Speaking My Heart

Hellooooooooooooo

Hello my beautiful friends, sending out much love, and many prayers to you all. I have been in bed for almost two weeks, very sick. But, my God has never left me, He is my constant healer. I am a survivor, due only to my God. I have missed you all, thanks for your love and prayers. You are my dear, dear blessings. Sending out great big hugs to you all. Will be making a video for tomorrow, watch out!! lol

Happy Monday

Happy Monday everybody, praying you are all doing great. Things are going good here in Tennessee. God is in the house, and I am drinking deep from His well of support and love for me. Thanks for all of your precious comments from my last blog post, appreciate your love, prayers, and support. Keeping you all in my thoughts and prayers. May God be with you, wherever you go, whatever you do. Be blessed.

Confession Time

Some people may feel that I share way too much of my life on my blog, and for those of you who do feel that way, I am sorry. But, I choose to allow the Light of the world to shine upon my life, instead of staying in the darkness, alone with my troubles. I truly believe that my Father wants me to share not only the good times in my life, but the struggles as well. Now, having said that, here is my story, or confession, or whatever you may choose to call it. I am in a major battle with my body. The last few months have really taken a toll on me, physically, I have been very sick. Nauseous constantly, throwing up, cannot keep any food down, painful stomach. Finally, lovebug took me to the emergency room, and they kept me. I had several infections in my stomach, I am home now. I have done this to myself, why? Because I want to lose weight, and be smaller. Right now, I weigh 132, which is smaller than I have been my entire life. But, in my eyes, I have so much more to lose to be small. I still see the woman I was when I weighed 258 pounds. My dad says, you have lost quite a bit, but you could stand to lose some more. My dear mom always wanted me to be skinny. Lovebug has a wife with no hair, no eyebrows, and overweight. I want him to find something attractive about me. Wow, satan has been on me big time. Life is not perfect, and I know I am far from perfect. I am a daughter of the King, saved by His grace. This is a full blown battle, but I am prepared to face it head on now. God is on my team, which means, I am on the winning team. God loves me, as I am. I say that everyday, over and over. Pushing the world's message about my body image out, and replacing it with my Father's voice. I can, and will, do all things through Christ, Who gives me strength. Onward my friends, thanks for listening. Your continued love and precious prayers would be very much appreciated. I have missed you all very much. Please email me if you need prayer. My email address is shortybear.63@att.net I love you all.

I Am Alive

Hello my dear friends, so glad to be back on my computer. I got my computer problems taken care of, was online for a few days, then got very sick. I have been in the hospital, got home today. Intend to tell you all about it tomorrow. My sister received wonderful news concerning her breast biopsy, totally cancer free. Praise the Lord!! I still do not have the results from my second pap smear. Just wanted to update you all, will be back tomorrow with much more to say to all of you my faithful, loyal, prayer warrior sisters. I love you all so very, very much. I have missed you more than words can say. Thanks, and many blessings to all of my followers, I appreciate you all so much.

Happy New Year

Happy New Year my precious friends. Praying you all had a wonderful Christmas, and a very Happy New Year. Sorry I have not been blogging, been busy with the Holidays, family time, and being really sick. I will be back to full time blogging Tuesday. Lovebug has been off since December 22, he goes back to work on January 4th. Take care, and know you are all loved very much, I pray for you all constantly. Thank you for blessing my life in such a beautiful way.