Thursday, July 30, 2009

Thankful Thursday


Another Thankful Thursday is here, what are you thankful for this week? I am very thankful for my rock solid marriage that is built upon the Solid Rock. Lovebug was on vacation last week, money is really tight right now, as it is for nearly everyone, so we did not go away on vacation, just stayed home. But, that was ok with us. Bless dear lovebugs heart, I have not been feeling well, so he spent alot of time taking care of me. He is such a treasure to my heart, he is my heart. Our hearts beat in rhythm to each other. Actually, we are like two bodies with one heart. I am so thankful for my lovebug. He is so good to me, and for me. I got emotionally upset last night, crying like a baby. He comes into our bedroom, sits down on the bed, and lovingly asks me what is wrong. I tell him I am fine, he says no your not. I start crying harder, he pulls me into his arms(my place of refuge), and rocks me like a little baby until I quit crying. Then, he listens patiently as I tell him what is bothering me. What is the problem? The mirror!! He looks at me, and says, what are you talking about? I tell him, I hate the mirror. Every time I see myself in it, I just want to cry. I am not the woman he married almost 25 years ago. I have no hair, hardly any eyebrows, I am overweight, and my eyes are so very weak and tired. I have dark circles under my eyes that look like luggage, I am 45, but look so much older. I tell him I am sorry that I have become so unattractive, and that I feel sorry for him having to be married to me. He looked straight into my eyes, and said the following: No, you are not that woman I married almost 25 years ago, and I am not the man you married almost 25 years ago. We are two people even more crazy in love than we were then. When I look at you, I still see that 21 year old beautiful bride, except you are even more beautiful now. As he put his hand upon my head, and began to rub it, he said to me that my battle scars look lovely on me. Of course, at this point, I am crying again, but it was tears of joy this time. From now on, I am not going to worry about the mirror anymore, all I have to do is look into dear lovebugs eyes to see my reflection shining through his precious eyes of love, and I will know I am still his beautiful bride, and he is my handsome groom.

30 comments:

hip chick said...

You are so very brave. Even though I'm sure it doesn't really feel brave to you because you have no choice but to go through all of this. Others see you as brave even if you don't see it yourself. Over and over I see your sweet and caring comments on my blog or on others blogs. You are thinking of others much of the time and that is apparent. Your inner beauty shines through...Charm is deceptive and beauty is fleeting but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised.

Chris said...

you are blessed!

thanks for always visiting and commenting on my site.. you are so sweet and thoughtful! :D

Oh Sew Good said...

I don't know if you noticed this or not Denise but as I was reading your blog today this is what touched my heart. You were representative of the prodigal and your lovebug was representative of the Lord. You represent how we feel sometimes, or maybe I feel, with the Lord and your husband represents how the Lord is with His love for us. It was beautiful on both sides. From your story and for what I believe was the Holy Spirit and revelation.

rcubes said...

The enemy just tries anything to destroy that joy in your heart. And I'm glad that the Lord covers you and your husband with His protection and love!!!

Your hubby surely is doing what you both said in your vow almost 25 yrs.ago:"in sickness and in health..."...God bless you both...

April said...

Denise,
To all of us, you are beautiful through and through! What a blessing that you and Lovebug have each other!

Hootin' Anni said...

I so love what you wrote at the beginning of your thankfulness...a rock solid marriage built on solid rock!!!

Alicia said...

What a blessing your husband is to you, Denise!!!

eph2810 said...

Denise, I am so sorry that you felt so down yesterday. What a precious gift your beloved is to let you know how much he still loves you :)

Thank you so much for sharing your grateful heart with us this week.

Be blessed today and always...

Jean said...

You are so blessed to have your little Lovebug!

Gretchen said...

this is so tender and touching, and I feel so blessed to have read it today. I'm thankful for your lovebug, too, friend.

Peggy said...

Yes you are!!! Blessings Denise...and that is exactly what Lovebug & you are to one another! This is beautiful & such a precious thankful heart!

You look in his eyes & see that true reflection & the love & know that Our Heavenly Father sees you as wonderful as He made you & when I look at your photo with Marsha
...that beaming SMILE & sweet face shows beauty!!!

