Friday, January 8, 2010

Listening To Him Breathe

Every night since we have been home from the hospital, I sleep with my head on lovebug's chest. His heartbeat is the sweetest music I have ever heard. It plays a sweet tune to my own heart, and gently lulls me to sleep peacefully. On Christmas Eve, as I watched my lovebug fall back on the bed into my arms, and begin to have seizures, my world spun out of control. Trying to imagine life without him, was something I just could not do. As they began to work on him, and then wheeled him away from me, and down the hallway to ICU, I cried out to my Father. He came running to that hospital, and spared my lovebug's life. I praise Him for saving my lovebug, and allowing that beautiful heart to continue to beat in time with mine. When we realized that lovebug was numb from the waist down, and his left arm was numb, again our world went spinning, but again the One who set the world in motion, came running to be by our side. He is still with us here at home, and He is not going anywhere. Together, our hearts will continue to sing a song of love and faith to one another. We refuse to give up, or give in. Lovebug will get stronger, and his feeling will come back into his entire body. Our God will receive all the glory and praise that is due to Him. Until then, I am enjoying the treasured gift of my lovebug's heartbeats playing in my ears. Thank You Father, thank You.

27 comments:

Beth in NC said...

Oh Denise, I can't imagine the horror of that moment. I have no doubt that God is carry you and your sweet husband.

Blessings and prayers!
Beth

RCUBEs said...

He is always ever near! Just a prayer away! And I'm glad that despite the storm you both had faced, you both emerged strong and remain trusting in our Savior! Love to you sister. Keeping you both in prayers.

Gretchen said...

I am so sorry for Lovebug's illness. I'm amazed at your testimony. You are bringing such glory to God--even at the hardest times. xxxooo

Angie said...

Seriously Denise, you ought to right a love story the way you talk about your lovebug. It is so sweet and inspiring. God bless you guys.

luvmy4sons said...

Oh so precious sweet sister...You appreciated him so much even before this...but now I am sure that the rise and fall of his chest is even more dear. Life is so brief...But God IS good...I am so glad that you are together still and praying for a full recovery! Hugs!

Jaime Kubik said...

You are such a witness to others! I am constantly in awe. Bless you!

Denise said...

Praying for you sweet friend......

Karen said...

Such precious sharing, Denise...and you are right...God is right there and will never leave or forsake you and Eddie....

Debbie said...

Keeping you and your lovebug in my prayers. Love you Denise.

Love,
Debbie

Caroline said...

Denise how beautiful. What complete love! You encourage me and give me hope. What a gift! I thank you. I pray for you and Eddie each day. You are such a precious child of the King.

Your website is beautiful. How do you get to do all these changes? How artistic! I am so technologically challenged. I would like to start a website sometime soon this year.

Great-Granny Grandma said...

Amen!

MyJourneyBack said...

What a lovely post. I just wrote my Thankful Thursday today. And, I had not even read this. I inluded that I was thankful you are home. I am glad to see this update. On my sidebar by your button I put the title 'always a hug here'. Because everytime I come here you encourage.
Thanks for sharing your heart and your faith.
Have a Blessed Weekend.
Hugs,
Sherry

Cathy said...

Bless your sweet heart, Denise. I am agreeing with you in prayer for those desires to come true. Love you ~ Thanks for taking time to post this for us.

Cheyenne said...

Praying for you and Eddie always. What a gift from God, Eddie's heartbeat, and you get to hear it every night!:) Love y'all.

Marsha said...

Oh sweetie, this is the most beautiful post I've ever read! I'm in tears. I love you both dearly. Trust Him to heal Lovebug.

Sonya Graham said...

My Dear Friend:

My heart, love and friendship go to both you and Eddie. I have been praying for you since I have found out. I have you on my own prayer circle. Always remember Who is in control of everything. You have a friend and sister in me...always. My parents and Jim send their love and concern to you both.

With love and many prayers up,
Sonya

Heather said...

Amen! And you are right. Luvbug will fully heal and will be able to feel his legs again. We all have faith with you Denise.

Alleluiabelle said...

My Sweet Friend,

I love you and my prayers continue for your love bug and you. God does amazing things...I'm believing totally in His miracles yesterday, today and tomorrow...I believe that for your husband as well as for my beloved.

Again, love you so much.

{{{Big Hugs}}}
Alleluiabelle

Love Bears All Things said...

Bless you, Sweetie, I'm praying for both of you.
Love
Mama Bear

Peggy said...

Ohhhhh Denise...still such a heart and such a faith builder and prayer warrior! Your words are so precious!
You are so missed but you have a greater task and stand to hold. Know that I am praying & standing with you to see God's glory through his recovery & healing of Love bug! Thankful for each step and heartbeat! Believing for complete recovery and I know that you are doing all you can. May the Lord's strength be plentiful for both of you! May both of your beautiful hearts be strengthened & feeling restored in Jesus Name! There is nothing too difficult or impossible! So glad that you can treasure the beats of his hearts!
You can do it and will do it! May you find rest and healing soon! May you enJOY the presence of God at your side and his! I love your message! Keep on Denise! Be strong Love bug! If God is for you, who can be against ya? NO ONE, nothing!
By His stripes, we are healed!

love & hugs,
peggy

Hi! I'm Grace said...

Your "lovebug" lives to bring glory to our heavenly Father. :)

Loren said...

Denise,

I just saw your prayer button and I immediately came over....I kept looking for an update and for whatever reason it wasn't coming through on my bloglist. I am sooo thankful I saw the button and am here reading how things are going. I have been praying for you both and claiming healing, peace, hope, and knowing God knows each and every detail that you need and have been trusting the HE is providing every bit of it!

Praying for your sweet heart and am so thankful to hear your words and your greatfulness of just listening to Lovebugs heartbeat....I so know that feeling. I would listen to my Daddys even when he couldn't talk to me and it was such a gift! But that is totally different than this and your lovebug is going to get stronger and stronger each day. God is going to carry both of you ~ of this ~ I have NO DOUBT!

I am off to post your prayer button ....I love your smiling faces ♥ ....what a beautiful Love Story you all share in those smiles my friend!
I love you Denise and am sending you BIG HUGS!!

Pam D said...

Praying for you and your Love Bug.. believing in a God who knows what you need and will provide it! He loves you so much, and I know that He will hold you close, even as we all lift you up to Him....

crittyjoy said...

Sweet Denise what an encouragement you have been to so many of us.
I am so sorry you and your Lovebug are having to go through this but in even this our God is working and great things will come.

I am praying for you and your Lovebug. Our God heals and I am praying for your husband's healing and will continue to pray every day.

May you continue to find rest and comfort in our wonderful Abba Daddy's arms.

Beth said...

Still praying for you and your lovebug.

Lea said...

Oh Denise,
I imagine hearing him breathe and hearing his heartbeat truly is sweet music to your ears.
I've been thinking of you so much and you keep visualizing that victory!

eph2810 said...

What a precious post and love-song to your beloved. Yes, our Lord is still in the business of miracles...Believing with you...

Love & peace,
Iris