Saturday, September 5, 2015

Weekend Whispers-Meltdown

Well, it finally happened. Last night, I started crying, and could not stop. Eddie kept asking me, what is wrong? Then, he came over, and sat beside me, in my recliner. I buried my face into his shoulder, and continued to cry my heart out. When I finally got my self together, Eddie said, please talk to me. So, I started talking. I told him I was tired, in everyway. I have had doctor appointments, or tests, for two weeks now. This entire month, is filled up with appointments, tests, and a surgical procedure. Every appointment, I usually receive some bad news, or a new diagnosis. I told him, I am tired of all the physical things. I will be 52 in November, but I feel so much older, and I know I look ancient. My body is one huge mess. But, I am, who I am. More importantly, I am whose I am Whose am I? The great I am!!  Thank You Father

14 comments:

aspiritofsimplicity said...

I'm sorry. It's so difficult for those of us who are not facing these situations to know what to say. There really are no words. I am sorry you are facing all of these physical hurdles. I'm sorry that your time is so consumed with health issues. I only know you through blogging, but you seem like a beautiful and kind, caring, strong woman. It doesn't seem fair that you should be so tired. We all need a good cry sometimes and it seems you were due for one.

Saleslady371 said...

Love you, beautiful one. My prayers go out for you.

My health may fail, and my spirit may grow weak,
but God remains the strength of my heart;
he is mine forever. Ps. 73:26

Mom to 3 said...

I think it is a good thing to have a good cry every once in a while, especially after all that you have been through. I am glad that Eddie was there and comforted you, and that you were able to share with him your fears and worries. -Jolene

"but those who hope in the Lord
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint."

Isaiah 40:31

Grantham Lynn said...

I left something for you on my blog. God is with you. He sent me over here. I had not even come by and read your post. I am glad I listened.

Mary said...

Praying for you as you learn that God is bigger and better even in the middle of so many physical challenges. May God reign His love and grace upon you today. Blessings!

KC Bob said...

Fighting back tears Denise. And praying that healing will surprise you.

BumbleBeeLane said...

Sometimes a good cry helps. I've had some health problems lately and choose at this point not to talk to people about it except hubby and God. But a few times the reality hits and it's just better to get it out and move forward. Keeping you in prayer!~♥Amy

White Lace and Promises said...

My mama used to say, "Sometimes you need a belly laugh and sometimes you just need a good cry." I've had my share of crying. I'm so sorry you are down. When it rains, it pours. I will pray for you. You have a dear heart. I have a dear friend who is chronically ill. She has been sick and in bed and in and out of the hospital for 25 years. It breaks my heart. She feels so isolated and lost her daughter to brain cancer last year. I don't know how she makes it but like you her hope is built on nothing less than Jesus blood and righteousness. I dare not trust this sweetest frame but holy lean on Jesus' name. On Christ the solid rock I stand all other ground is sinking sand. All other ground is sinking sand. Hold on to that hope.

Laurie Collett said...

One day soon we shall all be as He is! God bless, keep and strengthen you.

Linda said...

A good cry and a good talk is good!

Stephanie said...

Dearest Denise, how I wish I could hold you in my arms right now and give you a tender hug....but I know our Heavenly Father is holding you and having His arms wrapped around you is simply the greatest! You remain in my thoughts and prayers, sweet friend. Much love to you!

David C Brown said...

Good to know "the Father of compassions, and God of all encouragement" has His eye upon you. May He bless you richly!

Peggy said...

Oh my dear lil sis ... I'm so sorry! But you must need a BIG shoulder to carry all your sorrow and I'm so glad you got your cry in or out. I know you know that God wraps His loving arms around you and holds you ever so closely plus you have 2 (or more) guardian angels doing the same plus a whole lot of friends and sisters in Christ that love you to pieces. The Holy Comforter is there every day for you to dump out all that's being dumped on you so go to Him as I will for you. Wish I could be there in person to embrace and lift your heavy spirit. You have been through so much yet I know God whispers over and over again how much He loves you and knows that you can do this with Him. You're never alone nor expected to hold it all in or carry all this alone. Bless your sweet heart for sharing with us ... and now trust as you lean on God! ~Peggy (((Denise)))

Alecia Simersky said...

I'm sooo sorry you have health issues you have to deal with. I can't imagine how exhausting it must be. I'm glad you cried and were honest with how you felt. We need a good cry every once in awhile, heck, every day if we need it!