Sunday, August 4, 2013
Hello my friends, praying that you have all been enjoying your weekend. I have been doing a lot of thinking, and praying this weekend about my life. I know there were several of you that were not happy about the decision that I made this week concerning taking vocational training, so that I could possibly get a job. Many of you think that I am truly showing a very weak, submissive side of myself, and you do not like that. I disagree, for when I am weak, He is strong within me. Until you have walked in my shoes, and lived with Eddie, you have no idea how my days are. Do you think I enjoy not getting to go to Church, or any where else, except the grocery store or pharmacy? Do you think I like having no friends, except my online friends? Not being able to drive because I am legally blind? Wanting to join the gym where I took my therapy after my stroke, but not being able to? Eddie going to sleep every day after he gets home from work, and eats a snack. Spending no time with me, and it is worse on the weekends. I miss making videos with him for my blog, we use to have fun doing that. It is not my fault that I had a stroke, but I did. Life goes on, and we need to cherish each day we are given. I made the decision that I made, not because I am weak, or love Eddie, more than I love God, or fear Eddie, more than I fear God. I made this decision, because I choose to fight for my marriage, and not just give up.