March of 2006, I was told that my precious Momma was dying, Hospice came into my home, to help us through our painful journey. I asked them how long my Momma had left with us, they said six months, or a little longer. I began to prepare myself as best I could, but I could not accept that I was going to lose not only my Momma, but my best friend. Then, on Friday, April 21, 2006, what started out as just another day, ended up being, like no other day I had ever experienced in my life. I walked in my Mommas room, and started talking to her like always. She was lying in bed, turned toward her closet, eyes opened. I kept saying, you better talk to me woman, I know you are awake. I walked up to the bed, kissed her on the cheek, and then I knew. My Momma was gone, God had came for her. I went numb, running and screaming through my apartment. I could not believe she was gone, not my Momma. They told me six months or longer, it had been one month exactly, since she came home from the hospital, and Hospice came out. One month, how could this be happening?? I went into a very dark place from that moment on, pure hell. I honestly just gave up, began cutting myself to release the intense pain I was feeling. But, you know what? God did not give up on me for one single moment, He went through my journey with me, carrying me every step of the way, I came out of the darkness a few months ago, I see the Son shining brightly again. I know my Momma is a beautiful shining angel in heaven, and she is my guardian angel. One day we will be reunited, until then, God is with me. He will continue to help me, as I travel through this world. Thank You my dear heavenly Father. I love You.
7 comments:
Ive heard that the hospices are wonderfully supportive I pray they were
Youve come along way this year my dear friend
God is good and yes one day when God decides you will be reunited
BIG HUGS
Thinking of you on this day. I pray for the peace of God to embrace and keep you all the day through, in Jesus' name. Much love to you.
My prayer is that you feel the loving arms of Jesus surrounding you this day and the entire weekend. I'll be here for you praying. *Special hugs for a special person* from Bonnie
You are on my heart today. I remember this day last year, how Marilee began a prayer chain for you and we all took turns praying at certain times of the day so that you would be covered in prayer 24/7. I remember that it was the first day that you didn't post - you never missed a day! And then while you were gone in Alabama how the silence seemed to go on for so long. I remember when you returned the anguish that was present in your posted words...but even more I remember how fiercely you clung to your Jesus, who was your source of strength and hope and eventual peace. I will always remember this day Denise, because of how God used it to demonstrate his tremendous grace and mercy to you. I love you sweetie.
May He slip is arm of comfort around you today and keep you close to His heart.
Blessings to you and yours...
Love you dear friend! May He continue to bless you.
(((((hugs)))))
I am thinking of you and praying for God to give you peace. It is so hard when we lose someone we love.
Angel (D.)
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