Friday, September 5, 2008

Drawing Near To Him


The last couple of days have been very emotional for me. My sister went to the Doctor this week, and was told that she is now in stage 4 of chronic kidney disease. There are only 5 stages of this disease, once you get to level 5, you either have to go on dialysis or have a kidney transplant. I had a meltdown Wednesday night, as always my lovebug was there to comfort and love me through it. I feel as if I am looking at a family picture, that is disappearing before my eyes. First, my momma in April of 2006, then my big brother in June of this year. Now, I am watching my sister suffer through this ordeal. I feel like I am going backwards in time, watching my momma fade away all over again. She suffered with kidney failure also. I want to scream, cry, and run away. But, instead I will stand strong upon the promises of God. He is the one in total control here, only Him. He is my sisters true physician, and He is the healer. I surrender her to Him, He loves her and cares for her so very much. I am so thankful that she knows Him as her Saviour, and she loves Him with all of her heart. I am hurting over this situation, she is my big sister, my only sister. But, I will not let satan drag me down to the pit over this. I stand upon the word of my God. He will not leave me lonely, I may not know what the future holds, but I know Who is holding the future. I love You, and I am laying it all at Your precious feet.

27 comments:

Debra said...

Oh Denise,

When our bodies are failing us it is so difficult. When our loved ones bodies are failing, it is somehow even harder. You remain in my prayers. Know that when you have your meltdowns God is holding you my precious friend.

May you always know that sweet truth!

Fran said...

I'm praying for you Denise. For both of you. May she feel the love and encouragement of Christ through you....I know she will. And, its ok to have those meltdowns.....God tenderly takes those tears for you.

Much love,
Fran

Bernadine said...

Denise I am so sorry that you sister is not doing well. I will keep both of you in my prayers.

Amanda B. said...

You meltdown all you need to. You are undergoing some heavy burdens, but your faith and spirit shines through which puts the devil to shame. Your in my prayers.

Lord, I pray you would wrap your loving arms around Denise, heal her sister, comfort them both, and show you glory and power in such a mighty way that all other sufferings pale in comparison to what lies ahead.

Amen

Allison said...

Continuing to pray for you as always - you are such an amazingly strong woman and I am so thrilled that Eddie is there for you. Remember, you are never alone. There is a song by Barlow Girl...it's called "Never Alone" you should check it out, I think you could relate - LOVE TO YOU MY DEAR FRIEND!

Sandi said...

I will keep you and your sister in my prayers.

Gretchen said...

I'm so sorry to hear all this, Denise. You're right to draw near to Him. May He continue to comfort and care for you. xxxooogretchen

Technonana said...

Praying with you and for your sister. May God great you His peace as you wait on Him and His answers during this time!!
Sharon

Sharon Brumfield said...

Girl I am so sorry that you and your family are going through this.
I will let you know that Keith has a friend that has been on dialysis since she was 16..she is now in her late 30's.
I only tell you that to let you know that if she has to gone on dialysis...it can help her.
I will be praying for you and her.
Don't give up hope.
I know sometimes it feels like everything is falling in on you.
I have been there.
But there is hope. He loves and He cares and He sees you.
I love you sis.

Laurie Ann said...

Denise, please know that I truly admire your devotion to God during this time. I know it's not easy to see our loved ones suffering. I know. May the God of all comfort wrap His loving arms around you and help you remain strong and secure in His promises of love. I will be praying for your sister and for you, dear one. Love ya, Laurie Ann

luvmy4sons said...

I can only just imagine how fearful that is for you sweet sister. I am so encouraged by your approach to it. We fight, we strive to choose life. And we must fight discouragement at every turn. For we are so richly blessed no matter what our end here on this earth. Thank you so VERY much for all of your prayers and encouragement on my behalf. I will be keeping your sister in my prayers as well when I pray for you. May God see fit to deliver her with healing and minister to both of you.

Melanie said...

Praying for you, Denise, and for your sister.

Flip Flop Floozie said...

Gracious!! I am so sorry to hear this for you and of course for your sister!! Do you have any other siblings? I just keep praying for you..Sandy

J-ME said...

Denise, my heart is sad for you with the news you have received, and the memories it brings back. How does anyone handle things like this without Jesus? I pray He will be your strength and comfort.

Thank you for visiting my blog. I have enjoyed reading the past few posts in yours and also enjoy your music.

hugs & blessings, J-ME

Talk..to..Grams said...

So sorry to hear about your sister!! This has to be so hard for you. I will be praying for you dear one! Love and hugs Grams

Edge of Design said...

To be honest, I don't even know what dialysis is. If it's something that can help though, that's a good thing. I agree with the others, melt down all you need to there's nothing wrong with that.

Mary said...

Denise,

I am so sorry you sister is going through this. I know how much you love her and it is hard to see our loved ones suffer. My prayers are with her and you. I'm so glad you have Eddie to comfort you.

Please stop by my Writing Nook and pick up two awards I'm giving you. May God give you peace and comfort.

Blessings,
Mary

Marsha said...

Oh Precious One! I'm so sorry to hear this. I've been praying for you and your family and your health iesues.

The good news is there is dialysis and if she qualities, I've known several people who have had kidnesy transplants. There are options available to get stablized.

Girlfriend, I love you and I continue to lift you to our heavenly Father who sees you as precious in His sight.

Twinkle Mom @ Sunflower Faith said...

God bless you dear Sister and please forgive me for not being there at the news!!

Please know my prayers are with you and for you and that our Heavenly Father bring you strength and comfort through this time...

*Hugs* Twinkle Mom

Michele Williams said...

Oh, my heart cries with you. You and your sister are so dearly loved by our Lord. You both are in His tender care. My love and prayers are with you both. Keep trusting Him. He alone is your true comfort and hope. My song choice for Saturday is perfect for such a time as this. I pray it will confort you.
Love and Hugs.

~Tami said...

The only surety we can have is Jesus Christ and the salvation He offers. I am very thankful knowing that your sister knows Him as her Savior. I do pray for healing and comfort for your sister!

Marsha said...

Oh my! My sister Michele just made me aware of my typos on the comment I posted! Normally I try to proof read before I hit post. Besides the word 'issues' being misspelled, you pray you know I meant qualifies not qualities and I even misspelled kidney. I am SO SORRY!!!!

Love you my friend.

Rebecca said...

Denise, Your commitment to continue to trust the Lord in tough times continues to remind me of what my posture before the Lord should be. Prayers for you and your sister's health.

mazmagi@gmail.com said...

Precious words and strength Denise!
I wish I would have checked here earlier to pray more specifically for you but I was praying! Your words here would have helped me through the same pit of despair! I'm sorry that you had to go through this pain once more but you declared all God's Word of triumph...and I loved when you said I may not know what the future holds but I know who holds the future. Remember your wellness plan and how we detox the body...I heard an excellent sermon that says we need to do the same with the mind.
As you have shown here. AMEN! May God hold your sister in a healing hand for her future and restore her health because HE CARES just as you have proclaimed! Your Lovebug is soooo good for you! I'm so glad God put you two together! You keep PRAISING HIM THRU THIS STORM AND DRAW SO CLOSE TO OUR LORD!

Beth (A Mom's Life) said...

I'm so sorry to hear this. I will pray for your sister's health and for strength for you. Please don't give in to Satan - don't give him the satisfaction!

Serendipity said...

Keeping you and your sister in my prayers, Denise.

sailorcross said...

Oh Denise!! It's so hard to see those we love suffering. I pray that God comfort you and your sister through these times.


It's okay to cry and have a meltdown. God is there to catch every tear that falls.

Beth