Thursday, May 3, 2012

Thankful Thursday

Another Thankful Thursday is here my friends. What am I thankful for today? I am thankful for my brain. I am sitting here, typing this post, as I wait on my dad to come get me. He is driving me to the hospital for my total head cat scan on my brain today. I am feeling a little nervous, as the memories of last year, come rolling back. But, I know, Jesus is with me. I hate that machine, it puts radiation in to my brain, really warms my head up. I told my husband that it feels like it is frying my brain. My brain has been through so much in the last several months. When I was younger, I never really thought about my brain. I mean, I knew, I had one, lol I was never a genius, far from it. I was your average student all the way through school. But, let me tell you, every since I had my strokes, I am very aware of my brain. I am thankful for it. I came close, to having part of my skull removed. If they had removed part of it, I would have died, or been severely brain damaged. The Doctor said, I would not have known my husband, or family. Can you imagine? Scary!! I am not the woman I use to be, before the stroke. But, I am me, one of God's girls. It takes me more time now, to say things. I really have to think, before speaking. My memory is not what it use to be. That makes me sad, especially when my husband is talking to me about things we did in the past. I look at him, and say, I do not remember that honey. That hurts my heart, because it is no longer our memory, only his memory. But, I refuse to whine, and have a pity party. Instead, I am choosing to embrace my new brain, faults, and all. My husband, and I have many more memories to make together. Get ready brain!!

17 comments:

Cranberry Morning said...

My prayers are with you, Denise. You are such a testimony to God's love for His children. I know you are keeping your focus on Jesus. Blessings.♥

Godsgalnj said...

Definitely concentrate on the more memories you and your husband will make. *HUGS*

bp said...

Asking our Lord to be with you during your test, sweet friend.

God bless you and give you peace.

From the Heart said...

I left a prayer for you at The Lighthouse. I am praying you will feel the sweet Holy Spirit throughout the scan and all apprehension be removed in the name of Jesus. As the song on my blog says, He Knows Your Name, and He knows just what You need. May you feel the very presence of God surrounding you, holding you throughout the test in the name of Jesus.
Love you, AE

Tesha said...

Praying for you Denise, your testimony is a shining light in a dark world!

Joyful said...

I'm not sure what time your appointment is but my thoughts and prayers are with you. God bless. Big hugs. xx

RCUBEs said...

Praying for you sis for everything to be okay. God bless.

momto8blog said...

I will pray for you today my blogging friend.

Greenearth said...

Wishing you strength as you create your new life.

HOOTIN ANNI said...

Oh Denise...I do hope all went well for you. You're definitely one lady that has the will and the right connections from up above!!!

Becky Jane said...

Oh Sweetie, how did things go yesterday? I wasn't aware that a cat scan felt that way. I've heard the wheat grass juice helps counter act the effects of radiation and helps the body. You are such an inspiration. HUGS

Misty said...

Thankful Thursday was yesterday, but today I am thankful to be at your place reading your words. A true testimony of strength and love. You inspire so many. Thank you.

Dieneke awkoopmans@solcon.nl said...

I will pray for you every day.
Thank you for alle the lovely words you've send to me.

Your friend in Christ, Dieneke

Pia said...

what's important is what you have now and what you and eddie will have in the future. i love you, denise.

Laurie Collett said...

God is in control of every precious part of your brain. He loves you & so do I.
Love & prayers,
Laurie

Karen said...

You are a vessel that God works through! Thank you for your blog.

Connie Arnold said...

It's hard to lose memories. I understand because it happens to me also with my lupus. But I'm so thankful you have your husband who can remind you of those things that you have shared, that your brain still functions as well as it does, and most of all that God is with you, helping you through it all as you are an inspiration to others. Hugs and blessings to you, Denise!