Saturday, October 23, 2010
Hello my sweet friends, praying you are all doing well. I have been offline since late Wednesday night. I was suppose to go out of town this weekend with my sister, dad, and step mom. We were going to North Carolina to see my nephew, my sister's son, and his sweet wife. Tuesday will be my nephew's birthday, we were going to surprise him. Well, I got very sick late Wednesday night, throwing up, nauseous, cramping very badly in my stomach, also my eyes were burning and hurting very badly. As of now, my stomach has calmed down a little, but eyes remain the same. When I called my sister to tell her that I was sick, and would not be able to make the trip, she reacted very badly toward me. She talked to me really hateful, said whatever, and hung up on me. I called her back three times, trying to explain things to her, but she picked up the phone all three times, and just hung up on me. This really hurt me, I love her so much. They went on the trip, and I prayed traveling graces for them, and a happy weekend for all of them. I feel so bad at the reaction my sister had toward me, my heart is aching over this. I did not mean to upset her in anyway. I did not plan to get sick, I was looking forward to the trip. Sometimes, I feel like such a disappointment to the ones I love, due to my health problems. I am who I am, flaws and all. Praise God, that He loves and accepts me, just the way I am. He loves me when I am sick, well, in pain, sad, happy, always, in all ways. He is here for me, constantly, to laugh with me, or to wipe away my tears, as He is doing right now. I love You Father. I will praise You, today, and forever. I will not let this keep me down, no need to. You are with me all the days of my life, so I have joy deep in my heart.