Live Well Wednesday

I am so happy that Darlene decided to do this meme, I feel that we all need the support and encouragement of one another as we try to live well. I have battled with my weight my entire life, I have never been a skinny chick. I am only five foot tall, so every extra pound, looks like ten extra pounds on me. I weighed in at my highest weight in January of 2006, 250 pounds. At that time, my stress level was through the roof. I was my mommas only caregiver, and still trying to be a good wife and homemaker to my husband. When my momma passed away in April of 2006, I went into the pit of hell known as depression. My emotional, spiritual, physical, and mental health all took a major nose dive. I became a cutter to release some of the pain I was experiencing. During that time, I lost quite a bit of weight. In January of 2007, I was weighing 180. To get over something, you have to go through it. Well, God brought me through the pit, and He carried me up out of that dark pit, and set me back down by His side. Everything was going along really well, then in June, I started having bad problems with my eyes. I am a diabetic, so I immediately went to see an eye doctor. I was told that I had cataracts in both eyes, the right eye was worse. I had surgery on my eye in August, there has been no improvement, things have only gotten worse. The cataract in my left eye really needs to be taken out, but due to high pressure, and bleeding behind that eye, they cannot do surgery right now. The new lens in my right eye has bad scar tissue on it, and needs laser surgery on it. My eye sight right now is 20/70, I am considered legally blind. In September, I went to the hospital to have a angiogram done on my heart. Due to my blood sugar being over 600, they could not do the procedure, and they checked me into the hospital to get my blood sugar under control. When my blood sugar got under control, they did the angiogram. Then, I was told that I have 4 heart blockages. One is 20% blocked, one is 30% blocked, one is 40% blocked, and one is 60% blocked. So, this year has been quite interesting, to say the least. They have changed all of my medicines, and the type of insulin that I am on has caused me to put some weight back on, lovely side effect!!! I am now weighing 205, also due to some swelling. So, I can choose to give up, go sit in the corner, and have myself a huge pity party, but what would that accomplish? No, I choose life, and doing all I can to live that life, as well as I possibly can. God is on my side, He is cheering me on. I may never be a skinny chick, but with the help of my true Physician, I can be a happy healthier chubby chick. I praise God for loving me just as I am, and for being so willing to help me be more. With His eyes to guide me, and His heart flowing love and strength into my heart, I will fight this battle, and live well. Thanks for letting me express my heart today, bless you all.