Tuesday, August 7, 2012

On Your Heart Tuesday/Wonderful World

Well, I had another eye appointment today. One of many in the past several weeks. I have diabetes, which had caused damage to my eyes, and then last year, when I had my strokes, they caused more damage. Recently, I have been experiencing alot of pain with my eyes, and some blackouts. Today, I asked my Doctor to be totally honest with me. I asked him, if my eyes were going to stay the same, get a little better, or get worse. He said, they will never get better. My vision in both eyes is 20/400. I have neuropathy really bad, in the back of my eyes, it cannot improve. I have to go back to see him in six weeks, after my sinus surgery on August 30th. He said we will just have to take things as they come, one step at a time. How does this news make me feel? I came home, and had a crying spell, it hurt to know that my vision will never get better. Right now, I am griefing over this news. But, I will survive, it is ok. God is my healer, true physician, and the One who blessed me with vision at the beginning of my life. He is very much here with me now, as my vision is dimming. That is all I need, my Saviour by my side, guiding me into the next phase of my life. No matter what, I will forever believe that the world, is a wonderful place, filled with Gods beauty. Look around, you will see the beauty.

9 comments:

Parsley said...

I am so sorry. I am glad you are leaning on God.

Terra said...

Oh friend, I love your spirit and how you lean into Jesus. I pray for healing for your eyes, for the pain to disappear and that you have lots of love and support around you.

my diary said...

your situation is familiar as a sister in church she has diabetis for years and she didnt see anymore she remain like 6 months waiting an operation is a long story but after the operation she could see the next day perfectly now she walks and do everything on her own..the point is not only dokters but Gods hand was on her life and he made the way...denise is nothing impossible for God..was talking with huub about that and once more telling my own husband what God has done for me...hold on..my heart tells me is going to be allright praying for you...wish we were near to talk friend...love you

Cathy said...

I love you, dear Denise. God is our hope, and He will never leave nor forsake us. Praying for healing ~ {{{Hugs}}} ~

Joyful said...

I'm glad you made it to your appointment. I'm glad you are leaning into God too dear friend. As the doctor says, "one step at a time" and as the song says "one day at a time, sweet Jesus". I love you dear friend and am praying. xx

joy said...

I believe that taking one day at a time is the best thing to do and let God do the rest. My father was a blind man and I had seen how it was. But, your story is a different story coz God is working in your life. you have the right attitude and it helps much in your situation. Hope you have anice day today.

Renee said...

Praying for you, sweet sister.

Linda said...

I'm so happy that you know the Lord, and that He will be your strength. I am sorry that your eyes won't get better, but I do pray that the vision loss will be a slow, slow, process, and that God will give you grace along the way.

Your testimony of faith is wonderful!

Love, Linda @ Truthful Tidbits

moreofhim said...

Hi Denise: My hubby has diabetes, too, and has had bleeding behind the eyes, etc. He has an eye specialist that has been able to do shots behind the eyes that stop this bleeding and it has helped his vision tremendously! I wonder if this could help you, too? Just a thought...You are in my prayers!!

God bless you - Julie