Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Thinking Back, Looking Forward

Two months ago today on December 24, Christmas Eve, I was at the hospital with my dear lovebug. Our roller coaster ride was just beginning. That night, lovebug nearly died in my arms, was taken to ICU, as I was taken downstairs to the emergency room nearly in diabetic acidosis. Talk about stress!! All I wanted was to see my lovebug, and he was upstairs in ICU asking to see me. When my sister in-law came to see me in the emergency room, she had her camera with her. She had taken a picture of lovebug, when she showed me his picture, I kissed it and cried even more. When they finally let me go upstairs to ICU, I ran to lovebugs bed. I was so happy to see him, words could not express how I felt. We were in the hospital from December 23-December 31. What an adventure. At first they thought lovebug had a stroke, but then they ruled that out. Then, they said it was possibly MS, but then they ruled that out. Talk about frustrating, not knowing what was happening to my lovebug was beyond frustrating. Then, they finally told us it was Gillian Barrie syndrome, so we were trying to adjust to that news. Well, then he had another nerve conduction test done, and after they got the results from it, they told us he did not have Gillian Barrie syndrome, instead, he has the sister disease to MS, called CIDP. So, now we are trying to deal with this diagnosis. Lovebug is numb from the waist down, when he was in the hospital, and when we first came home, his left hand and arm were numb also. Praise God, his hand and arm are no longer numb. But, he remains numb from the waist down. He had infusion treatments last week, and for the rest of the year, he will go once a month for a treatment. He has been going to physical therapy, but that ends this Thursday. He has not worked since December, has been drawing temporary disability from his job, which is $175.74 a week. I have applied for SSI, still waiting to hear if I am going to be able to get anything. Right now, we do not know if lovebug will be able to go back to work on light duty or not, will find that out on March 11 when he sees his doctor. Please continue to pray for us. Lovebug really wants to go back to work, and I pray that he will be able to. I believe that God will heal him. Financially, God has graciously provided for us through the help of so many of you. If my dear blogging family had not made donations to the lovebug fund, we would not have been able to pay our rent or car payment. Thank you will never express how we feel. Your kindness and love to us, means so much. It is scary being in this situation, but God is with us, so that makes it all better. Sorry this post is so long, but wanted to share what is on my heart.

22 comments:

eph2810 said...

Thank you Denise for sharing from your heart -- your post is not too long either...

(((hugs))) and prayers...

Iris

Tara said...

I hope the SSI goes through. I'll be praying for you!

Andrea said...

GOD is amazing. Thank you for sharing.
Hugs,
andrea

Love Bears All Things said...

Not too long!
We want to be kept up to date on your and lovebug's situation. God is Good!
Mama Bear

Tana said...

I am praying for BIG miracles!!! I have seen GB patients make full recoveries! Everyday the Lord leads you closer to victory.

More Than Words said...

I'll be continuing to pray, Denise.

Anonymous said...

You have had a rough ride here these past few months! I am praying for youtoday.

Cathy said...

Bless you two, sweet friend. I am believing with you for his healing. Those people at social services need to help you in this emergency situation. There should be many ways they can help I would think. Thank God for your generous friends. Love you ~

Anonymous said...

Aw. I am so sorry for all you and your hubby are going through. My church has a prayer box where we can place prayer requests in, then the whole congregation prays for all those who we've put in the box. I don't know your names, but God knows you by name, and I'm going to write down as "my blogging friend Denise and Lovebug" and place it in the box. My church family and I truly believe in the power of prayer.

Both of you are in my prayers and I know God provides and heals. *huge hugs*

Your friend in Christ,
Georgia

Peggy said...

Blessings Denise and that is one awesome summary of all that has been happening! Can't believe it's already two months of this. We need to write what's on our hearts... it serves as therapy but in this case it will be a great testimony when God completes this miracle we're hoping & praying for Lovebug! Keep looking forward! Many praises in this report! Hold fast and stand firm as you press on.
Love(((hugs)))Prayers,
Peggy

Talk..to..Grams said...

Hi Denise! I have a lovely award for you over at my blog. If this is too much for you to do, don't worry about it! Love and Hugs, Grams

Gretchen said...

I'm so sorry things are tough, Denise. I cannot imagine. Will pray for you & lovebug as you come to mind each day.

Beth in NC said...

Denise, I don't know how I missed all of this in the past about the wrong diagnosis'. See, I was still under the impression he had a stroke. I am in agreement with you for complete healing. You and Eddie come to my heart so often.

Bernie said...

I am praying for you and your husband Denise, and I praise God for helping you both spirtually and your blogging friends helping you financially.....I too am a diabetic on insulin twice a day and live on a pension which takes much discipline to manage. I will keep you and your husband in my heart and prayers......:-) Hugs

Barbara said...

We are continuing to pray for both of you. God is so faithful! Thanks for sharing your heart!

jo.attalife said...

I'm blessed at the faith and grace that carries you through. If God is for you, who can be against you? I hope and pray you will continue to be strong and of good courage.
Here's something to share because I think you're beautiful.

Samantha said...

Praying your SSI goes through
and your Lovebug will get to go back to work.
Praying for Gods healing power,
Hug and love to you sweet Denise.

GranthamLynn said...

Oh I know it is hard. I have struggles too. Nothing compared to
yours. Have you tried to go to an assistance agency to get help with utilities and food? Some even will help with the car payment too. I don't know you might have done this but if not check it out. Like I have said before I wish I could help you more. Praying for you guys.
Love,
Sherry

Marsha said...

This was not too long at all, Denise...it was a beautiful reflection of your heart.

Love you all!

Pia said...

you know denise, a friend of mine would always say things like "your life is like this... and like that..." to me. but i would always say, God has always been there. He never left my side. He has always provided for me. my friend never knew how that was possible. but i knew it was God when help from friends financially came to my aid. my friend didn't see it but God was using my friend to help me too.

God will never fail you, my friend. He will see through all these.

Wendy said...

Denise, Thanks for sharing your heart. It's a beautiful heart:) I'm still praying for healing and provision for you.
Love,
Wendy

Anne Lang Bundy said...

I'm SO glad you shared! It helps me know how to pray.

You are a beacon for us, Denise! I praise the Lord for you!