Monday, August 20, 2012

On Your Heart Tuesday/Imperfections

What is on your heart today? Sitting heavy on my heart today, is imperfections. I have never liked myself, suffer with self hatred. When you add that together, with how I have been feeling about myself since my stroke last year, it can be a deadly combination. I am extremely hard on myself, I feel as if I cannot do anything right. I feel sorry for my husband, believe me I am not the wife I use to be, nor the woman, nor the person. He has changed too, treats me so different. Not like a wife, but like a little mentally challenged child. That really hurts. But, in my heart, I know, I am still me!! Different in many ways, but still me. I still love, hurt, feel, and cry, like everyone else. God made me, and He loves me, just as I am. He made some minor adjustments to me when I had my stroke, but, He still kept me here. There had to be a reason for that. I feel He was once again showing me, that I could, and would survive. It is so awesome to be loved, imperfections, and all. Thank You Father God, with You, I can face each day as it comes.

15 comments:

Dee said...

You are hard on yourself...I wrote this on my blog today...God never limits us, except to liberate us.You are surrounded with a lot of crushing circumstances right now...but hang in..do not give up or give in to those thoughts. Great blessings are ahead.

Christina said...

When you are weak, He is strong. This is the truth I cling to when I feel inadequate and weak. May He strengthen you and give you courage. Blessings!

Wanda's Wings said...

You are a precious gift of God.

my diary said...

this is on my heart: (after my convertion) i have seen that we all go thrue different stuff in life ones suffer more than others...and we might think lord why me ? and i can just remembered a sister in christ told me this simple words...soraya everyday thank God and tell him lord i do not understand why of things but i trust your judgement ...i can related to you in many ways...but one thing i have deep on my heart..my God will delivered me from all things..i dont have to understand anything...will come a day that you will look back and laugh about things..in a good way..you are on my mind and heart...and i do have your adress remembered ?you will hear from me soon...take care...loves..soraya

Marie Louise said...

Hi Denise,
It's a lot you are going trough but God is always there for you!
You are a very strong woman, i respect you!
Hugs, Marga

From the Heart said...

Still praying for you. I think I've read all your posts, however, I have not commented on all of them. They are all great posts especially your timme with "little man".

My dh and I went to visit our OD in VB with my YD and her hubby and youngest daughter. We also got to see their son (our grandson) who is in college at VB. We were in the bookstore and someone happpened to look up at the pictures on the wall and saw our grandson. He was with some others that he plays in a band with. We are so proud of him. He's doing a lot better than I expected. He has sought the friends who are totally committed to God to hang out with. We left last Thusday and came back yesterday evening.
A good time with my family.

Lon Anderson said...

Many of times I've allowed to let the Devil get into my thoughts telling me what a bad person I am until sometimes I burst out into sobbing until I can't hardly stop, but thanks to the Blood of Christ things are slowly starting to change for me now.

Annmarie Pipa said...

God gave you everything you need to get to heaven.

elaine @ peace for the journey said...

There is a reason you are here, Denise, even as I have a reason to be here. There have been days when I've questioned my purpose and my usefulness . . . a lot of them. It's a scheme of the enemy to keep us in a pit of despair and self-hatred! Combat these lies with God's truth. Say it out loud, over and over again; practice your faith until it's second nature. You are beautiful in God's eyes and worth the very life of his Son.

I love you dearly.

~elaine

RCUBEs said...

Just popping over before this day consumes me. I am glad I did and I am leaving a prayer as I comment for His strength, comfort, protection and other richest blessings over you sister. I pray that you will always be strong in the Lord's mighty power! Love to you.

Anne Lang Bundy said...

These trials seem to go on so long, dear one. I know. But we are only being tried to prove our love and faith. Our reward for standing firm will be great!

For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, is working for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory ...
2 Corinthians 4:17

Becky Jane said...

Most people with physical limitations just want to be treated normal. I know this is a big issue with me being in a wheelchair.

You are doing such a good job encouraging others, maybe you should look at doing the same for yourself. Hatred is not good or healthy, but I know you have love deep inside of you.

HUGS and prayers sweet friend.

Kaye - the Sandwich Generation Issues said...

I know what you mean. And oh, my senior mom does even more. I keep reminding her AND me to cling to His promises including "all things work together for good to them that love God" even illnesses - I'm praying for you today for your surgery and for His sweet hugs of encouragement!

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