Thursday, May 3, 2012
Another Thankful Thursday is here my friends. What am I thankful for today? I am thankful for my brain. I am sitting here, typing this post, as I wait on my dad to come get me. He is driving me to the hospital for my total head cat scan on my brain today. I am feeling a little nervous, as the memories of last year, come rolling back. But, I know, Jesus is with me. I hate that machine, it puts radiation in to my brain, really warms my head up. I told my husband that it feels like it is frying my brain. My brain has been through so much in the last several months. When I was younger, I never really thought about my brain. I mean, I knew, I had one, lol I was never a genius, far from it. I was your average student all the way through school. But, let me tell you, every since I had my strokes, I am very aware of my brain. I am thankful for it. I came close, to having part of my skull removed. If they had removed part of it, I would have died, or been severely brain damaged. The Doctor said, I would not have known my husband, or family. Can you imagine? Scary!! I am not the woman I use to be, before the stroke. But, I am me, one of God's girls. It takes me more time now, to say things. I really have to think, before speaking. My memory is not what it use to be. That makes me sad, especially when my husband is talking to me about things we did in the past. I look at him, and say, I do not remember that honey. That hurts my heart, because it is no longer our memory, only his memory. But, I refuse to whine, and have a pity party. Instead, I am choosing to embrace my new brain, faults, and all. My husband, and I have many more memories to make together. Get ready brain!!