Friday, September 5, 2008
Drawing Near To Him
The last couple of days have been very emotional for me. My sister went to the Doctor this week, and was told that she is now in stage 4 of chronic kidney disease. There are only 5 stages of this disease, once you get to level 5, you either have to go on dialysis or have a kidney transplant. I had a meltdown Wednesday night, as always my lovebug was there to comfort and love me through it. I feel as if I am looking at a family picture, that is disappearing before my eyes. First, my momma in April of 2006, then my big brother in June of this year. Now, I am watching my sister suffer through this ordeal. I feel like I am going backwards in time, watching my momma fade away all over again. She suffered with kidney failure also. I want to scream, cry, and run away. But, instead I will stand strong upon the promises of God. He is the one in total control here, only Him. He is my sisters true physician, and He is the healer. I surrender her to Him, He loves her and cares for her so very much. I am so thankful that she knows Him as her Saviour, and she loves Him with all of her heart. I am hurting over this situation, she is my big sister, my only sister. But, I will not let satan drag me down to the pit over this. I stand upon the word of my God. He will not leave me lonely, I may not know what the future holds, but I know Who is holding the future. I love You, and I am laying it all at Your precious feet.