This process of peeling away the layers of myself, and my marriage, is not going to be easy, but I must do it. I refuse to stay in a stagnant , dying marriage. I choose to regrow, renew, and refresh, my life, and my marriage. I am still me, that fact will never change, I pray only to improve myself. I want to be the woman, person, and wife, that Eddie deserves, and that I want to be. I pray that through all of this, I will not lose any of you as my friends. Please try to understand, and accept, the new me that I am striving to become. I love you all very much.