Exactly ten years ago today, I said goodbye to a dream. The dream of ever being a mother. It was on this day, that after trying for almost 16 years to have a baby, I had to have a complete hysterectomy. I have accepted God's will for my life, I am not angry at my Father. But, I am a woman, and I am only human. I hurt sometimes over the empty arms through the years. This week, I am hurting. Memories of what could have been, are surrounding my heart. I am aching with a deep longing to hold a precious baby that I created with my dear lovebug. I have a bad case of baby blues. But, my Father is near, and His comfort. Lovebug hugged me close last night, as tears for my dream baby rolled down my face. For those of you who were blessed to have children, do me a favor, hold them extra close, and love them extra gently this week. They are forever treasures. For those of you, who are like me, my heart hurts for you. Please know, I understand, and I pray for you. The songs playing on my blog today, were requested by lovebug, he dedicated them to me, with all of his love. He told me last night, as he was comforting me, that I have always been more than enough for him, and always would be. Thank You Father for my precious lovebug. Now, my letter to my dream baby. : Dear Christina Leanna, or Christopher Lee, Even though, you are only my dream baby, I love you. I know you would have been such a beautiful blessing to your dad and me. We would have given you our hearts, and did whatever it took to make your heart smile daily. We would have told you all about Jesus, and shined the light of His love in your life. We would have been such a happy family, not perfect, but perfectly blessed with much love and happiness. Please know, that I miss not being able to be your mom, and I long for you. But, God had other plans, so I had to follow His path for my life. But, I will forever see you in my dreams. I love you sweet dream baby.