I am learning that it is getting easier and easier to let go, and let God. When I first lost my hair, I really tried to act like it did not bother me. I would joke about it constantly, but behind those jokes were the tears of a clown. It was made worse by the stares of certain people, and unkind remarks. Recently, I have been having a struggle over the loss of my hair. I cannot even look in the mirror without crying, I feel so ugly. It is not just the loss of my hair, it is all the sickness I have been through recently. The diabetes has left its mark on my body, my eyes look so tired, and are looking very unhealthy due to the damage from diabetes. But, as I told my sister the other day, as we were talking on the phone, I refuse to dwell upon these things, satan is so happy when I feel so sad. I am not going to throw any happiness his way. I am going to be happy in this body that God blessed me with. I am not ugly, I was created in Gods image, and He is beautiful. I am who I am, and I belong to God. His opinion is the only one that matters, and He loves me regardless. So, I have forever let go of this sadness over losing my hair, and other issues regarding my health. Instead, I have chosen to let God be my mirror. I now see myself, as He sees me. I am His lovely daughter.