Tuesday, April 9, 2013
Thinking About My Life
Thanks to those of you that left your opinions concerning the race, very much appreciate you. The love, and concern you show to me is amazing. I love you all very much. To be as honest as I can be, the main reason I was choosing to run in that race, was to prove to myself, and everyone else, that I am not a failure. Every since my stroke, I have been feeling like a total loser. But, you know what? I do not have to prove anything to anyone. God loves me, just as I am. He knows my heart, and definitely knows my capabilities. He only expects me to do my best, not push myself. God did not save my life, help me to walk again, just to have me mess that all up, just trying to prove a point. Do not get me wrong, I am going to continue to walk, and do other exercise, as much as I can. I want to be as healthy as I can be, and definitely need to lose weight. But, I just will not be able to run, due to my legs, feet, and breathing. I must be careful, do not want to have another stroke, ever. In other news, I am now having to use a sleep apnea machine. When I did the sleep study, it showed that I quit breathing during the night 129 times, scary!! They said, that could cause me to have a stroke in my sleep. Not good. Take care, and enjoy the rest of your week everyone.