Sunday, February 23, 2014

Something Is going on-not good

I am a person that shares my life, and my heart very easily. That is just the type of person I am. I have no reason to hide things, or to tell lies. As most of you know, Eddie and I, have been experiencing some bumps in the road in our marriage, every since I had my stroke. Well, recently, those bumps, have become major mountains. Things are not good at all. I do not feel like his wife, I feel like his problem. He talks so hateful to me, yelling at me, and cursing me. He treats me like I am an idiot. The worse thing is, I think he might be cheating on me. Why do I think that? I am home all the time, because I do not work. We only have one car, and I am legally blind, so I do not drive. I have to depend on Eddie for transportation. I always look forward to the weekend, because I know I will get out of the apartment. We go grocery shopping, to the drug store to get our medications, and out to eat sometimes. Eddie has now started going to the store, and other places without me. If I get ready to go with him, like I normally do, he gets angry, does not want me to go with him. Last night, we needed a few things from the store, so I said, come on honey, let's go to the store. He got really mad, did not want me to go. Well, I went anyway. He was so mean to me the entire time. After we got home, and ate supper, he said he had to go to the store. I said, for what? He said, chocolate milk. He bought chocolate milk, the night before, and still had plenty of it left. I said, wait a minute, and I will go with you. He said, no. I do not need you to go, and out the door he went. He was gone for more than an hour. I love Eddie with all that I am. I do not want to believe that he is cheating on me. This really hurts. Here, I will remain, having faith, believing God will restore my marriage.

22 comments:

Denise said...

So so sorry Denise.My heart breaks for You.The Lord knows all and cares.May God protect You and give You wisdom.Love to You Denise

Bethe77 said...

That is so terribley sad. That breaks my heart. You are just the sweetest. You are always so up beat no matter what is going on in your life. I will pray God give you strenght and wisdon. Open Eddies heart and eyes to see the hurt and pain. Tp bring healing and restoration to you both and the marriage in Jesus name. God bless you Denise! Love and prayers always Beth

Joyful said...

May God be with you both and help you through this difficult time. Hugs. xx

Marian said...

Denise; cuanto siento todo lo que estás sufriendo...Recemos, Dios lo transforma todo. Un abrazo fuerte.
¡Mucho confianza, mucho animo!

RCUBEs said...

I pray the Lord will reveal it in your heart the circumstances in your valleys. And provide ways out for both of you. Praying for His bond of unity to cover you both. Take care sister...((()))

Never Forsaken said...

This is not good...I hope you are not right about Eddie.
I wish I had a solution for you, but this is just too big...But not for God.
Have you tried asking him what is wrong, or if he is cheating?
I don't know if you feel safe enough to do that or not since he can say mean things...I heard people tend to get defensive when confronted with cheating.
Again, I am praying the Lord reveals what is going on, and look forward to your posting about how it was all a misunderstanding or something.
You are such a beautiful person who has so much love in her heart!
Love you~ ((hugs)) Lisa

cynia said...

Hope the truth is better than this. Hugs :*

WordsPoeticallyWorth said...

Sorry for your troubles.

Thank you. Love love, Andrew. Bye.

KC Bob said...

So hard to read Denise. Wondering if a pastor might be able to help with a recommendation to a female Christian counselor that might be able to visit you at home? Or perhaps you could get a taxi to see her? I think that it might help you to be able to share your pain with a sister in Christ.

Lisa in Texas = ) said...

You and your husband will be in my prayers. God is close to the broken hearted.
I love your photo that you shared on your blog- with no hair- you are a courageous woman for sure. And you are a beautiful woman. I wish I had the courage that you do to share my naked head- maybe some time.
God continue to bless you~ Lisa :O)

The Queen of Brussels Sprouts said...

Sometimes I have to fight the feelings of being a burden to everyone. With all the ice on the ground now, I have to have someone load and unload my wheel chair then make sure I don't fall getting out of the car. They say that it isn't a burden, but I feel like it is. I often feel that it is like my hubby has a toddler with him when we go places because I become so needy in non handicap surroundings. I'll often stay home just to avoid those feelings.

Praying for your marriage! This roller coaster ride we call post stroke life is just no fun.

Laurie Collett said...

Praying for you, dear one. He will never leave you, nor forsake you. God bless.

Chatty Crone said...

Maybe he is just going through a rough time himself. We all do. I hope not. sandie

Farida JT said...

You have been a strong lady, Ms Denise. Please continue to be. You have so many virtual friends and other wonderful blessings. I'll be including you in my prayers. God bless!

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Inger said...

You guys went through a rough spot before and things worked out. I think it is harder for guys to live with diabetics, I know my husband has struggled with living with me from time to time. I mean it is something that will never go away and some guys have hard time with that. Give it some and let your faith see you through. Hugs from the canyon.

BARBIE said...

Praying for you. Praying for God to bring light into the darkness. Hugs!

Michell Pulliam said...

Oh my sweet friend! May God bring you peace and comfort during this rough time for He heals the brokenhearted. Praying for you in this season, that the Holy Spirit will speak to you both, but most importantly...both parties will heed! Love you my friend!

Karen said...

I'm so sorry, Denise. I am praying for you!!

sweetvintageofmine said...

So sad to hear this Denise. Sickness is hard on relationships, the one that is sick and the care giver. Maybe he just needs to get out some and doing nothing wrong. Love and prayers~~~Roxie

Dorothy Crutchfield said...

I'm so sorry Denise. I pray this is not so, and pray that God will give you peace. Love, Dorothy

Jo Rose said...

I will be praying for you and Eddie. May God give you comfort and strength, and may he give you wisdom in the fight for your marriage.

LeAnn said...

You are always in my prayers both Eddie and you. I believe that through your great faith God can help to heal your marriage. I know this has got to be very difficult and I admire that you have such a sweet opened heart and love for him.
Blessings, prayers, love and hugs!