Tuesday, April 15, 2008

Heart Repair


My friends, are you in need of some heart repair? I know I am, not just physically, but emotionally also. This week is always a rough one, my momma passed away on April 21, 2006 I cannot believe that she has been gone two years already. It was on a Friday when I walked down the hallway into her room, my nightmare began. This week, I feel as if my heart has been ripped open, and all the pain, and memories are flooding over me. I have been reliving every single moment from that day. My sister was suppose to come down Friday, and go to Alabama with me on Saturday to visit mommas grave. We were going to take her back home on Sunday. I was really looking forward to this, I needed her to be with me this weekend. But, she called today, and she changed her mind. She will not be coming down at all, I am so disappointed. I am not mad at her, I accept it. My heart is crying out for my momma, and for my sister. I am not going to gripe and complain though, because I know my momma is in a much better place, and praise God we will be back together again one day. I am so very thankful that I have a personal relationship with the master seamstress, and I know that He can, and will, sew up my battered and torn heart, with the precious thread of His love.

11 comments:

Bernadine said...

Oh Denise I am so sorry about your sister not coming any more. I feel your pain about missing your mother. I'm praying that our heavenly father will wrap you in his loving arms during this time.
Love and hugs

A Stone Gatherer said...

Denise you are continually in my thought and prayers! So sorry your sister couldn't come!

Tiffany Stuart said...

Denise, I am so sad that you are reliving your pain of losing your mom. I am reliving pain too. A different kind as you know.

Lord, please come to Denise's side. Minister to her broken heart. Show her how much you love her and care about every detail of her life. Please Lord bring more healing to Denise on the 21st. I pray it's a day of remembrance. A beautiful day. Thank you for the comfort of knowing heaven awaits us all. Hug my friend, Denise. Hold her close.

eph2810 said...

I am so sorry to read that your sister won't be able to come and go with you to your mom's grave...
I pray for strength during this time.

Mimi said...

Denise,
thanks for your kind comments on my post today...
I will keep you in prayer through next Monday as the day gets closer to the anniversary of your mom's death..
but you can have the peace and joy of knowing what you will be together with her again one day...
Blessings,
Mimi

Sharon Brumfield said...

I pray she will change her mind and ya'll will still get to spend some time together.
I am praying for ya'll girl.

twinklemom said...

Oh Dear Sister, I wish I could be there to accompany you! I love you and God bless you dear sister...this post came at a timely time of need for encouragement and I thank God for your strength and love for our Heavenly Father!

Debbie said...

Wow, Denise, I can't believe it's been 2 years either. I am so sorry your sister isn't coming. Maybe she will change her mind.
Much love to you!

luvmy4sons said...

I haven't had to deal with that yet. Lost my husband's parents and THAT was hard. I am so sorry. Thank the Lord above that He has promised us no more tears and no more good-byes and no more death. I hope that somehow you are able to do something to mark the day that will help deal with your loss here on this earth now, no matter what we have to look forward to in heaven we miss them so much now. Love and hugs!

Hootin' Anni said...

I SO!!! know what you're saying. Both my folks passed, I was beside my mother when she breathed her last, and I can see it in my dreams...it's just so vivid a memory. And that was 18 years ago!!!! When my tears flow, I let them fall....it helps.


Thanks for the visit and the wonderful comment...you made my day!

Fran said...

Peace sweet friend. May you have such sweet peace this week.

Hugs and prayers~
Fran