Thursday, March 7, 2013

Renewal

There is much renewal here at the Oldham home. Last night, Eddie and I had a very long talk, he totally opened up his heart to me, and I totally opened up my heart to him. I shared with him that I felt like every since my stroke, I have been grieving, sad, and deeply hurt. He shared with me that every since my stroke, he has been very angry. I said, every since my stroke, which was in September of 2011, our marriage has been like a huge pot of stew simmering on the stove. The stew contains, hurt, sadness, grief, and much anger. No one has been watching the stew, or stirring it. It boils over constantly, then goes back down. I said, can you imagine how awful it smells by now, and what it must taste like? I said, if we do not confront what is going on in our marriage right now, it is going to be ruined, just like that pot of stew, is that what you want?? He said, no. I said, well, it is time for you to let go of the anger, and time for me to let go of the grief, sadness, and hurt. I told him how very much I love him, and that I will fight for our marriage, always. I told him I was very sorry for hanging onto the sadness, hurt, and grief, and that if my actions, or words, had hurt him in anyway, I was truly sorry. I said, satan loves it when there is trouble in our marriage, he wants to destroy our marriage. I said, God and I love you so much, and we have never left you, we have been right here waiting for you to come back to us. We miss you, and need you. Please come back Eddie, I know you are in there. I know you must be so tired of carrying around all of that anger.Are you truly ready to let go of it? He said, yes I am. I went over on the couch, where he was sitting. I sat down on his lap, and I said, I am letting go right now of the hurt, sadness, and grief. I raised my hands toward heaven, and released those feelings. Then, I took his precious hands in mine, and I said, come on Eddie, on the count of three, we will release your anger together. 1, 2, 3, we raised our hands together toward heaven, and released his anger. Gone!! He pulled me close to him, and we just held each other, saying we loved each other, over, and over. Then, I said a prayer, thanking God for watching over our marriage, and for bringing healing to our marriage. I asked God to forgive me for those negative feelings that I have been carrying around, and Eddie also. I asked God to look into our hearts, please forgive us, and cleanse us. Praise God for answered prayer.

16 comments:

Pamela said...

So thankful you were able to resolve and begin anew. Our marriages are worth fighting for!

Dorothy said...

Hold to God's unchanging hand, you are truly blessed, both of you!! I'm happy for you,
Hugs,
Dorothy

Terra said...

I hope you two rebuild your marriage into a sanctuary for both of you, a place of rest and restoration.

Parsley said...

God is good.

Lisa in Texas = ) said...

Wow - brought tears to my eyes! Praise the Lord for His restoration of your marriage!
Lisa :O)

bp said...

Praying for you and your marriage. Thank you for sharing your story. God is good, may He bless you for honoring Him in your marriage.

MyJourneyBack said...

Precious. Praise The Lord.

Joyful said...

Praising God with you dear heart. Hugs. xx

Ashley Barnes said...

This is so fabulous! See Denise you are important and our Daddy loves us. When those kids talked about you and you're husband got upset, God said, "I have something for you soon, love you!"
We have to trust God which is a hard thing because sometimes we feel like we can only trust ourselves because we've been hurt so much.
Love you Denise and happy for you!
I will keep you in my prayers hunny!
Hugs ♥

Pam Williams said...

Thanking God for the healing that is taking place in your marriage, Denise. Awesome!

Pia said...

That is really nice. The Lord does restore marriages. I pray that yours will be stronger than ever. (((hugs)))

Love Bears All Things said...

This was so precious....I'm sure these feeling the two of you had been keeping bottled up were contributing to your health in a negative way....now,Praise God, I pray that you start to have bright and beautiful days again.
Mama Bear

Sharon said...

Oh, this is a miracle! How happy this makes me! The enemy loses a big battle - and the Oldhams find themselves being restored and renewed by our precious Lord!

YAY - :)

GOD BLESS you both!

Ma said...

How wonderful!

LeAnn said...

I can tell that prayers have been answered on this one. I so happy you had good talk with Eddie. This was heartfelt and sweet. It is good to let go of hurt, anger, and grieving. Go back to that great word of Hope in your marriage and your live.
Blessings!

Boo and Kari said...

What an awesome God we serve!