Friday, October 26, 2012
Five Minute Friday/Voice
I knew when I had my stroke last year, that I would be different in many ways. Including the way my voice sounds sometimes. If you did not know me, at times, you would think I was drunk. My speech sounds very slurred at times. But, I did not think my voice would be in for such a battle. What do I mean? Well, some of my family, try to keep me silent. I feel as if they think I am now different, like suffering from brain damage. They no longer treat me like the almost 49 year old woman I am, they treat me like a child. When I try to talk to them about it, they silence my voice quickly. They say, do not get upset, you know you have had strokes. You do not want to have another one do you? My beloved husband treats me as if I do not exist. He definitely wants my voice silenced. When I talk slurred, which is not my fault, he cannot stand it. He makes fun of me, by mimicking me. He says, oh, your talking in your stroke voice again. Yes, I have had several mini strokes, and a big stroke. But, so have many other people. I am still me, and very much alive. Do I want to have another stroke? Of course not!! But, I also do not want to be silenced, and put in a corner to die either!! I am not giving up this fight for my voice to be heard, I will continue to battle on. God created this voice, and desires for me to speak praises unto Him. I will forever pray, and praise. God loves me, and enjoys to hear my voice call out His name!! That is what I intend to do, until I leave this world.