Tuesday, May 1, 2012

On Your Heart Tuesday

Hello sweet friends, praying your week is going well so far. What is on your heart today?  My heart is feeling a little heavy today. I have not been feeling well for a couple of weeks now. Intense pain in the back of my head, that nothing relieves. The pain is really bad, makes me cry. I have an appointment this Thursday, will be getting a total head cat scan. On Tuesday, I will see my neurologist to get the results. He is very concerned, so am I. In the back of my head, is where I had my stroke, and also that is where I have a 100% blocked artery. My brain has been swelling every since I had my stroke on September 5th. It will be eight months since my stroke on may 5th, this Saturday. I remember when I was in the hospital in intensive care, every morning at 4 a.m., they would medicate me, and then take me for a total head cat scan.  I hated that long ride down the long hallway, into the room where they did the test. It was always so cold in that room, and I hate that machine. It totally scared me, not knowing what it would show. It was never good news, my brain continued to swell. I was so drugged out from the medication they gave me, I really do not remember much, except fear. Well, Thursday, I will not be medicated. In one way, I wish I would be, because I hate it so much, and have such bad memories from it. But, actually, I am glad I will not be medicated, because that means, I can totally focus upon Jesus, and His love, and comfort for me. I am not sure what the results of the test will show, but, I am sure of Jesus, and His promise to never leave, or forsake me. I am holding on tightly to Him, not ever going to let go.

12 comments:

From the Heart said...

You are in my prayers. I tried to put a prayer at the Lighthouse but it would not take it. I wrote Peggy but don't know if she will have time to read it.

Just lay your head on God's shoulder and rest in His arms while having the test. He will carry you through.

Father, let Denise feel Your loving arms around her, holding her, loving her and healing her in the name of Jesus.

Pam said...

Saying a prayer for you, Denise--both for peace as you have the cat scan and for good results.

Tesha said...

Oh Denise, how I pray for your healing and relief from these symptoms. My heart just breaks for you. I am PRAYING for you!!!!

Linda said...

I hope this will be something that they can help you with...and that it won't be as serious as you fear that it is honey. I love that you are a Christian and that you are proclaiming your great faith amidst your trials. God Bless You and Keep You..and Heal You!

Linda @ Truthful Tidbits

Godsgalnj said...

just wanted to give you a huge hug! (HUG!)

Saleslady371 said...

I've been thinking of you a lot today and praying.
Love you!

Wanda's Wings said...

You keep on holding on to Jesus.

Angie Vik said...

Sounds like you could use a hug. Hope your tests go well and you get answers and relief.

Cathy said...

Bless your dear, sweet heart, my friend. Praying for healing, comfort and peace. Just keep your mind on Jesus during the test. That's what I do, think of songs, scripture verses. I'm agreeing with what Alice said. Praying for a better report this time. Love and Hugs

Renee said...

I'll be praying for you, Denise! Thank you for blessing us with your unique voice on the internet.

Katie said...

praying that your test goes well and that you can feel God peace and comfort denise!

Kaye Swain - SandwichINK for Grandparents and Caregivers said...

You are in my prayers!