Thursday, June 14, 2007

Thankful Thursday


I am very thankful for my husband that always holds me close, and dries my tears. The last few nights have been really hard, I have been missing my momma so much. The memories come flooding into my heart every night, but Eddie pulls me close, and soothes my hurting heart with the precious balm of his love. I thank God for blessing me with Eddie as my husband, without him, I would be incomplete. Sometimes, especially since losing my momma, I feel like a fragile women that could easily break. I feel that I have come a long way since momma passed away last April, I made my way out of the deep dark pit of depression, thanks to God holding tightly onto my hand, and pulling me up, and into His loving arms. I quit cutting myself, thanks to God telling me that I was allowed to show my pain, that I did not have to hide it, and feel ashamed anymore. But, there are still times, when I feel the urge very strongly to cut myself, because I hurt so badly. I am thankful, that when those times come, I can go running straight to my hiding place. My hiding place is like a clubhouse, the only members allowed are:God, and Eddie. Thank You God for blessing my life, and thank you Eddie. I love you both with all I am.

38 comments:

Lyndy said...

Thanks for sharing your sweet and thankful heart...wonderful list.

Blessings to you today!

Lyndy

Betty Jane said...

God has certainly blessed you with such a wonderful husband - Praise the Good Lord! Peace and much blessing to you as you walk through these difficult days -

Pearls of Wisdom said...

Thanks for sharing my wonderful friend. I am so glad you have Eddie. I will pray for you tonight. Blessings.

Hugs and Love,

Angel ( D.)

Terri @ In His Hands said...

((((((((((big hugs))))))))))
I'm lifting you up, girlfriend!

Amy said...

aww sorry you miss your mom, I can relate!

Alycia said...

Thank you for sharing your honest expression of thankfulness. My prayers are with you though such a difficult time. May God heal your heart, your hurt and give you His joy every day. Thank you Lord for giving Denise such a faithful husband to walk with her. Blessings to you.

Alycia said...

Thank you for sharing your honest expression of thankfulness. My prayers are with you though such a difficult time. May God heal your heart, your hurt and give you His joy every day. Thank you Lord for giving Denise such a faithful husband to walk with her. Blessings to you.

Crystal said...

Thank you for sharing even when things are difficult.....I know God will lift you up through this Thankful Thursday!
Blessings

eph2810 said...

Dear Denise,
I am so sorry that the sorrow has returned. I will lift you up in prayer tonight.
Thank you for sharing your grateful heart with us, despite your pain.

Blessings to you and Eddie.

Deborah said...

HOLD ON GIRL. Yes the men in our lives are very precious place by God Himself to comfort us and love us. love always me

Kim said...

I can only imagine your pain at losing your mother and I'm glad the Lord placed someone in your life to hold you when you get overwhelmed with it.

Dana said...

Denise, I am so glad you have Eddie too, God has placed a special man in your life to help you through your pain! I'll pray for your continued healing and that God would work greatly through the loss of your mom. (((HUGS)))

Christine said...

Denise, Eddie is such a gift from God- to be Jesus to you when you need it most. Thanks for sharing your pain and your thankfulness.

Viamarie said...

You are truly blessed with a very caring husband.

God Bless!

Changed by His Love said...

Weeping comes, but joy comes in the morning. I think one of the most valuable things I see you doing is contiuing to be thankful. I pray that you have a blessed day today.

Mindy said...

How sweet this is......it is so good that God gives us hands of our loved ones who will dry our tears and be our comfort.

Joyce said...

I know the pain your feeling...I lost my daddy in September. I am so thankful that your husband is there for you...what a blessing.

May God bless you!

IRENE said...

Hello Denise,
I am so sorry that you hurt. I didn't know.But I will think of you and pray for you.
You are so right and you do so well to be thankful. I think your momma will rejoice in seeing you in good hands and will be sending blessings to your husband for supporting you at times like these...God bless you and your husband.
I am thankful for your stopping by today.

Susanne said...

I am praying for you sweet friend. It is so wonderful to hear how your husband encourages you and lifts you up. Thank you for sharing your blessings, even in times of trial.

Lynn said...

Denise,

Wow, I love Eddie too. God bless you Eddie, Amen.

Lynn said...

Denise,

Wow, I love Eddie too. God bless you Eddie, Amen.

Nise' said...

May God continue to heal your hurting heart as you reach out to Him. You are doubly blessed to have an understanding and supportive husband to hold you while you grieve!

Linda said...

It is a comfort to know that no matter what we are struggling with Jesus knows and understand. When we weep, He weeps with us. You are blessed to have such a sweet, loving husband. I pray the Lord will give you grace and strength for each day and that His peace will fill your heart.

Connie Barris said...

Denise,
You are worthy. I am sorry that you have lived thinking you were not. That you hurt so much that you hurt yourself. That is a hard place to be. One that is hard to come out of. I watched my daughter do that and it was very hard for me. So it breaks my heart because I know how big your heart is.

I can't ease the pain of you missing your mom. I know how much you must love her....so I will pray for you

And thank Eddie for being there for you

and Pray some more for you

Love to you both.. and many hugs...

love you ......
Connie

Robin said...

I'm so glad you have a husband who exemplifies Jesus to you. Enjoy his embrace! Hang on, the good memories will eventually overtake the sorrow you feel for the loss of your mom.

Mary said...

Praying for strength for you, and for God to lift you up. He is the lifter of our heads. Praise God for your tender hubby. Climb into the Father's lap and let Him hold you tight. Blessings.

Deena said...

Praise God He is your rock, and He uses Eddie to demonstrate that to you. Sweet thing...wishin' I could give you this in person

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{BIG HUGS}}}}}}}}}}}

My momma and your momma are both probably up there right now talking to Jesus about us...wishin' we could eavesdrop!!

Beth/Mom2TwoVikings said...

I somehow missed in the year or so since I started blogging that you struggled with cutting. (((hugs))) So sorry for this burden on you but SO overjoyed to hear His love and your thankfulness shining through it all!

Lori Madison said...

Dear Denise,

When I was a teenager and I was in a lot of emotional pain, I used to break glass to cut myself so I know how the urge can come upon you when you are really suffering emotionally. Please know that you are not alone in this. Praying for you...

It's a FLIP-FLOP World said...

I am so sorry that you have been down. You always seem so up well guess you have been just sounding good to all of us. THanks for letting us in on how you REALLY feel. I was just sitting here thinking that I bet your mother would not like you thinking like this. So when you get down try to remember that she would not want you to be feeling this way. That might help you some. Sandy
Remember God loves you!!

Bernadine said...

Dear Denise,
I feel your pain and your hurt. I'm glad that you have someone to hold you close and dry your tears. I'll be praying for you tonight.
God bless

Rosemarie said...

Eddie is certainly God with skin on! I know we are all thankful for his love and comfort during your mourning seasons. God's blessings are yours.

Heavenly Voice

Jen said...

bless your hubby
big hugs
for you Denise
praise God too

Unashamed said...

I am thankful for your Eddie too.

By the grace of God ... said...

Thankful for your hubby dear friend -- your posts are such a blessing to me -- please rest in your hiding place and allow the Lord to comfort and be a balm to your sweet soul!! Huggles!!!

Darlene said...

I hope that my children love me even half as much as you love your mom. I've asked the Lord to comfort you.

Sabrina said...

What a great thankful post. Isn't it wonderful how God gives us a strong arm to lean on in our husbands? It sounds like yours is really special.

Karen said...

First, thank you for your sweet comments on my blog! You husband sounds like a treasure! I will be keeping you in my prayers.

Blessings to you and yours~
Karen