. You see, I am not perfect, and my Father realizes that, and loves me regardless. He accepts me, warts and all. Once again, my heart will heal, thanks to my Father. I love You Father God, and I love, and forgive you dad.

Word Filled Wednesday

Our Vacation

Hello my precious friends, I am back. I have missed you all so much, but really enjoyed my time with dear lovebug. The first part of the week was spent doing errands, and going to doctor appointments. But, Friday thru Monday was our time. We went to SteakNShake on Monday after my ultrasound, it was yummy. On Friday, we went to Cleveland Tennessee, where we met my sister and her husband at the Golden Corral for lunch. After lunch, we drove on to Athens Tennessee, where my sister lives, we enjoyed visiting. Left coming home about 8P.M., the pictures are my sister, me, and of course lovebug. It was such an awesome day, thanks for blessing me with time with my sister Lord. I love her so very much. On Saturday, lovebug and I enjoyed a movie marathon. We rented 3 movies, they were all really good. Sunday, we went to a local park, enjoyed a picnic with lots of goodies. Then, we watched beautiful fireworks. Yesterday, we watched a couple more movies, went to sonic, and snuggled. I loved every minute with my lovebug, sure did miss him today. I pray you all enjoyed your holiday weekend. I love you all. PS. Father God blessed us with another miracle. I had my third thyroid ultrasound done on Monday of last week. The first one showed multiple nodules, and precancerous cells, the second one showed more nodules, and a large goiter surrounded by nodules, and precancerous cells. This time, thanks to the prayers of my prayer warriors, and my precious Father God, there were no new nodules, and the existing nodules, and goiter had shrank in size. Also, no precancerous cells. I praise You Father God. Thanks for your prayers my friends.

Blog Break

Hello sweet friends, and much love to you all. Lovebug has been on vacation this week, he does not go back to work until Tuesday, July 6th. The first part of this week, has been spent going to Doctor appointments, and running errands. Now, we can actually begin to have some fun. So, I will be taking a short blogging break to enjoy time with my lovebug. I will return to writing on my blog Monday. Until then, I will still be coming by your blogs to read, and leave comments. Please take care, and enjoy your Holiday weekend. I love you all, keeping you close in thought and prayers.