Tuesday, March 5, 2013
Well, things are truly happening here at the Oldhams. In the last couple of days, I have seen glimpses of my lovebug, my husband. I am slowly seeing that stranger, his evil twin, who has been living here since I had my stroke, preparing to pack his bags and leave, never to return. I can actually breathe a sigh of huge relief. I am so ready for the yelling, cursing, being treated like a room mate, instead of a wife, no kindness ever, only cruelness, ready for it to all be gone. Cannot wait to see the sun come out behind all these huge clouds of darkness here at my home. I want the thunder to be replaced with calm quiet. For the first time since my stroke, (18 months ago) Eddie talked to me about his feelings. He was angry as he talked, but, that is ok. I just praise God that he expressed his feelings. He said, he felt like he was locked up behind a huge glass. He said, he was so filled with anger. He said, I want my old self back, but, I do not know how to get him back. It broke my heart to hear him say that, bless his precious heart. I reached my hand out to him, and I said, honey take my hand, I will help you break free from that glass enclosed angry place. I promised him that God still loves him, and so do I. Together, the three of us will get through this, my marriage will be repaired. Shortybear and Lovebug, are going to recover from this bad season. What satan has tried to destroy, will be better than ever.