Sunday, August 4, 2013

My Marriage

Hello my friends, praying that you have all been enjoying your weekend. I have been doing a lot of thinking, and praying this weekend about my life. I know there were several of you that were not happy about the decision that I made this week concerning taking vocational training, so that I could possibly get a job. Many of you think that I am truly showing a very weak, submissive side of myself, and you do not like that. I disagree, for when I am weak, He is strong within me. Until you have walked in my shoes, and lived with Eddie, you have no idea how my days are. Do you think I enjoy not getting to go to Church, or any where else, except the grocery store or pharmacy? Do you think I like having no friends, except my online friends? Not being able to drive because I am legally blind? Wanting to join the gym where I took my therapy after my stroke, but not being able to? Eddie going to sleep every day after he gets home from work, and eats a snack. Spending no time with me, and it is worse on the weekends. I miss making videos with him for my blog, we use to have fun doing that. It is not my fault that I had a stroke, but I did. Life goes on, and we need to cherish each day we are given.  I made the decision that I made, not because I am weak, or love Eddie, more than I love God, or fear Eddie, more than I fear God. I made this decision, because I choose to fight for my marriage, and not just give up.

22 comments:

Saleslady371 said...

Never give up. Your prayers are powerful and God answers prayer. Thinking of you today and praying.

Hugs,
Mary

Joy said...

You did the best for you coz it is only you who knows best about your situation.
Good luck Denise. God is with you!

HOOTIN ANNI said...

...more power to you Denise!! For you, HE will show you the way.

HisFireFly said...

standing with you, trusting that you are indeed trusting Him and listening to His direction
don't allow what people say to sway you, dear one
you are and always will be an encourager to many!

Terra said...

I know you make decisions after much prayer, and that leads you in the right direction. I think your new blog name shows you are a warrior and following a good path.

From the Heart said...

I agree with the others who commented. I have a good husband but I can't drive, to places I'd like to go. He would take me anywhere I wanted to go, within reason of course, but I don't have control of my life because of so many surgeries and other things that keep me from doing what I like to do. If you can do it, sister, I'm with you and praying for you. You never know until you try. God be with you, my friend.

Laurie Collett said...

May God bless you and your marriage, dear one. Praying for you both.
Love in Him,
Laurie

cynia said...

I've read your earlier posts when you and Eddy were closer to each other. I hope it will be that way one day. Hugs :*

Jeanette Levellie said...

I think you are one brave, lovely lady. You CAN do this, you SHOULD do it, don't listen to naysayers. They are not God. You must answer to Him and no one else.

Love you, dear sister.

BumbleBeeLane said...

Sweet Denise I think you made the right choice for where you are today. You know how your life was with eddie. I do think he really loves you just has a lot of fears some real, some not. I also think he distances himself for fear of losing you (health reasons) and tries to hold you back for the same reasons. But I also think you are not happy were your life is right now. Yes prayer and trust in God will take you a long way, but you also need to assert your needs in the marriage and for your life.Eddie is not living under gods will right now as you are, so he is not doing right by you. If he was I would agree 100% that he is in charge of his household but right now you are letting him use your beliefs to hurt you. Pray ask God for direction, Listen when he answers but at the same time do assert your needs. If it means staying home for now fine. Gain your stregnth, rest and when you are ready for the fight go in knowing God is with you. If Eddie cares and loves you he would want you to be happy, which of course would make him happy as you rebuild.Day by day friend and baby steps. Just want you know you are special and cared for.Big hugs and prayers! Amy

Deanna said...

Hi Shorty Bear, sweet Shorty Bear!!! :)))
No, absolutely not weak- and Jesus is stronger when we are at our weakness. This miracle that Jesus is like us for us is what makes us different from the world who would bounce back at their husband and disregard his ideas and wants for you.
Your decision is the one that took the brave way out, it was NOT cowering out, it was the brave way out- any one that follow Jesus has to be brave. And we can only do this when we let Him work through us to travel on a rocky road that life has brought.
You are being a great example of the wife talked/taught about in

1 Peter chapter 3
1 Wives, in the same way be submissive to your husbands so that, if any of them do not believe the word, they may be won over without words by the behavior of their wives, 2 when they see the purity and reverence of your lives.

I have one to many times "ran my hubby over!" and he is a godly man.

So you take heart dear friend! Lean on the Everlasting Arms and stay faithful to meet Jesus in His Word- He is your best friend.

(((Do you have a LARGE print Bible- is it necessary for you to have one so you can read it better? ...... Let me know and I would LOVE to bless you with one- put it in the mail and ship it right up to ya! .... if I can make this happen for you then please come to my blog and comment there about it, or on my profile page you can find my email address and let me know)))

In HIS grace, Deanna

Lisa in Texas = ) said...

Denise- You are such a woman of God, I believe that your loving spirit will win your husband over to God. Standing with you, Lisa :O)

Chatty Crone said...

I am kind of new here. You once had a great marriage? What happened? Why do you not do things anymore? I am confused. sandie

rcubes said...

Hi sis...I remember those times when he used to be with you in your vlogs. I remember what you both had gone through when he became ill, same with you. It's tough when storms rain down on us. But I know, both of you will overcome...Because of Christ. Keeping you both in prayers. Be strong in the Lord's mighty power. Love you sister.

Joyful said...

Will continue to pray for you. You need to do what ever you feel God is asking you to do. Hugs.xx

Tam said...

Indeed, none of us have walked in your shoes. Good luck.

Cathy said...

Praying for you, dear, sweet sister. Love you

Wanda said...

Continue to follow God's direction.

Michell Pulliam said...

Hi Denise! Will be praying for both you and your husband! Your submissiveness to your husband, even in the bad times, is an act of faith sis and God rewards us for our faithfulness! 1 Peter 3:1 Blessings to you my sweet friend!

Dee said...

All things are possible with the Lord...keep praying for eddie..the Lords hears you.

LeAnn said...

I admire you for giving your all to your marriage. I believe you will be blessed because of your devotion to your marriage relationship.
You remain in my prayers and blessings to you!

Farida said...

Our faith moves mountains!