Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Three Years Ago

Momma, it has been three years ago today, since you went home to be with Jesus. I cannot believe it has been that long already. I still think of you everyday, miss you everyday, and love you more everyday. It was so very hard when you first left, I broke into many pieces, like a jigsaw puzzle. I did things I should never have done momma, I became a cutter. I was just trying to ease the hellish pain I was feeling. I pray you forgive me for my careless, and foolish actions. I am much better now, I know you are happy and healthy, and that makes my heart happy. I have dad in my life now, and he is serving the Lord momma. Can you believe it? Our prayers came true, woo hoo!! One day soon, we will all have a beautiful family reunion. I cannot wait to see you, hug you, and give you sweet butterfly kisses. I will forever love you, and miss you until then momma. Blowing you kisses momma, please catch them like you use to. Bye for now my precious momma, and best friend.  Nesie

31 comments:

Bernadine said...

It's so awesome that God has brought you Dad back into your life since your Mom went to heaven.

You're in my thoughts and prayers today Denise.

Love Bears All Things said...

I know just what you're feeling. Bless your heart, today.
Mama Bear

hip chick said...

Hugs and prayers for you sweetie.

Christy said...

Praying for you today.

Genejosh said...

I'm praying for you...your post is so touching...

CHOCOLATE AND COFFEE said...

Praying for you today friend.

Blessings and hugs!

RCUBEs said...

Mothers are so special. Your post reflects that special bond you had with your mother. I also lost my mother first and my father surrendered to the Lord years after she passed away. They're both now home with the Lord. I was devastated and almost got depressed when I lost my mom. But the Lord comforted me and showed me, her life didn't end, it was just the "beginning." May the memories with your mom that you hold dear comfort you today. God bless you. Love and hugs to you. Rosel

luvmy4sons said...

So sorry for your loss of your sweet mamma but praying that you feel the hope and assurance of eternal life with her and your Savior deep in your heart!

April said...

Thinking about you on the anniversary of your mom's death. I know it's a day you'll never forget, but just keep thinking about the happy reunion you'll have one day! BIG HUGS and blessings!

godsown said...

Your post touched me Denise.
Pray for you Denise and praising God that He gave us the hope and assurane for eternal life and meeting our love ones.

Flip Flop Floozie said...

What a long way you have come in 3 years..think about that..think about how your dad has now come back into your life..What a testimony..Sandy

Alleluiabelle said...

Take joy in your heart dear one that your mom is in an eternal life with Him, a place that we all look forward to going to some day. It's hard to lose a parent. I, too, loss my mom three years ago. For those of us left behind here, it's hard some times, but when we channel our thoughts on Him and where she truly is...it's ever so joyful.

I'm praying for you today dear one. Enjoy the happy memories of your mom and it is SO WONDERFUL that you and your dad are reunited and together this day. That, in itself, is a beautiful thing.

Hugs and blessings,
Alleluiabelle

Seeking Grace on the Narrow Path said...

Denise,
As you know my mom is in a nursing home now. She will be 84 years old in July. The doctors have called Hospice in now. I know that my mother's life on this earth is coming to an end. I also know God is in total control. So dear friend I know you miss your mom, but remember you all will be reunited in Heaven. I am asking you to remind me too when my mother leaves this earth that I will see her again! Thank you my dear friend. God bless you sweetie! Many prayers and hugs to you.
Bren

Shabby Olde Potting Shed said...

Had to drop in and tell you I'm praying for you and thinking of you.
Losing a Momma is so hard; that missing.... ~ my heart understands.
Giving you a big hug today. Keep focused on heaven. Close your eyes and imagine all those colors we don't even know yet. Our Mommas are seeing them and enjoying being in the very presence of our Lord! They are waiting for us, and it's gonna be quite a reunion day!
Love ya Denise!
Blowing YOU Holykisses today....
OOooOOooOOoOOOOOoOOOOoo Try to catch them!!!
Lea

bp said...

Thinking of you this afternoon.

Daphine said...

Blessings to you dear friend! Praying for you today!

Pam D said...

Bless you, sweet Denise. I know how hard days like today are... I'm glad my funny post gave you a little something to smile about. And the song keeps running through my head... "There will be a day, with no more tears. No more pain, and no more fears. There will be a day.. when the burdens of this place will be no more. We'll see Jesus face to face. But until that day, we'll hold on to you, always....." Amen.. lifting you up, and holding on.....

Allison said...

*Hugs and prayers for you my friend*

Samantha said...

Such a touching post, we have so much in common, sister in Christ,
both from great TN and I lost my mom 3 yrs. ago. You are in my prayers. Hugs and blessings to you !

Beth in NC said...

God bless you Denise.

Hugs,
Beth

A Stone Gatherer said...

Thinking of you as you remember your precious mother!

Jennifer said...

Oh, Denise...what a beautiful tribute to your sweet momma! I know she was special because she raised a precious daughter!

I am so happy that you have your daddy back in your life and that one day...you will all be together again. Oh, what a glorious day that will be.

Love you so much, Denise!

Hi! I'm Grace said...

I can't read this... I don't want a sad letter. :(
It breaks my heart.

Shelby said...

Oh, Denise, you made my cry. I miss my mama the same and I KNOW I haven't done HALF the stuff you've done to make our mamas proud. You are such and AMAZING woman and SO STRONG. I just know your mama has the biggest smile on her face every time she watches you

Femin Susan said...

Hugs and prayers for you sweetie. thanks for sharing..

Pia said...

that is so sweet, denise. (((HUGS)))

Serendipity said...

Here's a big hug from me and lots of licks from Happy. Bless you, dear friend. Have a good day!

Gretchen said...

It's hard to be left behind, but it's only for a while, my friend. Thinking of you on this day. xxxooo

Tea With Tiffany said...

You made me cry...

I am SOO thankful for your answered prayers with your dad. I can relate.

I love you. You are beautiful.

Tiffany

Peggy said...

Ohh sweet Denise! Such a beautiful letter to momma!!! I'm sorry for the grief you feel in her departure from here but love your JOY in her arrival in heaven! Beautiful tribute and good for your heart to write to her! Special delivery...by God's messengers...Bless your sweet heart. I'm sorry I missed this yesterday! hugs sista...Your momma's smiling & WOO HOO right with you about your dad!

Lynn said...

Oh Denise, Girl, I hope I am there to see that reunion. I remember when your mom died. I had just started blogging. I still feel your deep hurt. I love you and it is a triumph for Jesus that you are recovering. God bless you Denise. Hugs.