Friday, June 28, 2013

The mind games have began

Happy Friday everyone, enjoy your weekend. Well, my husband has started playing mind games with me. He knows my plans to go for the interview and assessment on July 31st, which is the beginning of my new life journey plans. He is not happy about any of it, and has decided to make me unhappy. He is trying to make me really doubt myself, and my decision. Last night, he really started in on me, big time. He said, there is no way you will be able to do this. I said, why not?? He then began to list several reasons why I would fail. He said, you will get sick too much, your eyes are not good enough to do any type of work, your memory since the stroke is no good, you will not be able to remember anything, you will get tired to much, your feet and legs will go numb to much, your speech will become slurred, and they will think you have been drinking, you will not be able to ride on the bus by yourself, because you will become confused. Then, he started saying that I would meet a man that had suffered from a stroke like me, and that had other things in common with me, and would start a friendship with him, and he said, I will not allow that. No male friends, forget it!! I knew this would happen. This is not going to be easy, things are going to get harder as time goes on. But, that is ok. I refuse to let satan use my husband as a weapon against me anymore. Battle on, armour on, prayers in motion.

15 comments:

HOOTIN ANNI said...

there seems to be one with doubts about fears...and I don't think it's YOU.

Never Forsaken said...

Praying for you Denise~
Blessings and love~ Lisa

Annmarie Pipa said...

prayers for Gods will for you.

Kimberly A Edwards said...

Denise, I am going to email you something. I hope you have something on your computer that will allow you to see/read it!

I'm standing in the gap for you and coming against satan, In Jesus' Name!

Paula Barnett said...

No. Things are not going to get harder, Denise; this, dear friend, is a lie. GOD IS right where you are guiding, guarding & governing your way. GOD provides that which you are here to do and you ARE doing amazing things!!! In my opinion your husband is scared. I know when I get scared I can say mean things that I do not mean. Please, do not see your husband as the enemy. See him for the expression of God that he too is. Even when he is not, especially when he is not, acting in such a manner. As you think, it is so. If you continue to see him causing problems, guess what, he will...but, just try this...see him instead as God originally created him. See him as love...see beyond any+thing other than this for it is in this that YOUR peace is found. You cannot change him but you can change your feelings toward him. SEE him in his light & glory. ALONE. Look him right in the eyes. Not thinking of what has been said in the past. Not thinking of what will be said next. Look at him tenderly...see God's expression in him...tell him how much you respect & honor who he is. Tell him allllll that he needs to hear. He is scared. You, through God's infinite love & wisdom expressed through you, can help. I know this to be true. & so it is.

Angela said...

You already know my thoughts on this...love ya girl

Sharon said...

Oh Denise. Yes, I hate to agree, but I think you're right that this was to be expected. But it doesn't make it any easier to take.

My dad does these kind of mind games with my mom all the time. ALL the time. And even though she does her best to not believe them, they still injure her deeply.

I have told her that every time he launches a tirade of words on her, to just picture Jesus sitting on the couch. Picture His wounded hands. Picture His smile. Feel His heart and His arms. Do that, friend - just picture Jesus.

The words are just arrows from the enemy - and God is our shield!

Keep up on your brave new path. Praying that you will have supernatural strength and peace.

GOD BLESS!

Alecia Simersky said...

Praying for you Denise, keep your head up and don't let the mind games get to you. Once he sees how determined you are and that he isn't getting to you he will back off.

Joy said...

Do what you feels best for you Denise. There us no harm in trying and we are praying.

Dee said...

God will walk you through this....do not let stumbling blocks stop you. Your husband is insecure. I am sure he will enjoy the new Denise once he gets accustomed .

Denise said...

I feel so sad sometimes when I hear of your struggle. I've been reminded by The Lord though that He knew all of these days were in your future.He's not surprised by them and He will take care of you through each day-you are covered by His blood.Love Denise

Cathy said...

I'm glad these friends did not react in anger like I did. Some good comments here, Dear. You will be fine. God is for you and wants you to be happy and blessed. Love you

Chatty Crone said...

I pray for a hedge of safety to be put around you by the Lord and that he protects you. sandie

sweetvintageofmine said...

Keep the faith....stand strong...tell your husband how much you love him...move forward. Regardless, how far you can go with your new direction....you took the step of faith and God is there!! Be strong and of good courage! Love you Denise, you can do ALL THINGS through CHRIST who STRENGTHENS you! Blessings and prayers~~~Roxie

Tam said...

Stay strong. Stand in your own power. Don't allow his negative chatter to move you away from your goal.