Saturday, August 6, 2011
Father God, here it is midnight, and once again, I cannot sleep. All I can manage to do is cry, and call out Your precious name. But, that is more than enough for me. You are all I need Father, all I will ever need. I had not been able to eat anything since the turkey sandwich I ate on Tuesday, could not keep anything down. I was finally able to eat last night(Friday Night), but a couple of hours after I ate, the waves of nausea came rolling in, and I threw up everything I had ate. Then, my blood sugar dropped to 60, then back to 103, then to 63. I was really scared, it would not stop dropping. My head hurt so bad, the pain made me cry. I refuse to give in to this eating disorder, or to my diabetes. I will survive this, You will bring me through this Father. I will be stronger for fighting this battle, there is a reason for this, You will not leave me. Miracles can, and will happen through You my precious Father. I will forever shout Your name during my midnight cries. Glory to Your name always. I love You Father.