Tuesday, April 14, 2015
Through The Fire
I got very sick on November 10, Eddie took me to the ER. We thought it was my diabetes, as always. Well, it was my diabetes, I was in DKA, and also had an infection in my pancreas. But, the big surprise, I was having a heart attack. They put me in intensive care, and did a triple bypass on Wednesday, November 12. They really did not think I was going to survive. They actually started telling Eddie to prepare to bring hospice care out for me. I made it through the surgery, then had to go to rehab, to relearn to walk. I now have to use a walker. Sunday, it had been five months since my heart surgery. As you can imagine, the medical bills are a mile high. I feel like the hospital is my second home. Things have been rough, in every way. I have truly felt the flames licking at my heels. One month ago, this coming Wednesday, I attempted suicide by an overdose. Am I proud of this??? Of course not, but it is, what it is. There is no need to lie about it, or sugar coat it. I love the Lord, as always. I believe in Him more each day. Without Him, I would have been gone a long time ago, with Him, I have precious eternal life. I am far from a perfect daughter to my gracious Father, but, I Am Forgiven!!!!!The fires of hell tried their best to consume me, but my Living Water, as always, saved me. I am rising up out of the ashes, Father is not finished with me yet. Praying, loving, and thanking you all.