PHI 4:11 I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances.:As my husband and I were watching television the other night, he suddenly turned to me and said:There is no doubt in my mind that you would have been a wonderful mom, because you are such a great wife, and I love you with all of my heart. Of course, I then put my head upon his chest, and cried like a baby, but then I smiled very much like a happy child. When we started our journey together in April of 1985, we had dreams of being parents to at least two beautiful children. I was always imagining what our children would look like, picking out names for them, ect. Hoping and praying each month that I would get pregnant, but after two years of trying, it still had not happened. So, the journey got a little bit complicated, constant doctor appointments, surgical procedures, fertility drugs, ect. I lived on an emotional roller coaster, wondering each month, would this be the month? But, then came April 2000, after trying to conceive for 15 years, I was told that my chances of ever getting pregnant were less than 10 percent, but my chances of getting ovarian cancer were very high. So, they scheduled me for a complete hysterectomy. The day of the surgery, my heart totally broke. For years after my surgery, I often wondered what it would have felt like to be able to hold my precious dream baby in my arms, would I have had a boy, or girl? What would they have been like? I did not feel like a woman, I felt like I had totally failed my husband. So, after years of wondering what it was going to be like when I got pregnant, then wondering for years what it would have been like to be a mom, to hear those words flow forth from my husbands mouth, made me realize that I have come full circle. God may not have allowed me to be a mom, but I have been so many things. Wife, daughter, sister, caregiver, friend. I now truly delight in the details of blessed contentment. Praise to You my dear Father.