Tuesday, April 17, 2012

On Your Heart Tuesdays

Hello friends, another Tuesday is here. What is laying upon your heart today? Laying upon my heart, is forgiveness. Forgiveness is something we all want from those we have hurt, and we usually want it quickly, but, we tend to be very slow, at giving forgiveness to others. I started out my life, in the womb, not wanted by my parents. I was actually, an attempted abortion. Did either of my parents, ever seek my forgiveness? No, they did not. But, I forgave my mother for not wanting me, and for trying to end my life, before it even had a chance to begin. I also forgave her, for not believing me when I told her that my stepfather had sexually abused me. She believed him, and kicked me out. I forgave her, and loved her beyond measure. I was her caregiver until she passed away in April of 2006. I had the honor of leading her to the Lord, before she passed away. Am I mad that she never asked for my forgiveness? No. I am so happy that I got to take care of her those last few years of her life, the memories are forever stored in my heart. I praise God for letting me be the one to lead her to Him. It is not my place, or any one's place, to judge someone. Only God, can, and will judge us all. I also forgave my stepfather for sexually abusing me. After he died, I went to the cemetery, and stood over his grave, and shed alot of tears, but, I told him that I forgave him. I forgave my dad for not wanting me from the time of my conception, until 2008. I praise God that he is now a part of my life. I know, this may sound crazy, but, I forgive my diabetes, and other factors that caused me to have a stroke in September. I came very close to dying, and I really will never be the same, but that is ok. Having the stroke, going through rehab, and the continued recovery, has made me stronger. I truly realize how precious life is, and how short it can be. I treasure each moment with my loved ones. Forgiveness is truly a gift, that we give to ourselves. Holding unto anger, hurt, and all types of negative emotions, due to unforgiveness, sickens, and darkens our hearts, and souls my friends. Give yourself a beautiful gift, forgive someone. Not only will it be good for them, but it will be great medicine for you. Your heart, and soul will be totally renewed. So, open up your heart, and truly, let the Son Shine!! He forgave us, the very least we can do, is forgive others.

23 comments:

silka said...

Forgiveness is a good way to let our sorrows go. It's not easy but no one promised us an easy life.

a little of me said...

amen friend...your post put me to think a lot ...havent go thrue that kind of situations...but i have being hurt very bad not from my parents or family but others...and i did forgive them...its hard to trust again easy who hurts us...but your right its not our tasks to stay with unforgiveness in our hearts...was talking to my coworker yesterday about the AGAPE love is the hardest...but i feel that God is molding me to make me who he wants me to be so he can use my life..he certainly loves you so much denise...in your post i can feel that you have surrender all to jesus..pray for me friend i now...you are dealing with your health...but the love you share i want that too..cause i love jesus very much...love you friend..

Leovi said...

Forgiveness is the best safeguard against hatred.

Summer said...

You are so right. Forgiveness is also a gift we give ourselves.

Thanks for your vulnerability and hard work of inner healing!

Divinely Acquitted said...

Oh wow... your beautiful attitude, what a blessing to my heart. Thank you for sharing a special part of your heart to us today. I thank God for His forgiveness & for His grace of forgiveness that He lays in my heart everyday. I have to forgive others because I have been forgiven so much. Praise the Lord indeed! May God continue to touch your heart as you continue to touch others...

Crystal @ Serving Joyfully said...

Wow, you have been through so much! But you are so right, forgiveness is the only way, and you must do it for your sake. I will pray for you as you continue on your road to recovery!

Effie said...

I choose to forgive the mean people in my life because I know that we are all basically scum bags without the grace of God to change us. That's biblical! :) Hugs!

Beth said...

Wow! You've really lived forgiveness in the face of so much pain, abuse and sickness, Denise. You're an inspiring example for all of us to follow. Just wondering, did you see the movie, October Baby? If you did, I bet you must have been a puddle by the end of the film! Great post!

joy said...

I am very touched of your story. You suffered a lot, but you forgave Those that hurt you. You are right. Forgiveness is the solution. In my childhood days, i suffered a lot too and in my adult years. But i also forgave everbody. God had forgiven me too and hen wants me to forgive. What a relief. Thanks for an inspiring story to forgive:)

Alecia said...

Sounds like from very early on you learned the lesson of forgiveness. That's something that takes a life time for some. You have such a positive outlook and attitude on things in your life, it's a blessing to read how you handle everything.

Susan at Thoughtful Spot said...

Thank you for stopping by ThoughtfulSpot. . .I look at the beauty and intelligence on your blog and am shocked into speechlessness once again at the foolish blindness over the hearts of mothers and fathers who abandon the greatest work they will ever accomplish - bringing another life into the world. The fact that you have forgiven speaks volumes about the true love you have found in Jesus Christ. Blessings, Loved One, blessings.

Christina Morley said...

Wow! Was this post hard to write?No one can ever know the depths of hurt and pain you must have felt in each situation, except the Lord and those who have suffered similar abuses. Praise the Lord that He was able to restore your life from its place of brokeness and that you were able to help others to follow on the same path of redemption that you took. I write a lot of poetry and much comes from my own life's struggles and victories.

Consider the Lilies is my poetry blog http://considertheliliespoetry.blogspot.com/ Some of the poems were written in the 1990s, but I haven't dated them on my blog, which is still new.

Thanks for your words of encouragement on two of my other sites! God bless! Tina

Joyful said...

You have a heart of gold. God bless.

From the Heart said...

What a beautiful post from a very beautiful lady. May God bless you and give you the desires of your heart.

Cathy said...

You are right, sweet friend. We do need to forgive. Thank God for His everlasting love. Hugs ~

starla said...

This is an amazing story and we all have one of our own of forgivenesses that need to be made, thank you for the reminder to check the heart for any unforgiveness and to deal with it now!

Wanda's Wings said...

I told forgiveness heals the wounded soul.

elaine @ peace for the journey said...

You are an amazingly beautiful woman of grace! You are my hero... forgiveness is such a hard step for so many of us.

peace~elaine

Tesha said...

SO very good. I really appreciate your post. I am blessed to have read this. Forgiveness has been a struggle me.

Faith said...

WOW! this was quite a post..you are brave to be so vulnerable with your story out on the internet..i wish I could be!! I am so glad the Lord brought you to the place of forgiveness...and now I'll scroll down to find your MM post :)

Jessica L. Foster said...

I've always heard that not forgiving only hurts yourself. It is good to forgive. Thanks for posting.

Elizabeth Hernandez said...

WOW! You have an amazing testimony of Gods grace of love and forgiveness.
Shout it to the roof tops sister!
Blessings

Tereasa said...

Forgiveness is so freeing. I am so thankful for the example you have set in your life and the freedom you have because of forgiveness. Thank you for stopping by my blog yesterday. It was a pleasure to receive your comment!