Be encouraged...most husbands would not respond as lovingly! This alone is indeed a great treasure & blessing! And just what Jesus ordered! Love you my friend!

Now out of the slump & rise up with JOY & strength!

Donetta said...

Oh Baby I am so glad you two have each other. Your love is a shining star lighting up a darkened world with the example of truth that sets free the captive who lives in bondage to lies of commercialism and falsity.
He is right you know.
It is all that we are going through those battle scars are so much more heroic than some botoxed face that shows nothing that is real. Like that velveteen rabbit ya know.

lori said...

Denise....God has given you a precious gift...the love you and your hubby share...
Your wfw was wonderful too...

Girlfriend, it is what is inside, but YOU know that already:) and so does lovebug...you are TRULY blessed!

peace,
lori

Samantha said...

What a precious lovebug you have !
You are truly blessed and he is blessed to have you sweet Denise !
~ Hugs and blessings to you dear one.

Talk..to..Grams said...

Hi Denise! You sure have a keeper in Eddie! Love that man!! He knows a good thing when he sees it!! You are so beautiful outside and on the inside, Denise!!

I have seen people who are so pretty on the out side and meaner than a junk yard dog!! No kidding!!
Hate spews out of their mouth when they talk.. Of course they need Jesus!

You are one of the nicest people on the planet and pretty inside and out!! I have seen your picture and you just shine with Jesus!!

We both would love for our bodies to be healed!! Amen!! I get so tired of this yucky diabetes too!!

It is the cause of all the other problems with my body and your too!!
God is seeing us through this!!
Love and a big hug, Grams

Melanie said...

Oh, Denise.. what a special guy God has blessed you with!! And, he's right... you are beautiful!!

Michele said...

You are such a blessing and very blessed. I enjoy your comments and reading your blog my friend. Have blessed TT

Bernadine said...

Aww... Denise this is such a sweet post about the beauty of you and lovebug's marriage. BTW, I think you're a beautiful person inside and out.

Debbie said...

What a precious man you have there. And you are also precious Denise. Forget the mirror. You are a reflection of Jesus! And He looks great on you.

Lisa said...

Oh gosh! I too am so very thankful for a loving husband and your post is such a good reminder of that! Blessings!

Denise said...

Down days are no fun..... but HE is so faithful and HE is never down.. What a blessing your sweet DH is to you........

Hugs

Serendipity said...

Denise, you are so blessed to have such a loving lovebug! God bless!

Daisy said...

Oh Denise! You just made me cry! Waaah... :'-(

How lucky you are to find such a great man! And sweetie, you should not fear how you look outside, you are so much beautiful inside and that is what makes you shine.

(Still wiping my tears now. Aww...)

~Daisy
http://inlovewithdaisies.blogspot.com/

Jennifer said...

What a wonderful husband, he must be such a blessing. You are obviously quite a blessing in his life as well.

Hi! I'm Grace said...

God bless your dear lovebug, Denise. You are so blessed to have such a wonderful husband. :)

Shelby said...

Denise, I just love you and your heart so much. And lovebug's, too, for knowing how to reach you and tell you how very beautiful you are.

Guess you and I were thinking along the same wavelengths this week.

Love you.

Jules said...

God has given you such a tremendous blessing. sweetie! May God bless you & Eddie with many more wonderful years together...I am so happy that you have Eddie to speak truth to you!! YOU ARE SO BEAUTIFUL!!!

Love you lots!!

~Julie

Tea With Tiffany said...

This man is truly your 2nd joined heart. I'm so thankful in your weak moments that Lovebug speaks to you with life-giving words and arms of comfort.

Jesus, thank you. Her lovebug is a mirror of your love. You see beyond the outer and into the heart. Denise is beautiful without a doubt. She's your bride, hand picked for intimate love and life together. Bless her days. Heal her body. I know she doesn't feel good. Comfort her and hold her close.

Love you, friend.

Caroline said...

Denise, you and your husband are truly a reflection of Jesus's face and heart. You continually inspire me. Thank you and God bless you both in every way.

Great-Granny Grandma said...

You are truly blessed with your wonderful 'lovebug' at your side, and a very beautiful heart.