Monday, August 20, 2012
On Your Heart Tuesday/Imperfections
What is on your heart today? Sitting heavy on my heart today, is imperfections. I have never liked myself, suffer with self hatred. When you add that together, with how I have been feeling about myself since my stroke last year, it can be a deadly combination. I am extremely hard on myself, I feel as if I cannot do anything right. I feel sorry for my husband, believe me I am not the wife I use to be, nor the woman, nor the person. He has changed too, treats me so different. Not like a wife, but like a little mentally challenged child. That really hurts. But, in my heart, I know, I am still me!! Different in many ways, but still me. I still love, hurt, feel, and cry, like everyone else. God made me, and He loves me, just as I am. He made some minor adjustments to me when I had my stroke, but, He still kept me here. There had to be a reason for that. I feel He was once again showing me, that I could, and would survive. It is so awesome to be loved, imperfections, and all. Thank You Father God, with You, I can face each day as it comes.