Thursday, July 9, 2015

Five Minute Friday-Hope

The feeling that what is wanted can be had, or that events will turn out for the best,:
to give up hope. Back in March of this year, I overdosed, attempting suicide. I had given up all hope, satan was on my shoulders big time. Pushing me further, and further toward the abyss of hell. But, the entire time, that I was swallowing down pill, after pill, I was praying. Asking God to watch over all of my loved ones, and to please forgive me. I even rededicated my life to Him. In the midst of my deepest, darkest despair, I continued to hang on tightly to my one, and only, source of hope, Jesus. He once again saved me from my worst enemy, myself. He took my hand in His, and pulled me from the pit of hell. Saving my life, restoring my faith, renewing my hope, forever.

15 comments:

Linda said...

Amen, Denise. God loves you....and so do I.

Melinda Hollis said...

I am glad you are still here. I know the struggle is real. Should you need a friend to talk to, please email me. I check right before bed, and right when I wake up. mghollis 38 at msn dot com.

Hugs,
Melinda
(visiting from FMF)

P.S. I don't know if it will encourage you or not, but I wrote this post this week. https://mghollis.wordpress.com/2015/07/07/a-pause/

Audra Silva said...

I know the despair that leads to thoughts of suicide. I'm so thankful God kept you in His hands and safely here with family and friends. Keep hoping in Him.

Andrew said...

Here from FMF, I'm #8.

I think you're awesome...because you're still here. I've seen courage in combat, but in writing those words, you've got the roughest of rough men (and I mean mercenaries, real ones) beat six ways to Sunday.

You're in my prayers.

http://blessed-are-the-pure-of-heart.blogspot.com/2015/07/your-dying-spouse-28-only-hope-five.html

Tara Ulrich said...

Wow Denise! Thank you for being so open and vulnerable, God is our true hope.

HOOTIN ANNI said...

Know you're all in our hearts!!

Bonnie Fair said...

You have a heart of a warrior!! Don't let satan grab your victory! I love your honesty and heart to share so openly! God delights in you and know that your loved! Would love to stay in touch friend!

Blogoratti said...

Heart warming tale of your struggle and eventual victory, well done. Best wishes always!

IFEOMA SAMUEL said...

Dear Denise , I already know you are a victorious woman.
Giving up hope is not an option because there are many who love you and our hearts are holding out love and shining lights toward you by writing such encouraging words here.

You are loved
You are blessed
you are cherished

Denise said...

I'm so happy He had good,important plans for You Denise.OX

Mom to 3 said...

I am so glad to see you back here at Five Minute Friday friend! I hope that God continues building up your eternal hope in Him. Much love and prayers. Your post reminded me of the hymn "Great is thy faithfulness" so I included the first verse below.

Jolene

"Great is Thy faithfulness,” O God my Father,
There is no shadow of turning with Thee;
Thou changest not, Thy compassions, they fail not
As Thou hast been Thou forever wilt be.
“Great is Thy faithfulness!” “Great is Thy faithfulness!”
Morning by morning new mercies I see;
All I have needed Thy hand hath provided—
“Great is Thy faithfulness,” Lord, unto me!"

Lisa in Texas = ) said...

What a beautiful testimony! Love you dear lady! Lisa :O)

A Magical Whimsy said...

I think with the way the world is headed, all Christians are 'feeling' the tempter, that old serpent, the Devil. Satan knows his time is short, and it is so obvious the next ones on the list to be totally persecuted by the world are Christians. I have been a Christian since I was eleven, and never in my life have I felt such pressure from the outside world which is now so full of evil. I don't even want to look at Yahoo anymore because there are things they are putting into their stories as 'filler' with photos of things I really don't want to have in my mind. The world has never been a safe place, but it's getting to the point where what we do for Christ is going to shine the more brighter. Shine your light! Satan wants to put our lights out. But we need to get out of ourselves and go find someone else in worse shape than we are in and SAVE them for Jesus' sake.
And I consider myself a very strong Christian. It is easy to become discouraged, but there is so much we need to remember to be thankful for and that is 'The Lord's mercies are new every morning.' It's like 'Today is the first day of the rest of your life'. Make every day a new day for the Lord. That is what will keep you going on your journey. I wouldn't doubt that there is something in our environment to dumb us all down, whether it is the chlorinated water, or the air we breathe, at some point it is going to have an affect on our bodies. Eat well, pray lots, listen to that small voice of the Holy Spirit to guide you. Stay around people who support you. Make sure to go to Women's bible studies for a support group. I know we can't always get away from circumstances that tear us down, but we are the only ones who will take care of ourselves with the help of Jesus.
Blessings to you,
Teresa
http://amagicalwhimsy.blogspot.com/

Tammy Belau said...

Denise,
thank you for your visit. I am so thankful that God has spared you from death so that you can shine for Him.
I am praying for Eddie. I am so sorry that He fell and will pray for his healing. It is no accident that we wrote about "hope" this week. I will also pray for you that you will find strength for today and bright hope for tomorrow. You are one day closer to heaven each day that you awaken on earth. And if you awaken on earth, it means He has need of you that day. God has purpose for you being exactly where you are, Denise. So thankful for your heart. It's His. (hug)
Sincerely,
Tammy
(tammysincerity) I was #71 on FMF this week.

LeAnn said...

You are such a wonderful woman full of faith and I am so happy that you pulled out of this moment. The Savior is always there for us and I know that he did save you for his bigger purpose.
I can't imagine the place you were in; but I do know you have been through so much and it does get dark and discouraging at times. Always remember that God has a plan for you and just hang on as he develops it all. I can tell already that you have grown through it all.
You are a true disciple of Christ; keep on with your faith and being such a great example ot us all.
Love and hugs for you on this one and lost of blessings too~