Tuesday, July 21, 2015

Learning To Accept Myself

Well, I have an appointment with my counselor Thursday. I had to cancel my appointment last week, because Eddie was in the hospital. She said, I have to continue with my therapy, because in order to take care of Eddie, I must take care of myself.  That is very true, wise words. She is really trying to help me to love, and accept myself, just as I am. Wow, this is going to be a long, hard journey. For 51 years, I have hated myself. Slowly, I am pulling back the layers of myself,  and beginning  to forgive myself, for so much self hate. Praise God, for helping me on this journey!! I am one of His daughters, and He is making me run this race of life. He is taking the negative thoughts, and words away from me. He is constantly helping me to push onward, and one day upward, woo hoo!! He is showing me, that I am not perfect, but, I am His. I need to be who I am, nothing more, and nothing less.

10 comments:

Terra said...

Let that self hate go and send it far far away. Jesus will take it from you. Your counselor is right about taking care of yourself so you can care for Eddie.

CelestinaMarie@SouthernDayDreams said...

So glad you are working with someone who is giving your great advise. You do have to take care of you in order to be there for Eddie. Great to hear he is doing well. What a blessing!!
Wishing you a wonderful week. Hugs, cm

LeAnn said...

I am so happy that you are getting the help you need. I think you are such an example of perseverance and endurance. You are an amazing woman and you can do this and you can help Eddie too.
Blessings, prayers and hugs for you!

Linda said...

It is so important to take care of ourselves, and it is not being selfish, it is a way of thanking God for creating us and showing Him that we will take care of His creation. As well, when we love ourselves and take care of ourselves, loving and taking care of others becomes natural. Love and hugs to you, Denise.

The Queen of Brussels Sprouts said...

Sounds like great advice!

My little ✂ cottage said...

Nice, take care of yourself you need your strenght, glad your doing much better...blessings

Weekend-Windup said...

Both take care of yourself. Health is wealth!

Suzy Mae said...

I pray that you will see the beauty inside of you as you heal. Wishing you all the very best.

Peggy said...

Ah Denise ... (heavy sigh) PRAYING!!! I love you so much and you really do need to take care of you to be able to care or love others. Please do! I'm disappointed that "family" does not see what Marsha and your counselor have pointed out to you and I sincerely hope you do.

Sending a Mighty HUG with blessings and prayers with total acceptance of you being you --- just you as "fearfully and wonderfully" as God created you to be and is showing you. Accept, Receive and Keep Running a good race, facing His Truth and smashing those lies (and forgiving those who further the enemy's lies and hurt in Jesus Name) ... I am having a hard time with not knowing really how you are ... and whether you get any of my emails or ecards or messages but it looks like you are blogging and possibly getting to read these, maybe FB ... but more than anything I want you to take care of DENISE and be at your medical and counseling appts. no obstacles or excuses. You really need to ... please! I won't play around with nor play any games or lies the devil has been using against you and I have served him notice. Just like you, I'm sending him back to his pit without bringing you along. No more. Be strong. Your strength is in Jesus Christ (not any one else). You are more than a conqueror in Christ. So BE one. You are important enough to me to care and not tell you exactly what I think (even publicly). {sorry} ...but I really do care and love you sooo!
I will not be still when I see any injustice and I've seen plenty. You know I speak the truth (in love) and I pray that you receive in love.

Many blessings and so much love (it hurts) ~ Peggy

Debby@Just Breathe said...

Praying for success on your journey. I am glad you are getting help.