Sunday, July 22, 2012

He Will Carry Me

   I have been in a very bad place recently, feeling so down. My health is really going downhill, but I am clinging tightly to the precious garment of Jesus. I feel so alone, but, I know Jesus never leaves me. Lovebug seems so cold, and distant. I wonder if he sees me anymore? The real me, the old Denise, before the stroke. Sometimes, I feel like screaming out to the world, "I had a stroke, but, I am still here. I did not die, I survived. I might be different in some ways, but I am still me. Denise is here, she never left. Her heart still beats, feels, and loves the same. Oh, and by the way, her heart still hurts too." This week, Jesus sent two angels along my path. On Thursday, we were at Walmart. This lovely black lady came up to me, she said, excuse me, but, I just wanted to tell you, that I think you have a beautiful head. I said, thank you so much. I think you are beautiful, your beauty shines from within. I said, please do not think I am a cancer patient, and I told her how I lost my hair. She said, it does not matter to me, you are beautiful, and we are sisters. I started crying, and we hugged. I needed that encouragement so much. Last night, I had taken coco out for a walk. One of our neighbors, that I had never met before, came outside. She started petting, and playing with coco. Of course, coco loved the attention. lol Well, we began talking, and eventually, I told her about having a stroke last year. She was so compassionate to me. She said, to have had a stroke, and been through all you have, you look great. I hugged her, and told her thanks. I said, you will never know how much I needed to hear those words. She said, she was happy to have met me, and she would remember me in her prayers. Woo Hoo, praise Jesus. I love this song, the words really speak to my heart. They express how I feel.

21 comments:

Wanda's Wings said...

Your heart is pure gold. No matter how alone we feel we are never truly alone. Sometimes are hearts just aches for human compassion. We need to feel love and know we are cared for, Never forget you are care for. May Jesus wrap His arms around you right now.

From the Heart said...

I agree you have a heart of pure gold and the beauty of it shows in your face, your speech, everything about you is beautiful. I pray also that you will feel the loving arms of God wrapped around you.
Blessings and prayers.

Laurie Collett said...

Praise God for sending you these sweet words of encouragement in angels unaware. May you feel the loving embrace of Jesus as you go through your day.
Love in Him,
Laurie

Karen said...

So glad you crossed paths with some "angels unaware"...and pray your bad place will turn completely around and become a blessed place...your precious heart is too compassionate for others to be breaking this way...YOU ARE LOVED!!

Pam said...

Isn't it amazing how God brings people into our lives just when we need them? I love hearing about encounters like yours. May God continue to bless you, my friend.

Juliana / Compartilhando Missões said...

Hello dear
you are very nice

Joyful said...

Hugs my friend. God cares and you have many friends across the world praying for you. It was such a blessing that God gave you two live human beings to show you he hears and he cares. I love you. xx

Farida of In Love With Sunflower said...

Ms Denise, fret not. I'm sure all the people who loves you dearly still sees you - the way you are.

Your blog is such a nice place to visit and you have many followers and friends who enjoy reading every post you make. I may not be able to be with you physically but a new post from you brightens my day.

God bless! :D

Pamela said...

Bless you, Denise. God knows...don't you love the thought of God knowing when we need a blessing? So happy He send two your way. Praying for a loving sign from your lovebug.

elaine @ peace for the journey said...

I'm thankful for the angels God sends our way. I hate that you're feeling so alone and forgotten. I know words are little comfort in times like these, but please know that I'm thinking of you and holding you close in my heart this morning.

peace~elaine

Gen said...

I so wished I lived next door to you, I would come right over and give you a big hug or take you out for coffee, just us two girls. Loved the video and plan on sharing that with two other dear friends who have lost their spouses unexpectedly and are finding it difficult to go on. Thank you for your honesty in sharing your heart.

SINCERITY said...

That is so cool! I love it when God not only tells us how much He loves us in His word but how He uses people too.

Joshua 1:9 "... Be strong and courageous; do not be frightened or dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go."

Daniel 10:11,12

" He said to me, 'Daniel, greatly beloved, pay attention to the words that I am going to speak to you... Do not fear, Daniel, for from the the first day that you set your mind to gain understanding and to humble yourself before your God, your words have been heard..."

Blessings to you dear sister! Fight for your joy! :D

Tesha said...

So sorry you are in a rough time. Saying a prayer now for your health and your heavy heart. You are such a blessing!

Godsgalnj said...

That was so very sweet of her!!

Kippy Marrie said...

amiga querida...
Voce é muito fofa.
Ótima semana e fique com o Papai do Céu.
Aus 1000 e Beijos 1000 com carinho,

KIPPY & LILLY

Dee said...

God is always caring and kind and will send people to encourage and uplift us. I wish we were neighbors...I could visit....I guess the blog will have to do. Hugs Dee

Roger and LeAnn said...

You are so not alone. I know that Heavenly Father and guardian angels watch over you. Then of course there are those earthly angels that are sent to lift you up. I know you feel his love. Remember when someone you love is hurting that sometimes you are grieving too and don't know exactly how to help them.
Blessings, prayers and hugs to you!

Cranberry Morning said...

What a blessing it was to receive those words of encouragement out of the blue from a complete stranger. But nothing is by accident. God puts people into our lives. He is with you, guiding you, carrying out His purposes in your life to glorify His name. Keep clinging to Him, Denise. You are a blessing to all!

Denise said...

I had a fairly small stroke two years ago with no residual effects.It scared Me an My husband so bad that it lead Me to have a bariatric bypass for My weight control.I am a christian also and He keeps on amazing Me. Denise

Terra said...

God sent those two ladies to you, to encourage you. That is two beautiful encounters.

Sassy Granny ... said...

Long & wearying health battles can be so depressing. I'm not surprised you get down. Even so, you manage to make your way around the blogosphere & lift a good many of us.

Be blessed & of good cheer, Denise. You are precious & loved.