Saturday, August 6, 2011

Midnight Cries

Father God, here it is midnight, and once again, I cannot sleep. All I can manage to do is cry, and call out Your precious name. But, that is more than enough for me. You are all I need Father, all I will ever need. I had not been able to eat anything since the turkey sandwich I ate on Tuesday, could not keep anything down. I was finally able to eat last night(Friday Night), but a couple of hours after I ate, the waves of nausea came rolling in, and I threw up everything I had ate. Then, my blood sugar dropped to 60, then back to 103, then to 63. I was really scared, it would not stop dropping. My head hurt so bad, the pain made me cry. I refuse to give in to this eating disorder, or to my diabetes. I will survive this, You will bring me through this Father. I will be stronger for fighting this battle, there is a reason for this, You will not leave me. Miracles can, and will happen through You my precious Father. I will forever shout Your name during my midnight cries. Glory to Your name always. I love You Father.

15 comments:

Wanda's Wings said...

I am so sorry you are so sick. Your faith is super strong. May God wrap His arms around you.

Grace on the Narrow Path said...

Praying for you my sweet friend. I have been battling so much with my body this year. I have gained so much weight and my sugar levels are up and down constantly.
Just know God will pull you through this. HE always does ... HE is always with us. I love you.
Blessings,
Bren

Karen said...

Precious sister, He hears those midnight cries...praying, believing, and claiming that miracle you need...in Jesus' name...

Love Bears All Things said...

You're in my prayers.
Mama Bear

MyJourneyBack said...

Praying for you. Phillipians 4:13 is the verse in our messsage last night and we are following up tomorrow. He will give you the strength you need. He hear's you Praising Hime in the storm. And he knows that you are a Blessing to many. Praying for a miracle.
Tell Love Bug to give you a hug for me!
Sherry

Peggy (mazmagi) said...

Oh my dear sister Denise,

How my heart breaks when I hear your midnight cries but I am hopeful as you know that HE HEARS YOU because He called out to me and awakened me gently to pray and I did... as You did and together we will battle this!

This is what you need to do... take time daily to journal and write to God or us as you struggle but never admit defeat. Continue to call out His Name and praise Him as He brings the miracles of healing.

I can't believe you are still in this place of suffering and not being able to keep food in... there must be something that can be done besides the MIRACLE!

We know and believe that HE DOES hear you and He will answer for as we call out in our weakness and pain, He gives us His strength. As we take up the battle to conquer this disorder, we know that we need the armor of God and His weapons of warfare to defeat this infirmity.
You are more than a conqueror and that spirit within you rose up as you can see at the end of this "Midnight Cry", the power in your own words. Claim His Word Denise! Claim His Promises. Tell your tummy to listen and set your mind on Him.

Let's get that eating problem conquered Denise! Let's defeat any lies that are keep you down and defeating your victory. God will not leave you as you cling to Him.
Look at your blog header and thank Him as He holds you. Cry out and write the thoughts that are pulling you down and then change them around.

There is no problem too big
God cannot solve it...
There is no mountain too tall
He cannot move
There is not storm too dark
God cannot calm
There is no sorrow too deep
He cannot soothe

If He carried the weight of the world upon His shoulders
I know, my brother that He will carry you
If He carried the weight of the world upon His shoulders
I know, my sister that He will carry you

He said come on to me all who are weary
And I will give you rest


HE WILL CARRY YOU

Put music like this on to repeat and repeat until you sleep and then some praise until that food stays in... fill your house with TRUTH and STRENGTH! Let the AUDIO Bible read God's Word to you over and over. BLB has lots of good stuff and audio:

Look at this ( I just stumbled upon as I was looking for the LINK for audio):
Book 6. Miracles
Chapter 1. Miracles Considered
Chapter 2. Miracles in the Upper Regions, and in the Atmosphere
Chapter 3. Miracles in Fire
Chapter 4. Miracles in Water
Chapter 5. Miracles in the Earth
Chapter 6. Miracles in the Vegetable Kingdom
Chapter 7. Miracles in the Animal Kingdom
Chapter 8. Miracles in Food and Raiment
Chapter 9. Supernatural Bodily Gifts and Deprivations
Chapter 10. Miraculous Cures
Chapter 11. Miraculous Death and Disease
Chapter 12. Miraculous Translation and Raising the Dead
Chapter 13. Miraculous Deliverances, and Phenomena
Chapter 14. Miracles in Ejecting Devils and Destroying Idols
Chapter 15. Effects of Miracles

Praying and believing for you,
Peggy

Godsgalnj said...

He will definitely bring you through! Keep trusting, dear Denise! *hug*

Linda said...

I was crying out at midnight too. I had a bad allergy tummy ache. I am sorry for your illness. I pray you will be better real soon.

Love, Linda

Saleslady371 said...

I'm praying for that miracle for you sweet Denise. I love you!

From the Heart said...

Denise I am praying for you. He loves you and will take care of you. He is the God that healeth thee.

Tammi said...

Dear Denise,
Just had you on my mind, and so glad to see that there was an update on your blog. Although, I'm so sorry to read that you are not feeling well at all!! *sigh* BUT, there's one thing for sure, your heart is in tune to the Father and you are praising His name, in everything, including this. Such a testimony of faith and praise! God is honored through your willing heart, sis, and He will somehow use this for your good and His glory. Romans 8:28. I just glanced at my little "flip perpetual calendar" here on my desk, and the verse says, "God is able to make all grace abound to you." II Corin. 9:8. And the first three words really stand out: GOD IS ABLE! Yes, He is..and no matter how big our problem is, we can place our biggest problem next to HIM and see that GOD..THE One, true GOD... IS...NOT WAS, but IS!....ABLE!! Thanking Him for this promise! And taking this one to the "Bank of Faith" and cashing it in, on your behalf! Cha-CHING! :)
Love and hugs to you! (((MMMMMMMM)))
Tammi
PS..I hope I mailed the CD to the correct address. ;o)

Under Her Wings said...

Praying for you today Philippians 4:6-7

From the Heart said...

I pray you are feeling better today.

Leah @ Point Ministries said...

Although I have not struggled with diabetes, I have battled an eating disorder. It is a demon that can never be satisfied. I am very much a recovering anorexic and I am thankful for that. Please know there is recovery from this. It is not easy, but it is possible. Praying for you.

I wrote about my journey in 4 or 5 posts a year or so ago. http://www.leahadams.org/my-journey-with-anorexia/

Pia said...

Oh sweet sis, so sorry to hear about your being in pain again. (((Hugs)))

Praying for you, Denise.