Friday, March 15, 2013

FMF-Rest

Do you sometimes feel as if you are running around in circles, but, you are going no where?? That is how I feel so often, totally wore out. From what?? My self!! I allow life, and all of its craziness, to make me feel as if I must do more, and do it faster, and better. Since my stroke, I have a hard time remembering things sometimes. When that happens, I totally beat myself up. Denise, you dummy, I cannot believe you forgot that. What is wrong with you?? Then, I set out to improve, fix myself. Next time, I am not going to forget, no, not me. Yea, right. lol I also find myself racing the clock. Well, Denise, Eddie gets home at 4:20. Get everything done before he gets here, everything. Do not leave anything left undone, be the perfect wife. Show him that you can still do everything, just like you did before your stroke!! So, I get everything done, in record time, may I add. Consequences??? Shortly, after Eddie arrives home, where can you find me? Laid out in my recliner, breathing heavily(no, not passionately!!) wore totally out, legs hurting badly. Think you might have overdone it again Denise?? Who, me?? Yes, me. That is when, I hear these sweet words: Come to me, my beloved daughter. I will give you rest, and comfort for your weary bones. I crawl up in my precious Daddy's lap, and take a much needed nap. Awwwwwwwwww, Daddy's rest, nothing compares to it.

18 comments:

Sarah Luckadoo said...

This is so sweet! There is really nothing like the rest we can only find in God. You are wonderful, allow yourself to believe that and don't let anything convince you otherwise! Enjoy your weekend.

Never Forsaken said...

I have a disabled friend, she is one of the best friends i've ever had...sometimes when she gets so discouraged I remind her that if she did one thing all day long, then that is one thing done, and she has been productive...even if it was just something small.
~Jesus is our ever present helper~

Rebekah said...

Lots of truth here about trying so hard to be everything, instead of allowing rest. Blessings to you!

Terra said...

You have found the right place to rest, in our Father's arms. Is there any task you do that you could skip doing, so you have energy left when your dh gets home?

LeAnn said...

Just so sweet!
Blessings~

Sarah McBride said...

I love how your post feels like it's just you having a conversation with a friend, telling her what's been going on and how you feel :) So simple and sweet! Praying that God helps you to figure out what really needs to be done and what can wait til later, like Terra said above.

Pia said...

i hear you, denise. but the rest you found is the best rest we can have... in our Father's arms.

enthusiastically, dawn said...

Dearest Denise, let Him lead you through those chores! He does is not a taskmaster but a gentle and wise guide. But I hear you- sometimes I get all Martha and then I realize I need to remember His yoke is light- we have to stay close to our shepherd, to do it! Love you, Dawn

enthusiastically, dawn said...

PS - stop being so hard on yourself! That's a command (from a bloggy friend)!

Farida said...

I found this very amusing especially the part when you were breathing heavily and not passionately, lol. Take care Miss Denise :)

Leaon Mary said...

Girl I know what you mean! That hurry up and get it all done... just right... is so wearisome! You know another time I get like that I've thought ... is when company is coming. I go CRAZY... trying to clean... and get everything as perfect as I can... and then when people get here... I feel like I have to be a Martha in everyway... and by the time they go home... I'm so wore out... REST! ... WHAT A BEAUTIFUL WORD!

Beth in NC said...

I am grateful that you can climb into Abba Father's love. Rest ...

Bless you Denise!

Love,
Beth

Anonymous said...

We try to hard to please man, but not always our LORD~ Doesn't make sense does it. I think sometimes we try to get everything perfect for our husband's because we can't stand their criticism...or displeasure. I have to question that kind of fear because we aren't perfect, and to try and show an image of being perfect is really artifical. What I am trying to say is...Denise...LOVE and accept yourself, and keep trusting the LORD to change his heart. Then, he'll see you and not a perfect house. You are the treasure in the house!!! ♥♥♥

Anonymous said...

nice words friend...your very sincere ...I havent forget you sister...God bless your heart...loves soraya and huub...

Wanda's Wings said...

Sometimes we just need to take time to rest.

Hootin Anni said...

Denise, I'm continually like that...going no where fast. A vicious circle sometimes.

Anonymous said...

Now that I have a chronic stomach illness, I find that I have to take things at a much slower pace than I used to. It can be frustrating sometimes because you just want to "be normal" again, but sometimes in life, I am finding that God may give you a "new normal" to be content with.

Don't wear yourself too thin Dear Sister. Take care.

{{{{Hugs}}}}

Cathy said...

Try not to wear yourself out, my friend. I'm sure your Lovebug understands. Love you