Tuesday, April 9, 2013

Thinking About My Life

Thanks to those of you that left your opinions concerning the race, very much appreciate you. The love, and concern you show to me is amazing. I love you all very much. To be as honest as I can be, the main reason I was choosing to run in that race, was to prove to myself, and everyone else, that I am not a failure. Every since my stroke, I have been feeling like a total loser. But, you know what? I do not have to prove anything to anyone. God loves me, just as I am. He knows my heart, and definitely knows my capabilities. He only expects me to do my best, not push myself. God did not save my life, help me to walk again, just to have me mess that all up, just trying to prove a point. Do not get me wrong, I am going to continue to walk, and do other exercise, as much as I can. I want to be as healthy as I can be, and definitely need to lose weight. But, I just will not be able to run, due to my legs, feet, and breathing. I must be careful, do not want to have another stroke, ever. In other news, I am now having to use a sleep apnea machine. When I did the sleep study, it showed that I quit breathing during the night 129 times, scary!! They said, that could cause me to have a stroke in my sleep. Not good. Take care, and enjoy the rest of your week everyone.

19 comments:

Tesha Papik said...

Yes it's good to be smart about these things. Praying you are feeling healthy and happy!

Kimberly A Edwards said...

Denise, I'm so very proud of you and your beauty from GOD. I'm blessed just to come across your path and experience GOD alongside you. Praise GOD for you. YOU are beautiful. YOU are great. YOU are made in HIS image. I'm blessed to call you, Sister in Christ. YOU are loved by GOD and by me. Amen.

Lisa in Texas = ) said...

Someone could have already given you this option - but you could find out what route they will be using for the race and then just work towards walking through the course - sometime on your own time. Or you would walk somewhere else.
I think that you have made a wise choice. And you are SO right. God loves you just the way you are. You don't have to prove yourself to anyone. You are a beautiful woman - a rare one - who is not only beautiful on the outside but beautiful on the inside.
May God continue to bless you,
Lisa :O)

Cathy said...

I think you made the right decision Denise! You don't have to prove anything to us your friends, or to God, and as far as yourself...pick something that will not threaten your health! Walking is always good. I sure need to get back to it~ ♥♥♥

a woman after Gods heart said...

hi friend denise im glad you point out this issue

i keep telling dear husband as christians we do not need to prove anything to no one.

just keep seeking the lord in good and bad..he nows us better than ourselfes

is no point on keep dragging ourselfs to prove our point

i was praying for you and also for myself...many desires has our hearts
the lord nows..and im holding on them...even it takes soo much

love you friend..and happy for you and your marriage i do...loves soraya

Boo and Kari said...

I'm impressed by your determination! So what if you don't run. Walking's good too...and it's easier to stop and appreciate nature that way too. Keep up the good work!

joy said...

God has given you wisdom Denise to choose what is best for you:)

Joyful said...

Praise God for your decision! I think you are showing wisdom in this matter. The sleep machine will help you so that you don't stop breathing during the night. So that is wonderful that you have one now. You should feel better during the day time too!

An Ordinary Housewife said...

You inspire me to with your positive attitude despite your illness. I wish I could be as positive with mine, but I'm afraid I am not.

You stopped breathing 129 times? Oh dear! I pray that the new sleep machine that you get will help you to breathe. I don't want you to have a stroke in your sleep!


Blessings!

sweetvintageofmine said...

I think it's wonderful you are determined to get healthier! Walking is perfect for you and CoCo! Have that vision for yourself and write it down! Your step of faith will carry you through~~~Blessings, Roxie

Jennifer Peterson said...

You are not a loser, and so glad you have the sleep machine to help you, you will feel better soon, and I so get the proving to yourself!

Never Forsaken said...

Hi Denise, I am so glad you are using wisdom. Yes, it is good you are still remaining active. In physical therapy they always warn me when I overdue that it is like taking one step forward and two back, and I can make the choice which direction I want to go.
I still overdue, and not only do I pay for it, but my husband stresses and worries about me when he has to leave me to go to work, so I am learning to listen to him when he says to take it easy today. But it is not easy to take it easy!
Glad they found the apnea before anything happened! Sounds like you are in good hands...We all are (Jesus)!
~God bless~ Lisa

RCUBEs said...

Glad He put what He wants for you in your heart. How true...we don't have to prove anything to Him. He always looks at us with so much worth! Because He loved us first. Same with bro. Eddie. He must be thinking the same way that last minute, he gave you his concern. Sleep apnea is no fun. We have so many inmates sleeping in a particular unit with the machines at night on and so, they're close with the medical staff. Take care sis and be strong always in the Lord's mighty power. Hugs and prayers.

Michell Pulliam said...

Hi Denise!! You are so welcomed my friend! Praying that you are healed and made whole in Jesus' name! Thanks so much for dropping by and linking up...have a lovely day!

Dee said...

Wise decision....just want to let you know i enjoy the songs you play :)

Laurie Collett said...

Praying for you. He loves each of us just as we are. The need to "perform" for Him is something we impose on ourselves -- I know I struggle with this, even though I realize that He would prefer that we just rest in Him. Beautiful post.
God bless,
Laurie

Alecia Simersky said...

It's great that you are doing things to be healthy and feel good. And you're right, you need to be careful you definitely don't want to give yourself a stroke :) Good luck doing the 5k, I need to do more of those kinds of things.

Saleslady371 said...

I know exactly how you feel. Sometimes things just happen but then sometimes we make mistakes and the consequences blow me over. Last week I took two days off and headed for the mountains to just be with God. He's the only one that can fix me and put me back together! Thank you for all the encouragement you give me.
Love you!
Mary

Cathy said...

A wise decision, dear friend. Love you ~