Tuesday, August 7, 2012
On Your Heart Tuesday/Wonderful World
Well, I had another eye appointment today. One of many in the past several weeks. I have diabetes, which had caused damage to my eyes, and then last year, when I had my strokes, they caused more damage. Recently, I have been experiencing alot of pain with my eyes, and some blackouts. Today, I asked my Doctor to be totally honest with me. I asked him, if my eyes were going to stay the same, get a little better, or get worse. He said, they will never get better. My vision in both eyes is 20/400. I have neuropathy really bad, in the back of my eyes, it cannot improve. I have to go back to see him in six weeks, after my sinus surgery on August 30th. He said we will just have to take things as they come, one step at a time. How does this news make me feel? I came home, and had a crying spell, it hurt to know that my vision will never get better. Right now, I am griefing over this news. But, I will survive, it is ok. God is my healer, true physician, and the One who blessed me with vision at the beginning of my life. He is very much here with me now, as my vision is dimming. That is all I need, my Saviour by my side, guiding me into the next phase of my life. No matter what, I will forever believe that the world, is a wonderful place, filled with Gods beauty. Look around, you will see the beauty.