Here at the Oldham home, I do not feel as if I am ever enough any more. No matter what I say, or do, I am wrong. I feel like a stranger in my own home. I am so lonely, even when Eddie is here. He cares more about watching television, and sleeping, than he does about me. When he talks to me, he yells, curses, and never listens to what I say. Tunes me out, or even falls asleep when I am talking to him. I miss my Eddie, my love bug. Where did he go?? No matter what, I will never stop loving him, or give up on my marriage. Lord, pour Your strength all over my life.