Wednesday, October 24, 2007

Woman To Woman-Dealing With Grief


The topic for today's forum is:Dealing With Grief
"Grief is a difficult process and almost everyone has experienced it in some form, be it losing a spouse, a parent, a relative, a pet, a child, or through miscarriage. Please share with our readers what you have found to be effective in helping you come to terms with the death of a loved one. How has it changed your life? How have you been able to move forward?" Ecclesiastes 3:1-4
1 There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven:
2 a time to be born and a time to die, a time to plant and a time to uproot,
3 a time to kill and a time to heal, a time to tear down and a time to build,
4 a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance:Grief is such a deep personal experience, everyone deals with it in their own way. My husband and I tried for 16 years to have a baby, but it was not meant to be due to my health problems. When I had to have a hysterectomy in 2000, I grieved over losing my dream baby. But, in 2005, I realized why God had not let me become a mother. Due to illness, my momma moved in with us, and I became her caregiver. It was an honor to be able to take care of her, and praise God, I was able to lead her to the Lord, before she passed away on April 21, 2006. When I walked in her room on that day in April, and realized that she had gone to be with the Lord, something inside of me shattered. I ran down the hall, screaming&crying, saying no! no!no! I knew she had gone to a better place, and was happy that she would no longer suffer. But, the little girl inside of me, wanted, and needed my momma. I began to take a journey into a deep dark pit of hell, known as depression. I became a cutter, to try and relieve some of the pain. During all of this, God never left me. He was right by my side the entire time, He was waiting for me to reach out to Him. Finally, one night as I sat on my bathroom floor, preparing to cut myself once again, the dam burst. I began to cry uncontrollably, begging God to help me. I asked Him to please help me to deal with my pain. I told satan that he could not have me, to go back to hell where he belonged, but that he was not taking me with him. God wrapped His loving arms around me, pulled me into His lap, and comforted me. He told me how very much He loved me, and that we would get through this valley together. Well, it has been 18 months since my momma passed away, God has walked through my valley with me, and has healed my broken heart. No more cutting, no more pain. He has raised me up out of the pit of depression, and into the light of His love. I praise Him now, and forever.

12 comments:

Morning Glory said...

I believe one of the most wonderful things in life is that God walks through the valleys with us, rather than just meeting us on the other side of it. Thank you for sharing such a personal story. It's truly beautiful.

Jen said...

Thank you for sharing your story. I am so very sorry for your losses.

Linda said...

What an emotional story. Thank you for sharing. I'm so glad you reached out and accepted God's love.

Mary said...

Denise,

Good morning, my dear friend. God is so good. It's wonderful that you reached out to Him. He stayed with you through the darkess times and held you up.

You certainly are a woman forged in fire - an amazing woman.

Blessings,
Mary

According to HIS Power said...

This is exactly how I felt when I lost our little girl three years before I became pregnant again with Claire. I had already had several miscarriages and just didn't think that I could take any more. I became severly depressed and thought often of suicide. My Lord God, MY FATHER, carried me through the fire. I praise God that He did the same for you! Love you, my friend.

Blessings to you, Julie

Talk..to..Grams said...

Bless you Denise! You have walked through the fire. I am so glad you let God take the pain away, and give you joy for mouning... We still miss our Momma a lot! But only He can give us Peace! Love you, Carolyn

Angela said...

Thank you for sharing such a beautiful personal experience that you and God won the victory over.

God is GOOD !!! He is where all of strength and joy comes from. He has blessed me in so many ways during my lifetime.

Thank you for stopping by today.

Have a week filled with lots of love and laughter!!

Angela

Bernadine said...

I'm so glad that he lifted you out of your dispair and now you are letting your light shine for so many to see.

Lisa said...

I know the pain of grief and I feel for you and I to know God can help you through it all.God Bless you~

Donetta said...

Think of it Now she stands at the right hand of God! interceding for you both day and night!
At the right hand of God!
Great courage to share your experience ,strength and hope!

Vicki said...

My heart ached and I started to cry as I read along...I've felt deep loss and pain, too. Thanking God for the healing He's brought us both. May the healing continue, my sister-friend.

Susan said...

Hi Denise,

I'm back, just read this post. I'm so blessed God has healed your broken heart.

I lost my mom too, no one ever takes the place of your mom.

Praying for God's love to continue to cover you, He truly gives beauty for ashes...

Susan