Saturday, October 23, 2010

Update

Hello my sweet friends, praying you are all doing well. I have been offline since late Wednesday night. I was suppose to go out of town this weekend with my sister, dad, and step mom. We were going to North Carolina to see my nephew, my sister's son, and his sweet wife. Tuesday will be my nephew's birthday, we were going to surprise him. Well, I got very sick late Wednesday night, throwing up, nauseous, cramping very badly in my stomach, also my eyes were burning and hurting very badly. As of now, my stomach has calmed down a little, but eyes remain the same. When I called my sister to tell her that I was sick, and would not be able to make the trip, she reacted very badly toward me. She talked to me really hateful, said whatever, and hung up on me. I called her back three times, trying to explain things to her, but she picked up the phone all three times, and just hung up on me. This really hurt me, I love her so much. They went on the trip, and I prayed traveling graces for them, and a happy weekend for all of them. I feel so bad at the reaction my sister had toward me, my heart is aching over this. I did not mean to upset her in anyway. I did not plan to get sick, I was looking forward to the trip. Sometimes, I feel like such a disappointment to the ones I love, due to my health problems. I am who I am, flaws and all. Praise God, that He loves and accepts me, just the way I am. He loves me when I am sick, well, in pain, sad, happy, always, in all ways. He is here for me, constantly, to laugh with me, or to wipe away my tears, as He is doing right now. I love You Father. I will praise You, today, and forever. I will not let this keep me down, no need to. You are with me all the days of my life, so I have joy deep in my heart.

22 comments:

One Heart said...

Oh sis, I am so sorry to hear this. Please know that you are NEVER a disappointment to God. You have done nothing wrong but unfortunately your sister has her own issues to deal with. I will keep her in my prayers. You are the apple of God's eyes, His royal priesthood, His bride--spotless and without wrinkle through His precious Son. Look in the mirror of His Word and see His reflection. That is who we are. To see ourselves as anything less, sometimes is human but He wants us to see Him in us. So, today, look again, sis. Look again but remember that the mirror is His Word. Open it up and see what He says about you.

Do you remember my post back in August titled, "To Apologize or Not to Apologize?" I thought of it as I read this. Sometimes it's best not to and simply pray. I will pray for your sister.

Love and blessings!

Sassy Granny ... said...

Not knowing all the history behind your relationship, I might be missing something. But what comes to mind is this: Her reaction isn't about you. It seems there's a deeper hurt, a deeper anger that surfaced in such a hurtful response to your call.

I pray the Lord will do an amazing restoration between you two, granting you a settled, peace-filled heart as He does.

Hope you're feeling better!

Kathleen

Angela said...

I just read One Heart's comment and I too agree..sometimes it is best to pray, and than continue to pray. You really didn't do anything wrong. Getting sick is not a wrong doing to cause others pain.

I will be praying for you but I am definitely praying for your sister Denise because like One Heart states,,she has some issues she is dealing with.

It kind of reminds me of a circumstance I am dealing with..as long as I'm DOING what they want, I'm loved, as soon as something is not what they like, they stop talking to me or ignore me..than later come to tell me I was the problem...I've been in MUCH prayer about this for weeks now.

I've been praying instead of trying to 'fix' the relationship. I realized, the more I try to 'fix' it, apologize (for what I didn't know but did apologize), matters just got worse)..So I have been praying blessings and love. When I see her, I speak lovingly, but I do not go out of my way to try to 'fix' the relationship. It's hard, but I'm learning, God CAN do a much better job with this relationship than her or I can..

You have been on my heart so strongly and now I know why ((hugs))

Annesphamily said...

Please pray for your sister. Life is so difficult. I am constantly asking God to surround me with his very best angels. I can not life any other way! Please do the same and He needs to surround your sister too so He may change her hardened heart. Blessings Anne

Jan @ bobbypins boardwalk said...

Denise, I'm sorry that you received this reaction. My guess is that her anger was not so much aimed at you, but at her disappointment. My goodness -- surely she's aware of the issues you are facing at this time concerning your health.

I will continuing praying for your health and financial burdens, just wish I could also give you a hug.

MyJourneyBack said...

Oh my word. I amm so sorry to hear this. My mother is a lot the same way very self centered and uncompassionate. When I talk to her she barely listens to what I say. It is all about her. It always has been. So I sort of understand. You did nothing wrong. You could not help getting so sick. Look on the bright side you get to spend the weekend with your guy! Let him pamper you a little. Spend some time with 'our' Daddy. I will be praying for you and your family.
Have a Beautiful day,
Sherry

Saleslady371 said...

Praying for reconcilliation for you and your sister. In my youth, I suffered migraines and would have to cancel plans and I know that not all people understand sickness. To be judged is as hurtful as the sickness. Praying God will comfort you today, my dear sister.

Wanda's Wings said...

I think when people are healthy they don't understand why people with chronic illness just can not always do what want to. I pray that there will be reconciliation with your sister soon. Never feel like you are a disappointment. Your faith is one of the things that is so beautiful about you. I hope your eye stop hurting. Constant pain can really wear you down. God Bless You

Godsgalnj said...

