Saturday, October 20, 2012

October/November Baby

How many of you have heard of the movie October Baby? How many of you have seen this movie? Well, if you have not seen it yet, I highly recommend it. I watched it the other night on channel gmc, which is channel 172 0n my television. A Christian channel, one of my favorite channels. The movie brought up many emotions inside of me. The girl in the movie is searching for her birth mother, after finding out that she was an attempted abortion, and was adopted. She has had to deal with various health problems since birth, which she finds out is due to the attempted abortion. Also, she has never felt good about herself, always very negative, no self worth. After finding out the details of her birth, she begins to feel anger, and alot of guilt. She was a twin, she had a brother, but he died at six days old. She wonders what kind of life he would have had, and thinks she should have been the one to die. When she finally finds her mother, her mother does not acknowledge her, she is married and has a little girl. At the end of the movie, she leaves a note on her mothers desk at work, the note said, "I forgive you." Wow, pass the Kleenex, so touching. I was an attempted abortion, my parents already had three kids, and financially could not afford another one. When my mom told my dad she was pregnant with me, he was furious. He told her to get rid of me. Abortions were illegal at the time, so she went to see her doctor. He gave her some type of pills, told her how to take them, and that they would make her abort me. She went home, started taking them like he said, but they were not working fast enough. So, my mom took the whole bottle of pills, praise God they did not kill her. But, she started bleeding very heavily, and thought she had passed me. Several months later, she felt kicking, she could not believe it. I was alive. I was born on November 20th, 1963. Isn't God amazing?? I have never had any self-esteem, always felt guilty, and unwanted. Through the years, I have dealt with many health problems, that I was told were caused by those pills. I was born with a birth defect, my appendix is in the back. I tried for 16 years to have a baby, was not able to because of female problems caused by those pills. Am I angry at my parents? No. My mom passed away in April of 2006, she was 73. She moved in with me, and for the last three years of her life, I took care of her. Praise God, I had the honor of leading her to the Lord, before she passed away. I had already forgiven her for trying to abort me, and for kicking me out, when I told her that my stepfather had sexually abused me. My dad is still alive, and lives here in Tennessee. He is 77. He never wanted anything to do with me, until my oldest brother passed away in 2008. He gave his heart to the Lord, and is now in my life, when he chooses to be. I wish him nothing but the best. So, I share alot in common with October baby, except, I am November baby.

23 comments:

GodsOwn/Bernice said...

Praise God Denise for your Life! Your life is a living testimony of Gods love grace and saving power....He knows the beginning and the end of our stories and is working it out in His time....
I hope this film will be released also in Holland!
Take Care and Blessings1
Bernice

Jennifer Peterson said...

Wow!!! You are beautiful!!!

Farida said...

Ms Denise, you are so courageous to share your life with us. God has truly blessed your life because you have continued to live without any grudges or whatsoever because of your past. I am so proud to have known you. God bless you more :)

Love Bears All Things said...

I can see why this movie touched you so much....seemed to be about you...
Bless you sweetie. I'm so happy that you dealt with the abuse and forgave your Mother and Father. Holding back forgiveness and having anger about things that have been done to us effects us, it makes us sick and it really doesn't hurt the person who did the abuse. You did the right thing.
Bless you,
Mama Bear

Karen said...

So thankful for you! Again and again God reminds me of this promise: He gives power to the faint and weary, and to him who has no might He increases strength [causing it to multiply and making it to abound]. Isaiah 40:29 Amplified You are a sign and a wonder to bring praise to our Lord.

Maple Lane said...

Hi Denise, You are a wonderful blessing to so many of us via our friendships thru blogging. May God continue to bless you and bring you peace. With love, Mildred

Pia said...

Denise, God obviously has a great plan for you. You are a strong woman. Look at the the things you've gone through even before you were born. Look at you now. You've gone a long way. You're a prayer warrior. You have so much love and care to give even to people like me who you haven't even met yet in person. God gave you a precious gift.

Love you, love you, love you, dear denise!

Sassy Granny ... said...

I haven't seen the movie, but I can understand its powerful impact on you. Thank God your stepfather has found the Lord. I hope he has owned up to the pain he caused you, and has sought your forgiveness.

Blessings & peace

Gail W. said...

Hi Denise! Don't know if you remember me, but your blog was the first place I headed when God nudged me to get back into reading the amazing material you ladies always produce. Thank you for this story of grace and redemption - I'm happy those pills didn't work!
May you feel His grace today,
Gail

Annmarie Pipa said...

oh my gosh..your witness is pleasing to God.
I think you should write a book about your experiences.

Marytoo said...

I saw the movie in the theater when it first came out. We have not been to the theater in years, but thought that this was worth supporting.

Very touching and convicting...as your life is. What a testimony.

Be blessed....

cynia said...

When we say "I forgive you" there are us who need this, not the person we forgive.

Lauren Davenport said...

What a touching post. God bless you.

HOOTIN ANNI said...

So, so very poignant Denise.

Katie said...

I just watched the movie, October Baby, so your post was very timely. Isn't it beautiful how God had a plan all along for you. You are wonderful testament to your family and parents of his love. Blessings to you.

Tammi said...

You are such an encouragement to my heart! <3 I am so thankful that the LORD was victorious over the enemy's plans. .. Jer. 29:11. God knows the plans He has for you...to give you a hope and a future and NOT to harm you! :) Thank you for sharing your story with us. November babies are so special--my daughter is a November baby. Due December 15, but came the last day of November. :)
big hugs to you.
Love and hugs
tammi

Dolly@Soulstops said...

Wow, Denise, you are a powerful testimony to God's work in your heart and life...just had to tweet your post...Thank you for sharing.

Angela said...

You and I are SO connected girl...Your post touched me deeply. I headed over here to tell you 'personally'..lol...there is NOT a day Denise that I don't tell someone about you, and give God praise for my warrior sister, His crown of splendor in His right hand who is like a 'rear guard' or as my girlfriend says..'body guard'...thank you....I pray you know that I got 'your back' too sis...(oh and it's not stabbing it either..lol ((hugs)) LOL.I crack me up.)

sweetvintageofmine said...

BEAUTIFUL story about your life. You are a BEAUTIFUL person in CHRIST! You have an AWESOME spirit and LOVE that shows. We have OVERCOME by the blood of the LAMB and the WORDS of our TESTIMONY! BLESS you Denise, for GOD is using you greatly for him! from one sweetie to another~~~~Roxie ....and you will get to go to church soon! I speak that in FAITH!

Laurie Collett said...

Wow, Denise, you have an awesome testimony, and God has used you in a mighty way to encourage and uplift people! Praise God that He saved your life and that you are yielded to His Holy Spirit!
God bless,
Laurie

From the Heart said...

You have the most forgiving spirit. God will bless you for it.
God be with you me sister. AE

Dee said...

Your blog is like a little golden ray of Gods Love and grace. What a beautiful testimony of forgiveness and love.

A Proverbs 31 Wife said...

What an amazing story!
And what you may not have realized at the time is how badly you truly were wanted. God wanted you here for a reason, even if your parents didn't.
I do want to watch the movie now :)