Tuesday, April 17, 2012
On Your Heart Tuesdays
Hello friends, another Tuesday is here. What is laying upon your heart today? Laying upon my heart, is forgiveness. Forgiveness is something we all want from those we have hurt, and we usually want it quickly, but, we tend to be very slow, at giving forgiveness to others. I started out my life, in the womb, not wanted by my parents. I was actually, an attempted abortion. Did either of my parents, ever seek my forgiveness? No, they did not. But, I forgave my mother for not wanting me, and for trying to end my life, before it even had a chance to begin. I also forgave her, for not believing me when I told her that my stepfather had sexually abused me. She believed him, and kicked me out. I forgave her, and loved her beyond measure. I was her caregiver until she passed away in April of 2006. I had the honor of leading her to the Lord, before she passed away. Am I mad that she never asked for my forgiveness? No. I am so happy that I got to take care of her those last few years of her life, the memories are forever stored in my heart. I praise God for letting me be the one to lead her to Him. It is not my place, or any one's place, to judge someone. Only God, can, and will judge us all. I also forgave my stepfather for sexually abusing me. After he died, I went to the cemetery, and stood over his grave, and shed alot of tears, but, I told him that I forgave him. I forgave my dad for not wanting me from the time of my conception, until 2008. I praise God that he is now a part of my life. I know, this may sound crazy, but, I forgive my diabetes, and other factors that caused me to have a stroke in September. I came very close to dying, and I really will never be the same, but that is ok. Having the stroke, going through rehab, and the continued recovery, has made me stronger. I truly realize how precious life is, and how short it can be. I treasure each moment with my loved ones. Forgiveness is truly a gift, that we give to ourselves. Holding unto anger, hurt, and all types of negative emotions, due to unforgiveness, sickens, and darkens our hearts, and souls my friends. Give yourself a beautiful gift, forgive someone. Not only will it be good for them, but it will be great medicine for you. Your heart, and soul will be totally renewed. So, open up your heart, and truly, let the Son Shine!! He forgave us, the very least we can do, is forgive others.