I'm soo sorry about her reaction towards you! *hug* I don't think it's you - she has her own battles that she needs to fight and just took it out on you. *Love you dearly and hope for reconciliation between you and your sister soon!* Hope you're feeling much better!

rcubes said...

The enemy is always active in destroying relationships...Praying for the situation to come in the Lord's light and may His restoration and love cover you and your sister. Sorry to hear you didn't feel well. May you continue to feel better and remain strong in His power. Blessings and love to you sister. Take care of yourself.

Bernie said...

I think there is more to your sister's anger Denise. Sisters are there for each other and if one is sick the other one is making the soup for her. Be kind and forgiving as she is deeply hurting over something. God is with you and her as well.
I do hope you are feeling better sweetie, keeping you and your family in my prayers......:-) Hugs

luvmy4sons said...

Love is messy...oh so messy and can cost so much. I am so sorry sister. I pray that God send understanding between you two. I pray that He work in your sister's heart. I pray that you can have a moment to resolve this to a wonderfully loving conclusion. I pray that God give you peace no matter how it turns out. Jesus...intercede in this situation according to Thy will which is good, acceptable, and perfect. We trust you. We love You and know You can do exceedingly, abundantly more than we ask or imagine. Amen.

Cranberry Morning said...

Dear Denise, I am so sorry to hear first of all, that you were feeling so unwell. Also that your sister reacted so badly to your phone call. Sounds like your sister is full of problems of her own and can't see past herself. I pray that God will give you peace, that you will not worry about your sister and will let God take care of this. Also praying that your eyes will not give you so much pain. Praying for comfort as you rest in the Lord.

Joan said...

Denise, I agree with One Heart. You are precious in His eyes. I'm sorry about your sister and I know you love her, but she has issues to deal with.

I love you, dear sister.

Angie Knight said...

Yes, sweet one, HE loves us ALL flaws and all.

I am sorry you endured this--but your heart is clean before HIM because you reacted with the love of Jesus--who lives in your heart and rules your life.! :)

I love you. Missed being online--but needed to see about "YOU".

Marsha said...

It always hurts to feel rejected by someone you love. I will join with you in praying for your sister to know and understand a complete and totally unconditional love by her heavenly Father. I'm praying she will recognize Him as a compassionate, caring Father filled with lovingkindness and mercy. She will never be capable of loving and accepting you unconditionally until she sees God in this light.

Your human body may be poor and sickly, but you're spirit is rich and healthy. You are a mighty princess warrior.

I love you dearly. I'm always here for you.

Cathy said...

Oh, sweet Denise, I'm so sorry about that. Bless your heart. I guess she wanted you to be there to travel with your Dad and wife. But that was terrible the way she acted considering how sick you were. I'm praying you are feeling better. Love and Hugs ~

Loren said...

Denise,

I am so sorry to hear about this! Bless your heart! Praying for the Lord to bring reconciliation! Only HE knows all the details and I am asking HIM to meet you both right where you are and bringing healing and forgiveness!

Love you

Pia said...

i'm so sorry to hear what your sister did. sometimes the closest to us hurt us all the more although sometimes not intentionally. but our Father sees everything. He knows our pain. i believe in my heart that He will redeem you, denise. i believe that with all my heart. i am praying for you, sister. love you much!

LisaShaw said...

Oh Denise, my arms of prayer are around you at this moment... I pray the Lord minister to your heart and your sister. Much love. You are PRECIOUS!!!

Peggy said...

Blessings my precious sister Denise,

So many great comments and prayer thoughts above.

I am so sorry that you were so sick and then she reacted so badly.
I am so sorry that she is so upset and that she reacted toward you with anger and hurtful words. We do need to pray for her because this goes much deeper.

Do not listen to the lies! Do not accept them or the hurtful actions and words. She suffers from sicknesses also so you'd think she of all people would understand that you are disappointed to not be well enough to go. Wallowing in this will not help or bring healing. You know that you must pray and I pray that the 18 above or whoever that said they will pray, do pray.

Heavenly Father, I release Denise and her sister into Your precious hands and trust that You bring reconciliation. I also pray that You restore their relationship even better than before. I commit both of these sisters into Your healing hands. Pour Your healing over them. Fight this battle for my sister Denise. When she is weak, You are strong. Be her strength. Be her Defender! Guard her heart. Take away the pain.
Take away the words that have pierced her heart. Take away the thoughts that made her feel like a disappointment because of her health. Jesus, thank You that she made attempts to talk with her sister in love. Thank You, dear Lord that Denise knows that You love her... flaws and all, sick or well, in pain, sad, happy, in all ways always!!! (her words) May she believe every Truth and cast away every lie and receive a Mighty work
in this situation. Even as she wrote Lord, we can read how You broke through and changed her tears and restored some joy. We rejoice as You wipe away and heal Denise and her sister in Jesus Name.

Love you Denise,(((BIG HUG)))
Peggy

Bernadine said...

Denise, I'm so sorry about what happened with your sister this weekend. I know how much you love your family so I can imagine how disappointed you were that you were unable to travel. I'll be praying for you and your family.