Saturday, April 26, 2014

Me

All I am is me, nothing more, nothing less. But, what does he see, when he looks at me? Wife, or burden? Friend, or foe? Actions speak louder than words, and his actions are screaming at me daily. It is no longer fun coming home to me, these words came out of his mouth recently. Well, having a stroke, and all the changes it brought, has not been fun for me. But, being with him, is always fun to me. Through better or worse, in sickness, and health, till death do us part. I am still me, why can't he see me???????????

10 comments:

Weekend-Windup said...

Being apart is not happiness. As you said being with partner in sad and happiness is good.
Take care of your health!

Sassy Granny ... said...

I'm so sorry you're experiencing this relationship rift. As a young woman I lived with similar conditions & similar thoughts. Lots of things happened to help me (and him) look at things & behave differently. I pray the Lord applies the exact remedy in your situation; and that both you & your husband have peace, vision & wisdom in that process.

Blessings,
Kathleen

The Queen of Brussels Sprouts said...

"Me" is different for us now. There are only glimmers of who I used to be. Honestly, even my own parents can't accept that I am no longer the girl I was. My perspective is even different. I'm sorry, but is almost died twice....it changes who you are. I don't even have the same friends. We are still us, just molded by life (near death), and we can't be the same. Our loved ones have to recognize that.

CelestinaMarie@SouthernDayDreams said...

Denise, praying for you and God to heal the heart of your loved one to open eyes to compassion.
Sending you love.
Blessings and hugs

Sandra K. Stein said...

Just popped over to see what is going on in your neck of the woods and see your blog has a whole new look. Very nice. But I am sad to read about the emotional pain you are going through. Praying that the Lord would soften Eddy's heart, and heal whatever it is within him that is causing him to lash out at you this way. Sounds like he must be hurting too. (((HUGS)))

Anonymous said...

denise your love for God is big...you are a sweet lady...i think one of the major problems are.... he needs to seek God..and the lord will renew everything....every marriage needs to seek God...its the only i can say...friend i think you understand...thats the solution

Jo Rose said...

Praying for you Denise! I pray that God brings you comfort, peace, and that God will soften your husbands heart toward you, and that He will really see you. I hope that you remember that God sees you and loves you very much!

Peggy said...

Denise ... this honest hurt breaks my heart! You are still you. May he realize this soon and stop belittling and screaming hateful words. I'm so sorry this has taken such a toil on you and your relationship. I continue to pray! May eyes be opened and hearts renewed as only Jesus can do as we surrender to Him. Praying against this battle. Hoping and praying for a shift in this rift ... Hold on lil sis ... just be you and cover yourself with God's love and grace each day.

Love you so much (((hugs)))
Peggy

Inger said...

I find it too difficult to comment on the troubles you have with your husband. I think I said how I feel a long time ago. You love him and have chosen to stay with him.

Joyful said...

Thinking of you dear. xx